Raven

“I want to be the first thing touch in the morning and the last thing you taste at night.”

I remember finding out that the person was going “is this allowed” to the girl bc the ‘guy’ in the photo is actually a realistic sex doll called a “sinthetic” that she was on a date with. They cost thousands of dollars.

“When I see myself I don’t see what I should I see dark I see scars I see hate I look at my eyes I see all the hurt I see the unshed tears I see a jaded gaze staring back at me I lick my lips I taste all the lies perched on them Ready to jump at any provocation I taste every kiss left by an uncaring boy I taste the ghost of a real smile that died years ago I touch my own hands I feel everything I can’t seem to let go I feel the chipped nail polish whose destruction mimics my sanity I feel a hand not worth holding I cut myself open. find my lungs and take a deep breath I see smoke in the shape of a homicidal specter I see Death,and his lover swaying to the haunting melody of my breathing I see the tortured fragments of a silent scream I move a little to left, find my heart and rip it out as it still beats I hold a stone hardened by reality I hold the demons fighting to be released I run my fingers over the stitches that are keeping me together I dig a little deeper to find my mind I see scary things hiding in the shadows I see the skeletons of my past I see a never ending sadness So I dig as deep as my shaking hand will reach and find my soul I see a small girl covered in blood I see a white light stained by cruelty I see the shattered remains of what must have been innocence h.a.”

“Be still, my heart, these great trees are prayers.”