RedWasHere

my life be so good then BOOM! Immeasurable Sadness

oh Remembering The Past we’re really in it now

hey so. why is love like. i’ll dig through the dirt for you. words autocorrect to your name. is this sunset you? do you see me now? i remember your funeral and forget it even more. this time a year ago you were alive and i was in love with you. do you hear the train whistle?

i still love desperately and like i won’t take another breath ever again

y’all ever get that feeling where it’s the middle of the night and your friends are asleep on the other side of the country and it’s been 8 months and you still feel the pain like it was yesterday, but it’s bearable now. i miss you too much to live but love them too much to die. i think of the word dichotomy and look at the stars while the crickets scream. i miss you. i’ll love you forever. it’s difficult

sometimes i stay up at night dreaming scenarios of you if you were still around. i got your ashes on my jeans and i don’t know how to feel about it

yknow sometimes you’re doing good and then you wake up and it’s your birthday and it’s been four months since your friend died and you’ll always be older than him. and his mom sends you a card and a pair of cassette earrings and you think back to that christmas a year ago when you gave him a cassette player and a bunch of your old tapes. and you cry on your birthday because he’ll be fifteen forever and no one’s ever gonna be there to tell you that you’re getting old when you get to school.

there is so much love evrywhere. u change me and i love u and i’m getting u a sweater for ur bday. i’ll cry w u and i’ll love w u and we will have fun and have so many summers and christmases and memories. i love u as much as i love everything. infinitely

something ab love feels like crawling out from a cold alleyway to scratch at someones front door

its so hard being in love. like heres my whole heart that im trusting u with. ur so important to me its scary. we’re so young and i cant wait to grow up with u. i love u