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i haven't been active in three million years but this is technically my vent acc and I don't wanna worry people on my main, tw cw whatever no one is making you read this

I think I might kill myself soon

For the past few months I've been crumbling a lot faster than normal with a lot less growth back or distractions

About a week ago I kinda had a revelation about my worth. And now its. Basically nothing

I don't think my friends like me very much actually

I had a very close moment 2 nights ago

I sat waiting to call a hotline for 30 minutes, was on hold for around 10, and then I hung up after saying nothing in less than 30 seconds

I went to bed at about 5am

And now for the past 2 days it's been all I can think about

I go back to school tmrw but I don't think I'm gonna be able to distract myself enough. I know I missed all my mid-term work moping and relapsing and nearly doing that

And I just really, really don't see passion in anything anymore. I'm trying really hard to. I don't want it to be like this, I'm not TRYING to be miserable.

It's just getting really difficult to do anything else. All I'm thinking about is killing myself!!! All!! All of it!!!

So that's awesome yay this isn't a 'hopefully this blows over!' thing this really feels like in a few days I'm gonna slash myself to bits that's so cool mhm yep

Note written if it really does end like this. It's a really really lame note. I thought I'd have something cool to say I really don't

I should go to bed maybe one more day has something for me maybe it'll convince me then

weirrdfrreak (bendy)

bro is SO GIDDY

Dehumanising use of it/its pronouns goes wrong as it is directed at the nefarious he/it ink demon