Journey to discover the real me

Finding balance. I don't know how other people did it but I'm struggling. Working full time, entertaining and looking after a 2 year old, attempting to maintain a home and time for me. Let's just say there is no balance. Self time is not happening, home is liveable but not the way I want it..... because my number one priority is this gorgeous creature above..... is rather do better in spending time with her than keeping up with everything else.

Early morning selfie

2016 has not been our year. With illness, operations, cancer and more to come. I'm currently on my third consecutive sinus/cough/cold combo in a row. And I'm the least of the concerns, but it is hard to keep up. Little miss had a butt load of ear infections this year. Ended up getting grommets for her on 2 September. From Jan 1 till that point she'd had 8 ear infections. They have now all but cleared up. So that's a positive. On 3rd September my mum found a lump on her breast. It's cancer. She's had one round of surgery that is now leading to another surgery for a full mastectomy on Tuesday. Then there is recovery and at minimum life long hormone suppression drugs and radiotherapy. Chemo may still be necessary. I'm an only child, my parents are divorced and my mum lives 1.5hours away. It doesn't make it easy. Then there is my love. He is currently out of action with his back. He suffers from hereditary degenerative spinal issues. It's at a point that he is on super pain killers, MRI booked in and referral to neurosurgeon has been issued. If you know me on fb please don't disclose this information, but needed a place to share and unload.

I have a dinosaur sleeping on me!

...to fall asleep while getting a foot massage?!?! And the lovely Asian man didn't even laugh at me when i snored a little. It was truly the most relaxing thing I've done in ages.

Today I've done a few things for me that i don't normally do. I've had my hair cut in the first time in about a year. And I'm currently enjoying a foot massage. It's delightful. Would have been better if I hadn't had to go to the dentist. But that is also something else I've been putting off for too long.

Look at this little cutie

Kitty cuddles. Just chilling for a bit before my gf from the uk arrives to hang out. Then off to pick up the cutest girl in the world. I'm still amazingly enamoured by my child.

Well I live with someone that follows my blog. I gave him my blog address to read what I'm on about. I think sometimes it makes me think twice if I'm in a bad mood with him from posting. But otherwise I'm an open book and don't have an issue.I think I'd be more hesitant about if I was just dating.

So I've been a little bit of a stalker lately. Hiding in the shadows, popping up occasionally to like our comment on a post. I've probably missed lots as well. But I do try to check in to see how my favourites are doing. As for me, motherhood is treating me pretty well. I have a gorgeous smiling child that is easy going. I'm a little sleep deprived, but that is normal. I'm also struggling with thyroid issues at present. Just upped my dosage, so I hope that the changes start happening soon. Just been feeling very overwhelmed, exhausted, sad and very foggy. Not a great combo when working full time and having a baby. Thankfully Mr man is very helpful. I think I'd be in a heap in a corner of it wasn't for him. So that's me for now. I'll drop by again soon.

So it's been a long time since my last confession..... I mean post. Lots has been going on with me. I've started back at work full time. Not that I've managed that too well with my own sickness and that of bubs. But it feels like i never left. I miss my baby so very much, but she is awesome and handling daycare and daddy days really well. Even her illness she's been pretty good and hasn't let it bother her too much. She is 5 months old today. Time is going so fast. I wish it slowed down a little more. What have I missed. Tell me things!

Sleepy baby

Road tripping

Thought I'd show my face too. Ignore the hair!

And I'm in bed. Party animal