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last page for this week, i gotta get back to doing things. i expect each week ill have some random amount of pages ill post a day at a time

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close ups \/

I thought Simon gonna be only (haha) mildly freaked out when Rocky mentioned how he looks, because yeah, Simon hasn't exactly had a chance to use a mirror to see everything that's changed about him (and a window only does so much).

He had never wanted to see that book again. She had been in it. Gertrude said she'd dealt with it, and he'd seen the remnants of the burnt page shown to him.

But he needed to make sure she really, really wasn't there anymore. That she would never be anymore.

He flipped the book to the last page, something he'd done so many times that he had lost count. Relief flooded as that familiar page that haunted his waking life wasn't there.

And just as soon as the relief settled, he felt his stomach sink. There was a new page in this book. One much more recent than his mother's. Someone had bound a new page to this book in the time since his mother was released not too long ago.

He read the new page aloud.

I’ll put the Mer-Hua Cheng and Mer-Xie Lian side to side once I can get the sizes right.

The audacity of me, separating these two, even in art.

" I have more invested in your success and happiness than any of the sick, confused losers who want to rob you of everything you once had. Aren't you supposed to be getting your education and degree so that you could use your God given talent for His glory? Do you not think that He can take this talent away if you don't use it for Him."

At the time, i was still trying to deprogram myself from her influence so the thought that I could lose my artistic talent if i didn't stop transitioning was a very real fear, but u know what? I still did it. Being an artist has been a core part of my identity since i could conceptualize making art, and the only thing i've ever been truly good at.... and i would still trade it away if it meant getting to transition. i'd just start from square one again.

Now it's easy to look back and see that her leveraging my ability to create art was just a pathetic attempt to get me back under her control, but damn, i really just want to shove all that i've accomplished in her face like, " Did he do it yet? Did he take my talent away? Is there like, a time limit? i mean it's been like 8 years and i just seem to keep improving, whens this supposed to happen, Joan?"

Then stop reading, unsubscribe, and move on friend. I write for myself, it's my hobby, I'm doing it for fun. I don't get any compensation for it, I'm not getting paid. This is something I enjoy and do for myself, and I post it so people who are interested can enjoy it, too. But you aren't entitled to my work.

My priorities are working, paying my bills, feeding my family, and trying to enjoy my life. Fanfiction is a way to make the latter happen, not an obligation.

It'd incredibly rude to suggest someone who provides free fandom works should remove their writing for everyone just because you're upset that it's not finished yet. If you don't want to read unfinished works, AO3 has an option for that:

mike and michael. they do nothing, unless you want to change that, i just want to see their height difference, with our short sky king and tall as heck what, not a who

of whatever, i love your art in any way or form, thank you for making it

mike and michael. they do nothing, unless you want to change that, i just want to see their height difference, with our short sky king and tall as heck what, not a who

of whatever, i love your art in any way or form, thank you for making it

Cards on the table

Look who's decided to show up! Thanks again for @hemi-demi for looking through the text for me <3

If you are new to this AU, or don't remember: It's called Gertrude is still around or GiSA

You can see my other posts for this au here: Gertrude is still around au on tumblr, or you can check out The AO3 if you want to read all the chapters in one place