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I've been a little sad for a short while now. And i just hit the point of drinking and listening to country music... And for a second it took me right back to 2019. It was a long year, a lot of drinking alone through the weekends, a lot of heart ache

Haven't really been drunk since 2019, maybe a little tipsy with company, but not the sad alone drunk.

It came to me because i opened lee brice on Youtube... That's apparently a sign for a low point in my mood

0:43 Vodka energy is a dangerous toy.. Can't even taste the alcohol

0:55 I forgot what it's like to have the anxiety fade. I can finally listen to slayer again without getting stressed. Maybe once a year it's fine to just get drunk

1:06 Forgot the slight numbness. Hate the stuffy nose. Pov being slightly out of body experience esque, forgot about that

1:19 well well well... Guess the second can of vodka energy wasn't such a good idea. Gonna get some water and sit a little with it. Oh boy

How i feel about different shows ending:

Obviously spoilers ahead

Didn't crochet the whole week, til now... Honestly, i don't know what i did after work. I just kinda got home, colapsed into a sweaty gross pile and then i had to get ready for the next day and go shower and sleep

We are well into the beginning of the purple

I can finally readn and crochet again without the guilt eating away at meeee

Working on the peafowl dance shawl by susan’s family rn, cause i saw it on here and i can finally use my gradient yarn i got from the Halloween selection last year!

That's 17818 stitches so far

Only 36182 to go

1/3 done

I also got my bmo tattoo on saturday ✨

Mouse house

So tired. Gonna go sleep

The wizard tower is done

And the big space of the farm is finally filled in

The swifts are starting to come back :D

Trees, grass, stuff

400 stitches today

I also baked a bundt cake

I just sat here for a good bit, with the distinct feeling of "i want something" not sure what

Felt a bit like hungerish i guess, but i already ate. Body just keeps telling me "something" basically. So i just go through my activities and wonder if maybe i really am hungry, or if it's like a really weird stomach ache.

And then i notice my mouth is kinda dry and i realize. Liquids.

I made a bag

This is the front

This is the back.

They were supposed to be mirrored but i messed up that second to last square. I liked the way the colours were tho, so i kept it that way.

Little handmade label

And the inner lining is made from 2 old makeship bags

Got caught up in other hobbies and just didn't feel it lately

But ey 29% done

I also just noticed i didn't show 28%

I think it turned out lovely

But my mother was not impressed... She really liked the doilies i showed her before, she just didn't really react to getting one

I ran out of yarn and barely got this round done.. Had to modify it a bit to make it look a little less unfinished

But i think it's good enough

Time to block this bad boy