self is universe

bored & sad

I feel like I am accountable for what happened because I was there. I didn’t like it & it wasn’t my intention but it doesn’t make sense because I was there. I’m scared to hear things from him & to be acused of things I don’t remember but it could be the truth because I was there.

Oi, ang laking bagay na may nahanap akong kasundo ko sa prinsipyo. Imagine, i mean, what if hindi ko close itong si Dane. As in, lahat ata ng visions na mayroon ako tugma sakaniya. 4th year college palang kami, he had plans na to build a company with me talaga until grumaduate na kami’t lahat, naging workmates kami. From us being a dreamers way back 2018, man, SEC approve na kami! BIR na next. May dinadrive kaming corporation. All from scratch, I can still remember that night sa likod ng Adventure ni Dane kung paano namin binuo nila Kuya Elvin plans namen sa harap ng convenient store, AllDay tk be specific, sa likod ng notebook ni Kuya Elvin. No joke, nanginginig kami sa kaba at excitement. It was fun, the thrill we had or still having. I’m really blessed having meet people who are helping me on my career growth, sharing same visions and principles. Malaking bagay ‘yun kasi if ako lang nako baka until now burnt out ako to be an employee nga to a company who doesnt care benefits you. And yeah, grateful nagtitiwala saken ‘tong sila Dane at Kuya Elvin. I mean, what have i even done? Hay, i think we’re gonna make it, kung hindi man at least we had an amazing experience as this. Its remarkable eh, i’d tell it to anyone.

Napakahirap ng simula. Anu’t ano pa man, kampante naman ako na magagawa ko lahat ng ‘to. I’m kinda proud of myself for having the courage to start a business partnership and a construction corp at the same time. Keeping a smooth sailin’ journey, never rushing yet I feel like i’m diving unprepared. I’m still on it, tho. I have tried being an employee two times at the wrong company or maybe they wasn’t wrong all the time. Pwedeng I am just in a wrong place. I’ve learned my story and I just can’t settle in another company with all these principles. I had known my name, I’m gonna stand to this beliefs. I think it’s safe to say that I am already a part of general contractor team; Inline Construction, Corp and a General Director of fillhere.ph. Yey!

i’m so stupid. just when everything’s finally going well between us i suddenly literally asked her to move in with me. wtf, dude.

she used to say she found me interesting. she wont talk to me daw if i wasn’t. guess i’m not interesting anymore ever since the day i told her i like her.