You see, when i was small, small child, between the ages of 3-7, i was still ‘teethin’, as my mom said. Later we would find that I was not teethin, I am autistic and stimmin. But my prolonged teethin showed itself in the form of chewin. Everything.
When i say everything, i do mean everything. Toys, candy, gum, fabric, plastic waterbottle lids even though they were a chokin hazard (thx mom), soda tabs (yes, I have cut my tongue), and other small mouth-fittable things, such as jewelry, various bits of trash and plastic, etc. etc.
But eventually, my ‘bad habit’ faded away, to much ‘better’ and less ‘distractin’ “‘habits’” such as rippin the skin off my lips, pickin at scabs and zits, and literally stabbin myself with my nails. These new ““habits”” came around the age of 12 and have lasted since.
Recently, in an attempt to prevent myself from performin literal self-harm upon myself, i asked my mother to pick up a pack of gum. This was two days ago.
Now the problem, is that most gum has a lot of sugar, and sugar is not so good for your teeth, and chewin sugary gum has led to an excess of plaque build up on my teeth (which wouldn’t be so bad, but i forgot to brush my teeth last night, so I have two days worth of sugar-boosted plaque on my teeth rn- which sucks BIG TIME because I’ve been really good about keeping ip my dental hygiene and everytime i run my tongue on my teeth it is the textile equivalent to nails on chalkboard). (Not to mention, I’ve eaten all the gum. Two and half days, and 2 whole packs are gone.)
ANYWAY, I’m currently sittin in the livin room chewin on a plastic bottle cap from the waterbottle i JUST finished drinkin, searchin up flavorless (because flavors are ew) sugarless (because plaque is ew) gum, because I decided not to hurt myself anymore.
I am postin this without tags, thank you tumblr
P.S. I AM currently chewin on sumthin- a plastic waterbottle lid. Like i said, I already ate the gum.
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