Chloe Valentine Anslow

Control

One thing I've learned is that I lean towards men and women who like control and are really insecure. I say this as me and my boyfriend have just broken up (I laugh as I write this but I've wanted to cry since he said it).

I say this now as the past three relationships I've been in, have mostly been on and off at the snap of a finger (one wasn't) and would always go about telling me what to do.

I don't know why, maybe I like a challenge.. Or maybe I want to help everyone and heal those who are hurt, I want to be needed.

As a woman who goes by the beat of her own drum, I love them and I especially loved him but I do not do well with unjustified authority, being told to shut up and sit down loads as a child and (trigger warning) as a victim of rape, it is the last thing now as a grown woman that I could ever want. After finally finding myself, for someone to douse out that light for the sake of their ego.

What made it worse was that it was okay for them to do whatever they wanted, say and message whoever. Like, hypocrisy please?! And somehow for them it's , but I have to do the time.

I'm sure I will grow from this as a person, I love him to pieces so whatever happens, happens. I'm down for if we get back together, I'm also down if we are not.

Done crying over it now. Because I know I'm worth more and I know I'm more than this.

So I coloured my ends purple, needed a refreshing change from going all brown! I've had a history of colouring my hair but I was never sure of why I kept doing it. It started from blonde highlights at about 14 to red(the longest colour I had!), various shades of brown, and doing my ends in various colours!! (And using various wigs)

Pink (hot pink & rose gold)

Turquoise (which faded to green)

Blonde

Orange

And now, purple!

I don't think I could ever keep to a consistent colour and I have made plans to return natural when I get married and when I give birth. Maybe there will be a time I can chill and keep to one colour long term 😂😂