confuse the confused

When u start to talk to yourself n remember you don't live alone

Baby I don't feel so good, 6 words you never understood

I have changed my perspective on things always thinking I'm the problem and blaming a lot on myself..well I no longer agree with that, I have been through enough to say I cannot trust a single person and that my best friend is in fact myself as sad as that sounds but its the harsh reality. I sure have friends and best friends and great friends but the only true person that will be there 100% for myself is myself and I've learned to deal with it, yet some days are tougher than others. I'm happy lately which I know wont last forever but for the time being I can enjoy what I have and appreciate who sticks around. This year has been very stressful but full of a lot of memories, great memories, some I can even learn from. Back to changing my perspective, although I can be the problem sometimes I have agreed to try and step back and realize exactly every aspect of a situation and try to build myself from it and not blame anyone because we are all going through a lot. Especially the ages between 19-25 even to 30 its tough and these are the years you have to focus on yourself. Well I'm ending this rant with a nice goodbye🎉

Constantly feeling betrayed, constantly feeling like I'm loosing my friends..n that they're only using me. I have no motivation to prove them wrong when they believe I'm lying bc when I back up myself, that only "proves I'm trying to hide something". I don't deserve the disrespect. I don't know how to talk to anyone lately. I have been shitty to many but not the ones that have been making me feel like nothing. I know I'm strong enough to go on by myself but there is always going to be that feeling that I'm not needed and unwanted. That feeling has followed me through a lot and I wish to just find someone genuine enough to not leave me when I need someone..I am not desperate, I can do this for however long I need, but it would be nice to have what I once had.