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We saw Belly being nothing but miserable with Conrad for a whole season. It took the span of a minute to show how much better off she is with Jeremiah.

(Ep 11 spoilers ahead)

When there's a chair right beside her but he kneels at her feet and softly looks at her with admiration while listening to her talk.

The way he confesses in a class *and* corridor full of high school kids and just stares at her with a big smile while she is processing what he just said. He doesn't care about anything but her at that moment.

When she runs towards him and offers to walk him to the school door, and he just endearingly smiles at her as they start walking. And can't forget that shoulder bump.

When she's serving him food at the restaurant, his smile is so wide and bright.

When she asks him if to eat and rest during the funeral, and he just softly smiles at her and tells her not to worry about him because he's okay. Because he doesn't want *her* to worry about him.

When he gently takes her hand in his and thanks her while staring at her with gratitude, because he's so thankful that she showed up to be there for *him*.

She's become an important part of his life, and might even have become the most important person to him. Because why would an ex-NIS Agent call a civilian to ask for help instead of his fellow ex-NIS agents, who technically would have more resources and ways to help him. When he is in danger, she is the first person he thinks of to call for help.

And the part which basically prompted me to make this whole post - he's memorized her number🥹 Somewhere along the way he consciously made the effort to memorize it AND he remembered it even with a severe head injury.

i'm going feral.

Your guard is up and I know why

Because the last time you saw me

Is still burned in the back of your mind

You gave me roses and I left them there to die

bc belly led jeremiah on and then kissed

conrad and jere is (rightfully) mad at her

So this is me swallowin' my pride

Standin' in front of you sayin' I'm sorry for that night

the tire fight when belly apologizes for

not being there for jeremiah and for what

she did last summer

It turns out freedom ain't nothin' but missin' you

Wishin' I'd realized what I had when you were mine

her wishing she had brought jeremiah to

prom and telling him she missed him

I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright

she'd change what happened and not

hurt him how she did, also bc her and

conrad spent time together in cousins in

december and didn't tell jeremiah

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times

I watched you laughin' from the passenger's side

THEY HAVE A DRIVING THING. i feel like

it can't be more jelly coded than this.

summer, driving, laughing and actually

being happy

And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days

When fear crept into my mind

she got with conrad and had to fight for

him to show her he loved her. and he was

cold and distant

You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

he consistently was there for her and

she wasn't there when he needed her

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile

So good to me, so right

And how you held me in your arms that September night

The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinkin'

Probably mindless dreamin'

But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't

So if the chain is on your door, I understand

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