ex friends are like. last time i remembered you i got so angry i almost crashed my car. i still think about your laugh whenever i see one of your favorite scenes on the show we used to watch together. you made me cry 3 years after we last spoke. i think of you on your birthday. you are a part of some of the best memories i have of my life. i hate you.

Slow friendship break ups are so hard because, like, I remember us being at each other's houses, and listening to one another talk about trauma, we laughed and cried together for the shitshow that teenagehood is. And now you're slightly older, and so am I, and you're talking to the people we hated in class, and we live in different countries and I can't even say anything about the people you're talking to because I'm not close enough to you anymore to tell you what I feel about it. You send an awkward 'how are you' text once in a while and every time my heart drops and I respond casually and the conversation fades. And I wish I could hold you and shake you and force our souls together again but then I take a look at your soul and it's made out of something entirely different to me and I just painfully shrug and let go of your hands and stand in a corner observing

sorry for being intense about everything, it’ll happen again

I'm an Absentee Atheist. I think a god made the world, but it was an action so insignificant to the higher will that it is not aware we exist, rendering existence effectively godless.

I'm a Mutual Exclusivity Polytheist. I believe the world is woven by several demiurges at once, all of whom are entirely unaware of each other's existence.

I'm a Deferential Semantic Atheist. I believe in a god in the sense that I believe in gravity; as an observed phenomenon that I do not understand, but am confident that other people with more time on their hands can prove the existence of.

I'm an Autogenesis Absentee Deist. I believe that God is instantiated like a mind into the divine clockwork of the material physics of the universe. I am not a Pantheist, as I believe that this mind designed and consciously instantiated itself into the world through some unknown method, however this is annoying to explain at parties so I generally don't talk about it much.

I'm an Antirationalist Manichean. I think God built the world, but the Devil built causality, thus any train of thought that follows logically is incorrect, and the result of trickery.

I'm a radical Hindu-Gnostic Monotheist. I think Brahman should make up it's mind and knock all this "emanation" shit off and squeeze back into a monad.

I'm a Chaos Agnostic. I believe the universe exists in a constantly changing spectrum of divinity from "Was Made By a Present God" to "There is no god" and it changes every 24 hours or so.

I'm an extremely localized animist. Only my dog has a spirit.

It’s getting so much worse and not a single person is noticing 

It's getting bad in my head again, and my heart feels like a haunted house but this time I don't know why