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I put these ShinHan TOUCH markers on my Christmas wish list and J got them for me. Some of the most wildly inaccurate names I've ever seen. 🤣

I’m always dreaming about missing class. About filling up my schedule with too many classes so that I can pick the ones that I really want to take and then drop out of the ones I don’t, except somehow I forget to drop out of those, and the semester is almost over, and I’m panicking because there are so many assignments and tests and lectures and readings I’ve missed. When I wake up, I feel unsettled but also happy because I don’t actually have school, that I haven’t been a student for years, that I have two degrees. But now my self-awareness of these facts have progressed to the point that, last night or this morning, I proudly declared in the most recent dream I graduated from college AND grad school! I don’t care if I fail these classes! I don’t need them! but I was still going to community college, I was still failing these classes, there was still the dawning realization that I had somehow forgotten, kept forgetting a huge part of my life.