so i think i enjoy pain a lot in the moment like impact shit but dealing w it afterwards is actually making me wanna kms like im covered in bites and hickeys and bruises from yesterday and my bodys hurtinggg it makes me so tired n low energy its like i dont feel ljke doing anything and when i cant do anything it makes me focus on the shit in my head and then become suicidal cuz inside my head is #MENTALILLNESS













