Bleeding Heart

You broke me down made feel nothing but everlasting fear.

Grow further from myself with every falling tear.

I just hope that I’m strong enough to overcome this swarm of pain.

Again and again.

Everyone but me could see the true you the mean and cruel you.

As soon as close my eyes all I see is the shit you’ve put me through.

The fear takes over like darkness to my heart consuming it till there's no longer light.

I still feel your hand around my neck squeezing so fucking tight.

Not knowing if my heart will ever beat right.

Am I ever gonna be able to keep up this fight.

Finding someone to set this darkness a light is the only way i'll know i can fight.

This shit ain’t right.

Everyone but me could see that you were nothing more than a broken dream.

You were never really on my side instead you broke me to the point where all I could do was just scream.

The fear takes over like darkness to my heart consuming it till there's no longer light.

Laying in my bed with the darkness slowly filling my head.

“Sharp scissor laid across the bed,All I see is red, I see red.”

Hiding my pain hiding my fear crying alone so no one will hear.

Bottle half empty and spilled over the bed wishing I was nothing but dead.

Trying so hard to not let this consuming darkness take over me.

Waiting for the day it will finally leave me be.

I glance over at you to see if you’ve even listened to a word I’ve said.

I just want to get all this pain out my head.

Hiding behind the person I’m told i have to be never truly being able to just be me.

I’ve come to accept that I’ll never be fully free.

If only they new how badly there words got into my head.

Now I lay in my bed and all I can see is red wishing I was nothing but dead.

Cutting myself up just to feel the smallest bit alive.