Difficult Suggestions

I’m too scared. To pour my heart into anyone. I’m too scared. For the pain that comes after.

What once sounded like a lullaby now gives me sleepless nights

You were so fucking mean and I want to shit on everything you love

moving on is what I’m going to do, I will make this work. I have to. I have to. I have to.

Tomorrow has to be a better day. It has to be. It has to be.

The only reason I want you back is because focusing on your problems is easier than improving myself.

words can't describe how much it hurts to care again.

From the bottom of my heart, fuck you and every shitty thing you made me believe.

it’s only been a few days since you erased me from your life and blocked me on everything, but despite all that hurt it caused me, it made me learn to realize what went wrong and to listen more, but you’re not there to hear it, and you’ll never want to. but i thank you for helping me see the light and i have nothing but love in my heart for you.

last night I deleted the last screenshot I had of our texts, an ironic “I’ll always be here. At anytime. No matter what” Where did you go?

sometimes you are the problem, and that’s okay. learn from it and grow.

i wonder how it feels to be an abuser? To look at someone and know that you hurt them, even if it doesn’t look like it and even if you stopped years ago. I hope one day you realise what you did to me, and that you’ll finally realise how i felt all those years ago.

i finally blocked my manipulative and maybe abusive ex. it was hard but i’m glad i did

you took everything away from me. even the ability to call myself abused.

I know that my whole life will be spent explaining the hole in my life where my parents should be, telling each and every person some empty half-truth in the hopes that it'll shut them up, but I'd rather become a broken person with a ruined life than spend another day waiting for you to get angry enough to send me to a hospital.

You can open my chest and handle my heart delicately, yeah, but after you’re done, you dig your fingernails into it merely to get your kicks.