Daft Blue 🌃

This year has been abundant with change for me.. so much so that It's given me a lot of grace. But with that grace, my thoughts race. CPTSD has been a complete struggle for me as of late. It's something that I've pushed aside for years. Panic attacks resurfacing here and there, memories that were forgotten popping back up. I feel like my mind desperately wants to heal now that my chronic pain has been taken care of. Now that I'm in a safer environment, I feel like my mind has had more time to let it's self go, if that makes sense.

Toxic shame, that's my biggest hurdle yet. I've been so self aware yet avoidant about it for so long. It's been pretty bad this month. It's really taken a toll on my social life. Making me paranoid about existing friendships, all while putting my heart on my sleeve to people I don't know as a desperate attempt to make more friends to talk to. And when I feel like I've annoyed someone I take it to heart and self loath. It's gotta stop at some point.

Last night I had a breakdown on my partner. I had spent most of the afternoon doing paperwork, then had to deal with the damages from our local flood. It was incredibly stressful, but manageable for the average person. The added stress on top of what I was mentally going through kinda broke me. But it opened me up to him and what was bugging me. My self esteem and how I perceive friendships/relationships. So I made this mini comic to remind myself of what he said.

I wouldn't say my partner is Charles in this piece, but I wanted him to carry these words to GM08... aka me. I wanted to incorporate my Daft Punk AU with what he said yesterday because It felt right. I have never drawn Charles before this comic so I knew a new face would make it even more special. I feel like he would be a family friend of the two robots. Kinda like the couples' best friend trope that they both vent to. Either about each other or whatever is bothering them.

Last Song: Trap Summers are Always the Best Summers by Amarionette. Just discovered this group via their collab with Andres... Absolute fire

Currently Watching: Trying to figure that out tbh. I normally listen to random YouTube vids while working but I thought about downloading tubi and listening to a show or sum. Suggestions welcome

Currently Reading: buddy I have a handful of fanfics saved on my phone and have only touched one of em. I have so much I want to read including the Halo books but I have been incredibly busy with art and gaming.

Current Obsession: Daft Punk and Halo. Sly cooper in the bg of my head always

Currently Working on: Progressive overloading, Kofi/Discord member requests, a commission, and my comic. Busy week.

Currently Wearing: Nyan cat hoodie and ripped jeans.

Last Google Search: "Passion Fruit Annoying Orange"