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Moonshine's Musings चांदनी का चिंतन

Love - I do not know what is it , what even is love , as easy it is to spell and speak this word love , it is so more difficult to give it away and so much more difficult to find love in life....

As i sit here with a heavy heart , that yes people say they love me but I never felt loved , I could never say that whenever I would be lost I will ask this person to help me find my way , I have to make my way alone , I have to pave this way , my heart is now afraid , it's afraid of trusting people again....

When I will find the love of my life , I will tell him about each tear I shed for someone else in his absence a someone who was not him , I will show him every scar I ever got from myself and others...

I will cry , cry to my heart's desire , cry to a point where there is no more of these traitorous tears left to shed on something or someone. I will tell him to take me in his embrace and let me outpour my pain , the profound hurt which my heart holds , the anguish....

I will let it all out in front of him cause there's no epic intimacy then being vulnerable in front of the person you love where even after that even after they see you in your most vulnerable state they love you dearly and worship you as the boon and bane of their existence....

हमें ले लो अपनी बाहों में , और रोने दो आज हमें सीने में छुपे दर्द को , जाहिर करने दो हमें हमने नदी समझ कर दर्द , संजोया था इस सीने में तुम्हारे सामने ना जाने , सागर कैसे बन गया ....

I want to crumble in the arms of person I love so that he knows how much I have waited for him , how much I love him.....

And I hope when I find the love of my life I am in the right state of mind and do not push him away in my rage....

My dear past self it's not who you thought would be this person....

My dear future self I hope you find your "HOME" soon