Diaper Stuff

The first time I did it, I had such conflicting feelings, I remember feeling embarrassed, humiliated and gross, but yet… there was a tiny part that felt nice..? I wasn’t quite sure my thoughts on it.

I shelved it away for a while, only trying a handful of times after. I came to realize that while I like how little it makes me feel, as a little without a daddy back then, I did not enjoy the clean up at all. Especially because I was still living at home and it was a major pain to take care of a messy diaper.

When I met Daddy we both talked about this before but going in front of someone is incredibly hard, I eventually did it with him in the same room. And we always have playtime after I’ve made a messy in my diaper/pull up.

Cg quickly closes the diaper again, doesn’t re-tape it but just holds it shut and says “hey baby do you need to go poopy?” He shakes his head no as he distractedly sucks on his fingers on one hand and holds his stuffie in the other.

“No? Hmm.. can you push for me just to try?”

He pulls his fingers out of his mouth and clenches his fists and scrunches his face up before he lets out a few grunts. CG has their hand cupped on the back of the diaper and still isn’t feeling anything so they open it up a bit to peak in and suddenly see the turtle head slither out further and hit the squishy inside of the diaper.

“Uh oh!” Cg says in surprise and closes the diaper back up again, holding it shut as it fills up quickly.

“All done?” Cg asks when the grunting stops and his fingers go back into his mouth.

“Poopy!” He says and giggles, kicking his feet a little as cg pulls the diaper back open and prepares some wipes for the much bigger mess now nestled in his wet diaper.

Oopsie! What a tiny little to not even know that he was about to go poopy - good thing CG spotted what was happening! This scenario is so sweet that it's making me melt a little~

The way they fidget in their seat and I know they're actively filling the seat of their diaper, the embarrassment is palpable and intoxicating to me. I could nourish myself for days off of their little whines and barely concealed moans as they push the last of it out into their diapers, proving to me exactly why they need them and that I was so right to insist they were too little for pull-ups.

I mean, if you're going around peeing your pants all the time, you can still claim to be a toddler who just isn't potty trained. But if you're still pooping your pants, and your Daddy has to keep you in diapers so you don't make a mess all over yourself? That's just proof that you're undeniably a baby, and you'll have to sit in your shame for a bit until Daddy decides he's had enough of teasing and torturing you in your ridiculous little predicament.

She knew there were only a few pages left and she was trying to get as comfortable as possible before her nap. She had already shifted from her back to her side, her other side, and now her tummy. Every time she tried a new position her diaper rustled softly on the sheets, the under layer crinkling louder in return. Finding the right position wasn't as important has letting the pressure in her gut and bottom out, though, but it would be helpful.

"You're squirmy today," Mommy said in between pages.

"I wanna get comfy," Camille muttered and grasped her arms together in front of her and tucked her bare legs and knees under her body, butt slightly raised in the air. She smiled to herself when she realized she was in a modified child's pose. It was almost too on point.

As Mommy read the concluding they all lived happily ever after, Camille let herself start to relax the tension that had been building in her.

Her insides knew exactly what to do and everything shifted in to place. With her bottom slightly raised she gave a little push and a thick log began its way out of her. She didn't even need to work for it, she just merely gave her body permission to let it come. It was just firm enough to give some resistance to the back of her diaper before balling up and settling. Camille gave one more small push and a small, softer piece came out. She could feel it spread over the lump already in her pull-up. A trickle of pee escaped her too and got wicked away by the thick padding. The heaviness was now spread from the back to the middle, it was warm and felt indescribably good.

She straightened her legs out with a sigh. Her bottom dropped with another rustle of the sheets and she burrowed back into the pillows, her task accomplished. She looked up at Mommy with a sleepy smile and eyes large with relief and pleasure.

Mommy looked back at her with fondly, slightly biting her bottom lip. She knew what the answer would be but asked anyway. "Want me to change you?"

"No, now I'm comfy!" Camille exclaimed. She reached for her stuffed fox and brought the pacifier clipped to her shirt up to her mouth.

Sleeping with a fresh messy diaper was exactly what she needed. Her mess was pushing all the right buttons in her erogenous zone. The pressure of it bellow her bottom and between her legs, the warmth, the arousal of doing something so gross but also endearing in front of her Mommy. She was only little, she couldn't help it. It was almost too much to bear, she had to do something with this feeling. Without even thinking about it she flexed her hips into the mattress.

"Hey now, none of that. You can sleep in a yucky diaper but you know you're not allowed to do that without me. It's nap time now, sweetie." Mommy brushed a few hairs away from Camille's face and was met with a tremendous pout.

"When I wake up? Please?"

"Let me think about it. Try and stay on your belly, ok? Here, I'll slide the mat under you for extra protection, up-up".

Mommy smoothed the corners of the changing mat straight under Camille. Camille's breathing was already evening out and her eyes were starting to droop. Mommy rubbed her between the shoulder blades for a few minutes before standing up and flicking on the nightlight.

"Have a good sleep, baby. Love you."

She wakes you up in the morning to show you what you’ve done and you promise her through tears it’s just a blip! “Aw baby, don’t worry! I’m sure it’s just a one off…” and here comes this but “but just in case maybe you should wear a pull up tonight?”

You don’t even question why she has pull ups just on hand but she talks you into it with that silver tongue of hers over the course of the day and you find yourself standing as she helps you into a pull up, sliding it up your hips as you stand there rethinking your life choices.

Rinse and repeat… she stands and watches as you wet your pull up, hand in the bowl again. Just as she hoped, your pull up overflows and you wet the bed anyway. This time, she wakes you up feigning concern as her lovely girlfriend is clearly a proper bedwetter now and she just must have you wear thicker padding tonight, no ifs or buts!

Again, you don’t question why she has a pack of adult diapers in the wardrobe, you’re just thankful that she’s so prepared for your accidents! Your girlfriend praises you as she tapes you, her adult partner, into a diaper! “Gosh you look so cute in this! You should totally wear these all the time!” She says as she presses a quick peck to your lips and helps you up.

messy diapers are objectively icky and yet, they are SO fucking hot. literally nothing turns me on more than messing my diapers.

all of my hottest fantasies involve messy diapers OR are made hotter with a messy diaper.

backseat diaper change? how much hotter if it’s a stinky diaper?

using my diaper in someones lap? how much hotter if i’m filling the seat of my diaper with a mess while they hold me??

spankings over someones lap? imagine getting a long spanking and humiliating commentary while in a messy diaper?! how much hotter is THAT?!?!

being unable to hold it and uncontrollably using your diaper? much, MUCH hotter if it’s a big mess that you literally can’t help but push out into your diaper?

bedwetting? imagine waking up with a messy diaper?!

asking for a change and being told to wait? how much hotter if you have to go back to playing LEGOs in your stinky diaper?

being diaper checked and told you need a change? again, imagine it’s a stinky bulge in the back of your diaper that they feel, or pulling open the back waistband???

Drop ⬇️

& pee

Also me, five minutes later:

Going on a work trip? Too bad, your suitcase is going to be filled with padding, because you can’t wet the hotel beds.

Someone is staying over, you have to have “the talk” as you slip into your thick crinkly underwear

Anytime you have an argument with your partner, the next morning the get up to pee while you wake up in a soaked diaper

You can’t control it, it isn’t something you’re “doing” it’s something about you.

You’re a bedwetter - you wet the bed. That’s who you are.

Sleepovers come with having to tell are your friends your going to piss yourself tonight

People have to know, you can’t hide it.

You are a bed wetter.

Goodnites are for kids who know they need to pee, and can make it to the potty to pull them down...

They don't work well when you just lay back and pee the bed. They're not meant for poopy accidents either.

🤐 Level 0- They quietly ask if you're wet.

🖐️Level 1- They lightly grope the outside of your pants to see how damp they feel while you play in the park.

↩️ Level 2- They pull back your waistband and loudly ask if you pooped in the grocery store.

⬇️ Level 3- They pull your pants all the way down, revealing your entire diaper and tell you how destroyed it is. They do not care if you're at the mall with your friends.

Chapter 3

“Okay sweetheart… are you about ready? I’m a hungry mommy!”

“Yea…I’m sorry. I didn’t realize just how thick and noticeable these diapers were… like all of my clothes don’t really cover it at all, lol… not super sure how I feel about that…”

“ do you mind if I come back there and help?”

“I mean… if you want, I don’t know if you’ll be able to magically see something I don’t…”

“ it’s not that I’ll find something you don’t see, it’s that… Whenever I decide what you’re wearing, that’s what you’re wearing… And we’re leaving! Isn’t it fun how the Mommy duties work?”

“ you’re the boss Mommy… I noticed that pink see-through backpack in the corner stocked with diaper supplies, I have to put the ass in assume that’s my new diaper bag?”

“ you know for a girl that does her bathrooms in her pants… You’re a pretty smart! lol”

“Yea yea. I hope you keep that same enthusiasm. When you check me one of these times, and there’s a big stinky surprise for you.”

“ wow… My daughter is threatening me with a messy diaper…SMH… and if you tried to put on one of your skirts? I have a feeling that’s gonna be our best bet to cover your diaper as much as possible.”

“ I thought about trying a skirt, but I figured that my diaper butt would just hang out the back…”

“ I didn’t say, miniskirt, dummy… You’ve got a few longer skirts in the back of your closet…I know you do. Let’s find one of them, and see how that does. I’m sure you’re still gonna be waddling, and making a loud crinkle… But at least we can make your diaper less noticeable. And I’m sure, no one’s going to immediately think, oh that girl’s wearing a diaper.”

“ oh gosh… Then I should definitely wear one of the mini skirts so that everyone knows I’m wearing a diaper! Lmfao”

“ would you seriously deal with that on your first time being taken out in a diaper publicly? Like… I had all intentions of easing you into all this….but, I’m game if you are?”

“ you’re in charge Mommy… You’ll be the one answering questions about why your older daughter is in a diaper, so…”

“ here… This is the middle of the road skirt…yea, that covers everything… But there’s still a nice diaper bulge, and a loud crinkle… I think that’s more than appropriate for your first time being taken out noticeably diapered…”

“ OK mommy!”

Ruth got Ashlee all dressed in the medium length skirt, that did cover her diaper completely… But definitely didn’t hold anything to the imagination about the small frame teenager and her crinkly walks. You could tell Ashlee was super excited, and super thankful. As with every move and crinkle of her new diaper… Ashlee smile only seem to widen as her face was rose, stained with blush.

Just before leaving Ashlee‘s room, Ruth grabbed the freshly packed diaper bag… And followed her daughter down the hallway towards the front door to get back in the car to head to lunch. As Ruth and Ashlee got situated in the car, got their seatbelts fastened… Ruth giggled and uttered towards Ashlee:

“ we haven’t even talked about where we’re going…lol…”

“ you know where we’re going, mom… is it even a question anymore?”

“La Tortugas…lmfao, we are both suckers for Mexican food, aren’t we?”

“ if it didn’t taste so damn good… Plus, a big icy glass of Horchata is calling my name!! that’ll probably give me a Headstart on getting my diaper filled up too!”

“ Can I ask you a question without sounding weird?”

“ well with a presentation like that… How could I say no”

“ are you nervous at all about peeing and/or pooping in your diaper the first time when it needs to happen? I’ve thought about myself in your situation if the roles were reversed, and that is something that I just could never get past mentally going to the bathroom in a diaper.”

“ I’m trying not to think about it, to be honest…like… I fully understand that is going to be my reality, so I’m trying to just not think about it and when things need to happen start letting them happen without thinking about it. If my goal, your goal, etc. the goal… Is going to be for me to potentially un potty train… from everything I’ve read, I just have to start letting him go when I start feeling like I need to and eventually, I’ll stop noticing. I’m doing it.”

“ so just like that, nonchalantly… You admitted that you want to be un potty trained? Did I hear you correctly?”

“ you said it first… Earlier. I was just taking your lead. Plus, yes… as of this moment… I’m not gonna be in diapers two weeks, I’m prepared to be in diapers for as long as I can be! And the thoughts of wedding or messing myself without warning or without control… honestly gives me butterflies in my stomach, and makes me feel tingly… does that make sense? Am I crazy?”

“ makes perfect sense… Slightly crazy, but I love you the same! And I am prepared and comfortable, checking and changing all those wet and messy diapers to help get you to that goal! I really hope you still have this much confidence and wanting to wear diapers, after you have to go to school and them week after next…”

“ well I guess it’s partly up to you to help keep me on that path! Encourage me to be a diaper girl, make me feel normal… And I feel like all of that will happen! I’m still having a hard time registering, that you put all this together yourself… And you’re giving me everything I wanted without having to go to the confidence killing embarrassment of talking to you about wanting to be in diapers as a 15-year-old… I’ve read so many stories of teens, talking to their parents, and being totally torn to pieces for this, and that definitely scared me.”

“ I read some of that too, which is partly why I made the decision to bring this on you and not give you the choice… I want you to feel supported, loved, and taken care of to the best of everyone’s abilities so that you know what this is really like and from the sounds of things we make this our reality!”

It was then, that the two finished the short drive to the Mexican place, and eagerly unbuttoned their safety belts and began power walking towards the front door… when, roof stopped mid Step and exclaimed:

“Oh shit… I forgot to grab your diaper bag. Why don’t you take the keys and go grab it, and I’ll go inside and get us a table! Sound good, sweetie?”

“ yes ma’am”

The restaurant wasn’t very busy for it being lunchtime on a Friday, but Ruth wasn’t complaining as she was hungry and hoping that meant their food would come faster than usual. She was greeted by one of the hostesses they knew quite well from attending the restaurant, and because she was in one grade higher than Ashlee. Matter of fact, the two had played and hung out together when they were young younger as the moms were good friends. As she was telling the girl, Joy… that Ashlee would be in in a second… Joy immediately perked up, and was excited to see Ashlee as it had been a while since the two had spoken. Not too long after, Ashlee pushed open the front door and lock eyes with joy and her mother while holding a clear see-through backpack with colorful diapers, baby powder and etc. while Ashlee enthusiastically waddled and made crinkle sounds without a care in the world.

“ Ashlee… It’s been too long! Give me a hug slut!”

Ashlee smiled, gently handed the diaper back to her mom and embraced for a warm hug from her friend. As the two were hugging, joy decided to be a brat and grab Ashlee’s butt like they had always done when they hugged…. It was right before Joyce’s hands touched Ashlee’s loud crinkly diaper that Ashlee snapped out of it and realized what was about to happen….

“ wow… this is an interesting ski skirt! Is there some kind of weatherproof liner? What the heck am I feeling?”

“Ohhh…lol… that’s Ashlee’s diaper, lmfao. Probably should’ve warned you before you did your traditional hug and butt squeeze.”

“ what was that… Did you say Ashlee’s diaper? Like, the 15-year-old girl in front of me that I’ve known for 10 years… Is wearing a diaper? Are you wearing a diaper Ashlee? Why are you wearing a diaper? I’m so confused…”

Ruth, noticing that Ashlee was turning red a little faster than traditional blush… quickly chimed in to alleviate joy’s concerns… And to let her daughter blissfully melt away into silence as this will be the first time she’s humiliated in front of someone she knows because of her new diapered reality…

“ yeah… Actually started having some nighttime accidents again, which started turning into some daytime accidents so after taking her to the doctor and having some test run, it was everyone’s conclusion that the best bet would be just to keep her in diapers for the time being, so that she doesn’t have wet pants!”

“ so Ashlee’s been wearing her pants, and bed…damn. I’m sorry Ashlee. I didn’t mean to be rude… it just startled me, lmfao. So are those her diapers in that bag? They’re really cute!”

“Yes…lol. She’s wearing one of this kind right now! lol. Looks like Ashlee is a little bit embarrassed…”

“Awwww…. I’m sorry, sweetheart… I think it’s cute and adorable that you’re wearing diapers again! And cute diapers on top of that! Can I take a peek under her skirt and see her with her diaper on? Lmfao. “

“ Ashlee… Do you want to show your diaper to Joy?”

All Ashlee could do was shrug her shoulders… And stare at her mother with the same tears developing in her eyes…

“ tell you what… Ashlee, sweetheart… Why don’t you take Joyce’s hand and walk to the bathroom with her OK… I’m gonna go sit down at our booth, and enjoy. Will bring you over after she checks your diaper…”

“ what do I have to do to check it?”

“ you don’t have to check it Joy… I was just saying that to make it sound more like you have a reason to see her diaper, lmfao. … Take her to the bathroom go check it out, then take her to our seat so we can eat…”

“Ok!!!”

Joy said with a little too much enthusiasm her voice…

“ take my hand, sweetheart… let’s go check that diaper out!!”

Begrudgingly, Ashlee listened to her mother as well, listened to joy, grasped her hand and allowed her to be escorted to the restroom at the Mexican restaurant so that this girl basically the same age as her could check out her diaper… Ashlee’s mind was racing, while she totally expected situations and etc., similar to this… She did not in the least think things like this would happen on the first day let alone first few hours of her being back in diapers. However, mixing alongside the anxiety and apprehension, was a large hunk of curious anticipation, as she knew she’d be humiliated… But also, this was the types of things she was hoping to experience when getting put back into diapers full-time.

After a quick walk to the restroom, Joy put her head in to make sure everything was clear… And invited Ashlee to join her in the empty restroom.

“ OK honey… Are you sure this is OK? Like, I realize I kind of just asked and sprang it on you guys. But I just wanna make sure that you’re comfortable with this sweetie.”

“Um…yea… it’s OK I guess. Mommy told me to take your hand and do what you said, so that’s what I did!”

“Okay, so you have to listen to what Mommy says or you’ll get in trouble?”

“ apparently that is one of the potential outcomes, lol. But it’s OK… Seriously”

“ OK sweetie…so… are you comfortable with me just lifting your skirt up and check your diaper out, or would you feel more comfortable lifting your own skirt up so I can see your diaper? I just wanna make you comfortable and not skeeved out or anything.”

“ to be honest Joy, it’s really up to you… My job is to do what I’m told and be a good girl… it sounds like you want to just lift my skirt up and check my diaper out, so why don’t you go ahead and do that?”

With that being said, joy grasp the bottom of Ashlee skirt with a big goofy smile on her face and began slowly raising the garment upwards slow slowly, exposing Ashlee’s thick babyish diaper little by little. At about the time, Joy had Ashlee skirt all the way above her diaper waistband, exposing her entire diaper situation… the door swung open, to a middle-aged woman minding her own business trying to use the restroom as she walked in on two younger girls one holding the other skirt up, exposing a big babyish a diaper…

“Woah… I’m sorry… I’ll give you to some privacy… that’s a very cute diaper you have on sweetie!”

After the confused lady, close the door, both girls began giggling, as both of them felt the slight tingle of embarrassment. Despite the fact that only Ashlee was wearing a diaper and looking like a big toddler. Joy lifted Ashlee skirt up once again, to get one good last look… And to exclaim to Ashlee how absolutely adorable she looked in her diaper and not to feel bad about the fact that she’s wearing them but to be proud.

“ OK little girl… I say we get you to your mom before anybody else tries to walk in and see your exposed diaper, what do you say?”

“ yeah… I’m kind of shaking that was embarrassing…”

“Awww, is there anything I can do, sweetie? I’m so sorry that happened.”

“ no, it’s OK… I need to get used to these things…”

“ so if you don’t mind me asking, why are you back in diapers? Are you having some medical issues or something?”

“ do you want the answer that I’m gonna tell most people, that mom is telling people… Or the brutal truth that doesn’t have a whole lot of rhyme or reason?”

“ I mean, when you give me options like that… I’m gonna of course, want the brutal truth…lmfao”

“ I kind of figured… I’ve actually been interested in going back into diapers full-time for a long time… And after Mommy found some stuff on the Internet that I’ve been reading and posting… She decided that I needed to find out what being back in diapers was really about. So starting today, I’ll be in full-time diapers for two weeks. And after that, it’ll be up to me if I stay in them.”

“ what are you telling other people?”

“ what you first thought… That I’m having medical issues or urge incontinence or accidents… anything to make the normal people not shun me for wanting to be in diapers again…”

“Awww… I don’t see how anyone could make fun of you for being in diapers, honey… You’re too damn cute in that thing! Lmfao. Before I ask your mom and make a fool of myself, is she like finding babysitters and stuff for you or how does that work?”

“Um, yeah… Actually. I’m not allowed to ask for a change or change myself so they’ll always need to be someone around to check and see if my diaper needs to be changed. And I’m sure if you’re enthusiastic, and interested that Mommy would be more than happy to discuss babysitting me with you.”

“ OK… How about this? How would you feel about me babysitting you? Like, I realize we’re close to the same age that’s probably pretty embarrassing, but I’m offering so…”

“ to be honest, it’s not really up to me. It’s up to Mommy… But if you’re asking, I would have no problem with you babysitting me. As long as you don’t have a problem, changing wet and messy diapers. lol. Besides, I already know that Hayley is gonna be babysitting me and she’s the same age as me so I don’t see why there would be an issue with you.”

“ your friend Hayley?!? Awww… that’s adorable, and you’re comfortable with her or me seeing your diaper area exposed and all that? Not to be weird or anything.”

“ I mean… It’s a diaper change. lol. As long as you treat it as such, I don’t see why anyone would have a problem.”

“ fair enough… well when I take you back to sit with your mom I’m gonna bring it up to her real quick in front of you. Just see your aware that I’m going to. And if at any time, I’m babysitting you or anything and I make you uncomfortable. Please speak up so that I can amend my behavior and give you the best experience that I can!”

“Ok…”. Ashlee said through thick blushing cheeks.

“ what’s so funny Ashlee?”

“ I just didn’t anticipate anybody thinking it was cute or adorable or wanting to change me and the fact that you’re being so open and honest just makes me feel a little better about being in diapers is all!”

“Awww… see, now I can’t wait to change your dirty diapers and blow raspberries on your tummy! Put you in the bathtub and make lots of bubbles and all sorts of fun activities! Lol”

“ that all sounds cool… But I must preface, I don’t really understand the ideology of being treated like a baby/little. Your best bet, just treat me like someone my age who needs to wear diapers and needs help getting changed and all that!”

“ how about I treat you how I’m gonna treat you little girl lmfao. Come on, let’s get you back to your mom.”

Joy reached out her hand toward Ashlee’s hand, and once again requested her to grab it so the two could walk out of the restroom and to the booth where Ruth had already ordered drinks Emma’s already starting to munch on chips and salsa…

“Hey kids! So what did ya think Joy? Cool, or wtf? lol”

“ thank you so much for allowing me to check her diaper out… I wasn’t anticipating that, and it was honestly really cute! So cute, in fact… I want to throw my name in the hat for if you need Babysitter or any help with her! I already asked her in the bathroom, and she said that she would be comfortable with it and to ask you!”

“ really?!? 30 seconds seeing her and her fresh clean thick diaper in a public restroom made you want to babysit and change her wet, stinky diapers?”

“Yea! lol. It’s not really about her diapers… It’s about how calm and cool she’s acting with them and I just think that’s super unique and I would love to help out where I could.! Plus… I really did think it was cute seeing her in that diaper! Lol”

“ see Ashlee… It’s not just me that thinks you’re adorable in your new diapers! lol. But yes, joy… Write your number down and give it to me before we leave… and we’ll text sometime over the next few days and find a time for you to babysit for a few hours to see how things go and then we’ll start figuring out and schedule if all goes well”

“ that’s so awesome Ruth! Thank you so much, you guys enjoy your lunch… I’m gonna write down my number and give that to you real quick so I don’t forget, and Ashlee… I want you to make lots of messy and wet diapers today. OK little girl? What a cutie!”

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“So… how did it go? That wasn’t too much too fast was it? I just saw the opportunity, and went with it. lol. I’m so sorry if that made you really uncomfortable…”

“No… actually… I thought it was kinda hot. lol. The only thing that was uncomfortable, was the lady that walked in while she had my skirt hyped up, looking at my diaper. lol. That wasn’t anticipated, and was slightly embarrassing.”

“Oh shit…really? Who? lol”

“ I think she was on her way out, but she was nice about it… Even complimented on how cute my diaper was to joy. lol.”

“ see… Everybody thinks your diapers are absolutely adorable! I didn’t even think they were gonna look at cute!”

Ashlee and her mother’s conversation went congruently as stated for the next few minutes as they shared chips and salsa, and sucked down some large ice cold Horchatas. Their food came out fast, and before they knew it, they were both done eating, and it was time to pay the bill and head back towards the house. Before they headed out, Ruth felt it necessary to give a quick diaper check to Ashlee, just to get her used to being checked in public whenever she’s asked.

“ hey little girl… Why don’t you come to the bathroom with me real quick so we can check that diaper before we leave?”

“ really? It’s not like we live five minutes away…”

“No..really… are you back talking to me? More specifically, are you back talking to me when it comes to your diaper being checked? I would advise you not to do that, I’m gonna let it slide since it’s day one… Give me your hand and let’s go to the bathroom and check that diaper.”

“ yes mommy… I’m sorry…”

“ good girl”

After it was established that Ashlee’s diaper was still dry, they paid their bill, and headed in the parking lot to pile in the car to head back towards the house. On the drive home, Ruth decided to ask a few questions she’s been thinking about… and gauge Ashlee’s comfort level as it comes to other aspects of this potential never-ending diaper salutation.

“ miss Ashlee… you’ve already mentioned something about a pacifier… And it was mentioned to me about some cute onesies, etc… how would you feel about, going shopping at a store that supplies ABDL stuff and looking around at what you might be comfortable with so that I can involve more aspects of your regression at once… does that sound like something you’d be comfortable with?”

“ yeah… Of course. And whatever you think is best, Mommy… is there really an ABDL store around?”

“Ohhh… look at me, knowing things that my wanted to be diaper daughter didn’t even know about, lmfao. But, yes. It’s a medical store, that specializes in incontinence products. Furthermore, over the last few years they’ve added a large section of ABDL diapers, clothing, etc.. I guess there’s more people than you or I realize that are wearing diapers and want to rekindle their childhood as it comes to all of the props and necessary regression items”

“ I wanna go to the store and look at all the adult baby stuff!!! Can we Mommy?”

“Lmfao… of course, sweetheart… are you down to go today? I figure since we’re already out… Why don’t we check it out and that way we can maybe pick up a few things to add to your diaper punishment/regression situation! Plus, how cute will it be to be dressed in some toddler Ish looking clothes when Hayley comes over later to hang out/babysit you! Won’t that be adorable?”

“Yea…lol. Little bit embarrassing, but adorable! I think I just like the idea of us going shopping for that stuff together and you helping me pick it out and kind of make those decisions on what I may or may not have based on how cute you think I’m gonna be…”

“Really?!? I couldn’t have given a better answer to that if I was given a year to think of a brainstorm things. lol. But yes, I was hoping you’d be down to go, because I was excited to take you there and kind of see all the regression tools and etc., and see how certain things make you feel.”

“ heck yeah Mommy!!! I’m super excited about that! Where is this place at? Is it close?”

“ it’s over in an industrial/retail center over by the old hospital. I don’t think we’ve been over there to do anything so you probably wouldn’t have any idea what I’m talking about. It doesn’t really have a storefront per se. And after talking to the owner, a couple of days ago about what they stock, and who buys it… And how private it is. If I didn’t know any better, I would think that this place has leaned completely into being an adult baby store because it seems like that’s what they sell the majority of.”

“ holy crap this place sounds cool!! lol and don’t forget, there’s always Amazon and places like that online. I would be lying if I said, I hadn’t been looking at some of those sort of things for the last year or two and daydreaming about all of these happenings.”

“ Ashlee… Do you not think I’ve seen most of what you’ve looked at when it comes to that stuff? lol”

“ OK… Yeah. lol.”

“ and trust me… This place has everything you’ve looked at and more and some things you’ve probably not thought of! I was ridiculously impressed just looking at what they stock in their inventory and the knowledgeable staff and etc.. They seem to have. I was even told, that they have a changing room with a changing table in it so that people can try out new kinds of diapers before buying cases of them and all of that. I kind of thought that would be a cute way to try on some new diapers… And see what we think fits you the best is the more concealable, more noticeable… And all of that. Furthermore… I think it would be cute to change you in a place like that and have you walk around the showroom with your diaper exposed so that the staff can put their opinion on how the diapers fit or don’t fit you lol…”

“ maybe we can just start with the clothes and props… And work our way up to being changed and exposed in front of more new strangers… at least for today Mommy?”

“ oh what’s the problem… If you had enough for the day?”

“ I’m just asking nicely… But I of course I will do what I’m told…”

“ I swear… You were an amazing daughter before being in diapers… You are being extra sweet and mindful now that you’re back in diapers. It’s kind of crazy! Is this your little way of hammering down? The idea that you being back in diapers was exactly what you wanted.?”

“ I mean… You already know that’s what I wanted. lol. And now that I’m in a diaper and being checked in all of that… I want to do everything in my power to make sure this doesn’t end! Like, you’ve made me the happiest girl… Even though what’s making me happy is being diapered and etc.”

“ I know you still have a little anxiety and etc., about being in diapers Ashlee… but you are taking to all of this super well! I couldn’t be prouder of you, despite the fact that our goal is to un potty train you, lol. I think it’s super adorable that your goal is to be in diapers full-time and to use your diapers like a toddler. And I’d be lying if I said, I wasn’t excited about telling random people about why you’re in diapers when those instances arise. Kind of like what will happen when we’re at this diaper store in a little while…”

“ oh yeah… What are you planning on telling them?”

“ I don’t perfectly know yet… but I’m leaning towards, me finding all of the things on the Internet about being back in diapers, me asking you about it… And you admitting it. After that, I asked if you wanted to be back in diapers, and you told me yes.”

“ that’s not embarrassing, lmfao.”

“ I thought you wanted to be embarrassed? lol”

“ oh, I do… do you want me to give you an idea for something even more humiliating than that?”

“ for real Ashlee? Lmfao. I mean, if you want me to use it, go for it.”

“ something I’ve read a few times, but always makes me blush while reading it… Is the ideology of you catching me wearing diapers and me explaining that I really like the way they feel and look and I’ve just been curious about wearing them for a long time. So you decided, if my daughter wants to be back in diapers… Not only will I put her back in diapers, but I will go above and beyond to make her diapers, the main events of every conversation and excursion.”

“ oh wow…lol. So I caught you wearing diapers, and you admitted that you wanted to be put back in them… not gonna lie, that’s kind of cute! lol.”

“ if you wanna take it a step farther, you can say not only did you catch me wearing diapers… But you found a whole bunch of pictures I took of myself and diapers and we’re sending to people online. Of which, you decided my punishment would be being put back into full-time diapers for not just the near future… But for as long as you feel it necessary for me to understand what being in diapers is really like….”

“ oh gosh… is it OK if I elaborate or put my own spin on stuff like that?”

“ you don’t have to ask me that Mommy… Of course, I would hope that you would do that so that I’m a little surprised by what you say in the long run..”

“ oh yeah… How about something like, she started to wet her bed and her pants out of nowhere… we couldn’t figure out what was going on… After doctors appointments, specialist, etc. nothing was found to be wrong with her… That’s when I found a secret message thread with a few of her diapered friends online talking about the plan to be put back in diapers because of accidents. After pushing, she finally admitted that she was having accidents on purpose so that she would get put back into diapers again. Once I found that out, I quickly decided that if she wants to know what it’s like to be diapered, then she would be back in diapers. Full-time no exceptions. And we’re here today to shop for some babyish clothes and etc. to help her feel even more like the toddler. She’s been acting like…”

“Ohhhh… that made my tummy tingle mommy! Lmfao. You’re really good at this! lol. So what types of things are you expecting to buy at this adult baby store?”

“ I was gonna leave that up to you, honey… like… I’m not the one who’s wearing any of this or wearing diapers or wanting any of this. I’m just here to help you experience it as fully as possible. However, I don’t see it that far fetched if we walk out of there with a few onesies, footed, pajamas, diaper covers, ABDL T-shirts, pacifiers, adult sippy, cups/bottles, and maybe a few other packs of diapers for you to try out… potentially, maybe purchase a piece of ABDL furniture to start your collection of being a little big.”

“ what do you mean ABDL furniture Mommy?”

“ I’m not really sure, honey… I know this place has high chairs, bouncy seats, cribs, play, pens, car seats, strollers, and etc. I think in my head… I was thinking about maybe starting with something small and building from there. But that’s before I saw your reaction to being put in diapers today, and your immediate response being you want to be in them for potentially ever not just two weeks…. So I’m a little more confident and investing in some little furniture, if that’s something that we’re gonna be continuing on and building upon.”

“ you know what I’ve always looked at in pictures and in stories, and have been just absolutely enamored with for some reason… and adult sized car seat… I don’t know why, but every time I see a picture of a little and their diapers strapped into a car seat pacifier in their mouth… I get blushing, butterflies in my tummy,… And all sorts of flustered. There’s just something about being in a car seat that just makes me feel super diaper, dependent and helpless.”

“ a car seat… That was probably the last thing I expected you to say. But OK, thank you so much for being honest and open. Have you really thought about how it’s going to be being in a car seat? I mean, like, every time we park in a parking lot, and I’ve gotta unbuckle you and help you out anybody within an eye shots going to see me helping my older daughter get out of a car seat potentially with a pacifier in her mouth meet carrying a diaper bag. That’s gonna cause quite a bit of attention. Or, the first time we pull up to a drive-through and the windows down and the person that the window looks back and sees a teenager in a car seat with a pacifier in her mouth just looking like she hasn’t to care in the world. You’d be OK with situations like that”

“ OK with it… I’d have to write a blog post about it just to get the butterflies out of my head…lol. But I’m still gonna leave all that up to you Mommy. I’m game for whatever you want to add on, and use to help progress and diaper punish me..”

“ how do you feel about a crib? When I was thinking about stuff like that, I wasn’t sure if you’d be more comfortable in a crib or in like a toddler bed. Since you’re so small, you’d probably fit either or fairly easily… But we’d probably have to get an adult sized crib if that’s the way you wanted to potentially go.”

“ I almost asked if you’d be mad if I told you something about that lmfao. Of course you’re not gonna be mad, you’re taking me to a diaper store and talking about all of my new potential diapering situations and etc..lol. So I’ve actually looked at both in the past when I was daydreaming, and I really like the princess canopy looking toddler beds. I think those are super adorable.”

“ you’d rather have something like that over a crib?”

“ I’m sure I’d be happy with either… But for some reason, a crib never did anything for me emotionally… that may change once I get put in it to sleep and nap for the time being… But I’ve been looking into those princess toddler beds for sometime.”

“ that’s a fair answer… How would you feel about a stroller for certain situations? I realize that is quite out in the open prop that would very much get the attention of anyone around… but as I learn more about your desires and fantasies when it comes to all this diaper and adult baby stuff… seems like you’d be right at home in a special needs stroller!”

“Lmfao… totally not gonna lie here, I’ve had dreams in the recent past where I was back in diapers, and you took me to the zoo or wherever and was pushing me around in a big stroller with a big diaper bag strapped to your back. lol. “

“ you had dreams about me putting you in a stroller? That’s so adorable Ashlee! I’m curious to see how you react to some of this when there’s people around, potentially laughing or pointing at you…lol”

“ I kind of feel like that’s par for the course, it’s kind of what I signed up for!”

“ you’re not wrong there… I was thinking earlier when we were eating… a lot of the stories I saw you read or that I’ve read have parts where the person back in diapers. Mommy will do like public diaper checks in the very busy public more or less for the purposes of humiliating the person in diapers and making everyone around look and stare at the teenager with the wet diaper”

“ I think that would depend upon how you checked me… if that makes sense..”

“ I like the idea of having you stand in front of me, and me hiking your shorts or whatever down, exposing your entire diaper for whoever around to look at as I touch around and feel to see how wet and or messy you are… concluded by me loudly expressing that it’s time for you to get your diaper change, honey! Would you be comfortable with me checking your diaper like that even a busy mall or something like that?”

“ You are literally just going item by item of my top 10 fantasy list to happen to me being back in diapers and checked by my mommy…lol. Just always remember, if I start turning red, blushing, tearing up, etc… don’t worry about me, I’m enjoying myself… It’s just overwhelming sometimes to be that humiliated, but don’t stop! lol”

“ you don’t have to worry about me, stopping, honey… I’ve already put it in my head that you’re in diapers because you want to… But also because you’re in diaper punishment, so anything to do with your diapers, diaper checks and or etc., is all with the astral projection of humiliating you because of your diaper desire desires.”

“ that’s super cute Mommy!!”

“ oh another thing I kind of stumbled upon in the last couple days as I was just researching stuff online… did you know, that both the zoo and the children’s museum in town both have adult changing tables set up in their family restrooms?”

“ no way… Can you please take me there and change me on those? Pretty please, Mommy.”

“ of course, sweetheart… Kind of thought that would be a fun activity to do with Hayley so that Hayley could change you in those places too!”

“ oh man… I keep forgetting that Haley’s gonna be babysitting me from what it seems like potentially a lot. Every time I think of that, I start getting flustered and nervous because that’s gonna be a little embarrassing to the limits of embarrassment, I feel like.”

“ I can totally understand where you’re coming from with that… But sweetie, she is so excited to help you out with your diaper needs. Like, you could not ask for a better friend specifically when it comes to things like this! She is ready and raring to go when it comes to seeing you in diapers and helping you make your best life when it comes to being in full-time diapers… heck… Depending on how things work out, she may be changing you throughout the day when school starts back up!”

”really??? Where would she change me at at school?”

“ I haven’t figured out all the logistics yet… But I don’t know how appropriate it is to ask the school nurse to take care of your diaper needs, but I feel like I can talk the nurse into letting you come in there to a certain time every day and use her exam table as a changing table to get your diaper taken care of, so you don’t have any leaks or nasty smells coming from you…”

“Awwww… what’s the potential of me getting checked and changed by the school nurse? Just curious…. I’ve read a lot of stories and etc. about teenagers and my situation getting changed by the school nurse and that sounded really humiliating and all of that.”

“ I’m not sure yet, honey… I’m gonna find out more information, but I honestly just don’t know… I know my first instinct, was to let you wear thin or less noticeable diapers during school, which will be good for keeping it a little more private, but as well… It’s not gonna hold as much and you’re gonna need to be changed throughout the day so that you don’t have any embarrassing leaks…”

“ I think I’d feel comfortable just wearing my thick diapers if that’s OK.. you say that now, but I just wanna have some options ready in case it’s a little bit too much for you to handle…”

“ I understand, I’ve been thinking a lot about how that’s gonna work when school starts up to… there’s a part of me, that wants to just wear super noticeable diapers for the first few days and clothes that sort of cover them and just get as many people‘s attention as possible and answer people‘s questions straight up before rumors can get spread and just let everybody get it out of their system to make fun of me about my diapers and before I know it, they’ll be onto the next thing to make fun of…”

“ that doesn’t sound like too bad of a plan to be honest… tell me the truth actually, you like the idea of your schoolmates finding out about your diaper needs, and the humiliation that’s gonna come with that?”

“ yes… 100%! lol”

“ you’re a brave child Ashlee, I’m so thankful you’re my daughter! And what do you know, we have arrived!!”

The two got unbuckled and out of the car and started heading towards the unmarked door where Ashlee was going to be shopping for adult baby items and etc., for the first time with her mother. As they were walking towards the front, her Mommy reached for her hand and whispered from here on out, if we’re out in public, you need to be holding my hand at all times to show how much of a little girl you are…okay baby?”

“ yes Mommy… I really like that!”

The two walked hand-in-hand towards the entrance, open the door and walked in with Ashlee’s diaper crinkling and wrestling about. The showroom was very quiet as there was no music playing, or a TV of any kind turned on for background noise. Because of this, Ashlee’s diaper was painfully noticeable. As the two walked a few steps in a very attractive, younger woman came out from behind the office and greeted them with a warm smile and an infectious hello…

“Hey yall! What can we do for you too today?”

“ hello, this is my daughter Ashlee and we’ve recently put her back into full-time diapers… and we’re doing a little shopping today for some things to help her feel a little more babyish when it comes to her being back in diapers full-time..”

“Awwwww… I thought I heard somebody crinkling and waddling as they walked in! So you just got put back into diapers, sweetheart?”

“ yes ma’am… I’m mommy’s little diaper girl..”

“Precious!! lol. Has she been having accidents or some kind of medical issues? That’s usually the case!”

“ no, actually… I caught her looking at a lot of questionable things on the Internet when it came down to diapers and adult baby stuff… After telling her that she needs to not look at that stuff… I came home early one day and caught her and not only a big thick adult baby diaper that she bought behind my back but a super soggy wet diaper. It was then, but I decided… If she was going to act like a toddler and wants to wear diapers… Then so be it so I decided to put her back into diapers and start the un potty training process. And from the sounds of things, she’s OK with it… So, I figured why not buy some more cute adult baby things to reinforce her reality and make her feel a little more like a toddler.”

“Awwwwwww… what a naughty girl! So you like being in diapers, little one? Do you like wetting and messing yourself? Lol. Kudos to you, mom, for going ahead and just giving in and making her a big toddler with diapers and the latter! A lot of moms, just can’t mentally go that far when it comes to punishment with things like this…”

“ I get it, what really got me motivated to just give in and make this exactly what she wanted… was the first time I put a diaper on her and just saw how absolutely adorable she looked! lol. That was one thing I was not anticipating!”

“Awwwww. I mean, she is quite small and petite so she could pass for a preteen or somewhere in there. Who’s just still wearing diapers without anyone batting an eye I would bet. Seems like you’re taking all of this well Ashlee, is it safe to assume that you’re kinda like the utilization of public humiliation and all of that when it comes down to you being in diapers?”

“Yes ma’am… I just like being in diapers. And I’m so lucky and thankful that my Mommy decided that this was the best recourse! We’ve been talking all day about different, babyish items, adventures, furniture, etc. With each conversation, I feel like I regress a little bit each time and just feel like a diaper dependent big toddler.”

“ and was it your idea to want to be un potty trained… Or was that part of your mommy’s punishment?”

“No… I love the idea of being in full-time diapers, and not having a choice in the matter… I’ve read a lot of stuff about people in full-time diapers, can retrain their bodies to have full on accidents without them having any ability to stop it from happening. Which means, diapers or wet and messy pants.”

“ I’ll give her one thing… She knows exactly what she wants and how it works! lol. So back to my original question… What are we gonna do today to help regress Miss Ashlee even farther?”

“ a few things I think… Number one, I want to grab a few pacifiers, pacifier clips, and a few cute onesies. We’ve also talked about, some cutie, footed, pajamas, plastic pants, potentially some even thicker diapers, and or just a different brand to try… as well, we’ve started toying around with the idea of maybe a car seat, stroller, or something similar to start building her collection of ABDL accessories.”

“ Miss Ashlee… You might have the coolest mom ever just wanted you to know that! Lmfao. When my Mommy caught me in diapers around your age… Diapers were just taken away and I was grounded LMFAO. Not only are you being kept in diapers… But you guys are communicating about how to fully make this a part of your life.”

“ you wear diapers too?”

“ why are you sounding so surprised little girl? Do you want to see my diaper?”

“ can I mommy, please!”

“Lmfao. I don’t care, sweetheart…”

“ cool, grab my hand and we’ll go to the changing room so we’ll have a little privacy, how does that sound little Ashlee?”

“ that sounds good…l

“ while I’m thinking about it… you mentioned getting a couple of more brands of diapers to give her more of a variety, since I’m going into the changing room with her anyway… How comfortable are you with me taking a few samples back there and putting a few diapers on her and having her walk around and model them so that you guys can make a decision on what you like the best on her body type? It’s OK if not… I just figured Miss Ashlee would enjoy getting diaper a few times by a stranger, lol”

“ I think Ashlee would love that!! Just make sure, when you put her in each new diaper, you bring her out so I can see! I can’t have you having all the fun! Lmfao…”

“ no problem, Mommy… give me just one second, and I’m gonna grab a few samples out of the back… in the meantime, if you want to head towards the back of the store, mom, you can start looking at all the ABDL clothes and stuff and start seeing what strikes your fancy and once we get done trying diapers on, we can see what sizes we need and start putting a few of those in your shopping cart as well!”

“ That sounds awesome… You are being an amazing customer service agent I must say! I can’t imagine, that there is a lot of people/families that come in with stories like these LMFAO.”

“lol…well, no… The majority of the time they’re gonna lie about why they need diapers or make up some stories to make themselves feel better. The fact that you’ve been super open honest to the point makes you guys part of the cool kids club!”

“ did you hear that Mommy… The cool kids club!”

Ashlee smiled and stared at her mother as the sales clerk grabbed her hand and escorted her towards the changing room. It took Ashlee a few seconds to register, that part of the reason she was going back there was to be shown the diaper of this super attractive, young woman who’s gonna then try on some diapers with her… And get her set up with a bunch of ABDL gear and etc..

It was almost like the totalitarianism of everything, and the weight that she had been carrying for so long just immediately lifted off of her shoulders as she began to get flustered and breathe uncontrollably… she was able to quickly regain her composure as she just quietly hummed to herself the tune of happy.

As Ashlee and the nice sales clerk entered the changing room, they stood facing each other and both started giggling before anything.

“ OK Ashlee… my name is Denise by the way! lol. And I just got super nervous with the thought of exposing my diaper to your cute little teenage butt! Lmfao.”

Apparently, she wasn’t all that nervous… As only a moment passed, and Denise began unbuttoning the buttons on her skirt, revealing that she was wearing a onesie as an over, shirt tucked into her skirt. Ashlee was beside herself for a few moments, as she realized just how cute she could make some of this ABDL clothes look even with them being super babyish. It was in the next moment that Ashlee began to see the first few glimpses of Denise’s brightly colored rear caboose diaper that looks a little yellow in the front as if Denise had been having an accident or two….

“ Welp… Here we go, kiddo! Told you I was wearing a thick diaper, just like you! Now go on, take your shorts down and let me see your diaper now! Don’t be shy”

“ if you want… I can just climb on the changing table and you can remove them yourself and begin all of the diaper proceedings that are gonna commence…”

“ are you too embarrassed to drop your shorts and show me your diaper Ashlee?”

“ lol… I’m not nervous no. I just like being really submissive with anybody concerning my diaper and thought it be more appropriate in my little state to just lay on the changing table and allow you to undressed me and diaper me red diaper me and etc. to your liking and precious awakening.”

“ OK… Cute, diapered, and smart… do you know if your mommy hires babysitters for you? Lmfao”

“ It’s funny you ask… She’s had two people ask her already today about babysitting me, LMFAO”

“ only two? With your cute crinkly butt I’m surprised it wasn’t 10! But yes, go ahead and climb on the changing table, and I will take care of your diaper shenanigans and find a few new ones for your mommy to buy… other than the diaper you’re wearing… Do you know what other brands your mom bought?”

“Um… I’m wearing a little for big princess pink currently, I’m pretty sure she bought a case of rearz, I don’t know which ones… and crinkles, maybe?”

“ okey-dokey… tell you what, I’m gonna get your shorts off and then I’m gonna go ask your mom what she bought you as I grab some samples OK? Will you be in here? OK by yourself?”

“ I don’t see why not…”

“ Also, before I head out to talk to her…”

It was then, Ashlee felt the young sales associate, put her hand on her princess parts and start feeling and rubbing to more than likely check the status of Ashlee’s diaper. Ashlee thought to herself, there’s no way my diaper is wet… I would’ve totally knew that was happening. On a sidenote… She thought she could get used to having people check her diaper as that was a sensation she wasn’t accustomed to…

Denise caught Ashlee zoning out and enjoying having her diaper rubbed, and laughed as she was staring at Ashlee with adoring eyes and pouty lips…

listen really closely to hear the crackle and 💨 in my diapy as i lose control and make pushies at the store :/ this is my second legit accident this week. already some mushy started coming out driving over but i hadn't noticed til i got inside.

mornings it's generally the hardest to hold my 💩 but since i don't always feel like i have to go til i've started my day, most of my actual accidents don't happen til i'm out n about. super convenient, all i feel is a quick urge and then it's game over. makes it easy to film tho, so theres that i guess lol.

“Oh my god, yeah! That’s like, one of the best parks! I spent soo much time there as a kid…”

Noo, not a new topic of conversation. I feel a warm drop of pee spread across the front of my pull-up. How am I going to convince him I don’t need them now? What’s worse is that it’s not just my bladder…there’s something else putting a strain on it. I reach out and try to grab his hand but he doesn’t even notice.

“You played Little League, too?! Oh my god, what team were you on? I wonder if we played each other at some point!”

Stoppp, just stop. I try to will them to wrap up but it isn’t working. And, oh no, it’s starting to push out of me. The back of the pull-up tightens and flexes as a firm log slowly expands…oh my god, it’s huge, too.

“Wow, maybe we can exchange numbers and meet up for coffee sometime,” I hear my boyfriend saying. I can feel it still slowly sliding out. I wouldn’t notice just how big it is if I were going in the toilet, but it’s different when it’s warm and sticky and pushing up against my bottom. I clench my thighs together, trying not to pee more. I really, really don’t want to leak at our favorite bookstore. I look around the room, staring hard at the shelves, wishing I were somewhere else. Anywhere else.

“You all good, Emma?” asks my boyfriend as he finally finishes up the conversation and takes the book he was buying off the counter.

“Can I tell you outside?” I ask quietly.

“Oh, oh yeah. Of course.”

It’s raining out, water splashing as cars drive by. We stop under the overhang of the bookstore and I whisper, “I had to poop.”

“Oh, shoot, do you need a bathroom?”

“No, um, you were talking to him for so long and I sort of…I couldn’t wait.”

“Oh my god, I’m so sorry, baby. You could have said something!” I do love how warm and reassuring he is, but it feels too late now. He wraps his arm around me as we step out from under the overhang and into the light rain.

“I thought that would be super awkward. Like, hold up, my girlfriend has to poop and she’s about to shit herself…”

“Still, maybe you could have gotten my attention…”

“I tried. I was trying to grab your hand.”

“Oh, fuck, I totally didn’t notice again. I’m sorry, I’m so…”

“It’s okay. Can we just find a bathroom, though?”

“Yeah, let’s go in here. It’s always open.” He pushes open the door to the food court and gestures, after you.

Fuck, we’re regulars here. How can he always get things so close to right and yet so wrong? I feel frozen, my face flushed from the cold and from embarrassment. I really, really hope nobody recognizes us as he nudges me towards the bathroom.

Two single stalls that purport to be gender neutral. He opens the door to the one without a urinal, thank god. I’ll the only smelly thing in there.

“Uh-oh, that’s a lot.” He undoes the fly of my jeans and pulls my pants down. “You okay doing this standing up? Maybe we can just get a diaper on you.”

SO,

As I may have mentioned, I got padded by someone recently. It was so so fun. I was giddy thinking about it for a while and realised I had the chance so why not.

With some help getting through my um...very embarrassed brain...I got padded up with no drama and a whole lot of blushing

Got my brain to think long enough to sit up, and heard them say something to the affect of "oh I need to go myself actually. Could anyone volunteer somewhere to go?" (I wasn't the only padded one in the room >.<)

And when I tell you my brain stopped all thoughts and did nothing but scream YES, I just, can't do it justice. My head has never wanted anything more and I hadn't even suggested it they just said it and my head just got stuck

At some point, I managed to stumble out some kind of yes, and remember being told to stand up (which again, I have no idea how I managed without my knees buckling) and they came close and I was trying not to think about how hot they were AND how close they were

I don't even remember who pulled my diaper out for them to go, I just remember being frozen still as I felt it all go warm and I may have had to grab hold of them just to stop myself losing balance

I probably made some kind of noise. I really don't remember. Even thinking about it has me fuzzy and I just AAAAAAAAAAAAEJIFOGNWKCOEJGOWLF

so, um, yeah...th-that was fun 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

And a few moments later all it took was then squishing my padding and I Def couldnt stand up anymore.

At some point I was handed over to my partners, and was very hard to hide an already squishy diaper. AND the fact I still needed to go >\\\\\\\\\<

So, um, yeah. If you want my brain to stop, I guess just...pee in my diaper for me 🥺

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