Dethrone-Me👑

NSFW | MINORS DNI | 18+

Warnings: Smut, angst, mentions of cheating, yearning?Kind of - Pure fiction obviously

Word count roughly 3k

HELLO! Pleaseee go easy this is my first EVER fic and it is certainly NOT perfect but I hope someone might enjoy it! I also have no idea what I’m actually doing and how tumblr works. Kind of written from both perspectives? Idk please take it for what it is 🧎🏼‍♀️‍➡️

P.S. I love you and always be yourself♥️

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“How did it go?” Rolling your eyes and trying to stop them watering, again, another reminder of how your night ended. You couldn’t reply yet, it was too painful, your heart ached. After everything, it wasn’t supposed to be like this. You almost, not almost, you felt embarrassed for even giving him a chance to try and explain himself. You got up to pour a glass of wine and after a moment of hesitation, decided not to bother with a glass. Throwing yourself down onto the sofa, you decided to torture yourself a little more, opening your camera roll and suddenly feeling as if the world was falling from beneath you. Photos of Noah and you reeled across the screen, your trip to Japan a short time ago that had taken you months of saving because you insisted on paying your own way, mundane nights spent at home, cooking and watching TV. You didn’t know how much you had taken it for granted at the time.

A loud knock at the door caused you to jump as your phone fell out of your hand. You paused for a minute, picking your phone up and setting it on the coffee table. You didn’t want to answer the door or have to deal with anyone at this time, especially after the night you had.

“It’s me”

Your back straightened at the sound of his voice. You slowly got up and walked towards the door, taking a deep breath, opening it as far as the chain lock allowed. Noah’s eyes slightly red and skin flushed, as if he had run after the uber all the way here. As much as you wanted to hate him, to slam the door shut and walk away, your body still reacted against you, your heart quickening at the sight of him.

“I don’t have anything else to say to you” attempting to close the door, but Noah’s foot was in the way.

“Please, I know I can’t take it back, I can’t change what I did.” He stuttered “I just need you to hear what i have to say”.

Noah’s heartbeat was pounding and ringing in his ears as he tried to catch his breath, swallowing down the taste of metal that had been building in his mouth, exhausted from the run here.

Very much against your better judgment, you eyed Noah closely again and unhooked the chain lock, you held out your arm to gesture him inside. You didn’t allow yourself to admit it earlier, but you now admired his appearance. You watched his chest rise and fall as Noah tried to steady his breathing, his black T-shirt clinging to all of your favourite parts of him. A pink glaze over his cheeks and his dark hair a disheveled mess, short strands framing his face. His eyes glazed over the apartment, spotting the bottle of wine and your phone which was illuminating the room with a glow from a photo of the two of you.

“I didn’t get the chance to tell you earlier, you look beautiful tonight” he said breathlessly.

You stared at him a moment, feeling your eyes sting, looking up at the celling trying to stop the fall of hot tears, you didn’t want him to see you cry tonight, not again.

“Why are you here? Why can’t you just let me try to move on without you?” Your voice was raised, hurt turning into anger with every word “You did this to us, you don’t get to follow me home and do this, whatever this is!” You scolded ghosting your arms in the air.

“I’m sorr-“ you cut him off “I even can’t look at you, not without picturing you with her!” You said through gritted teeth, narrowing your eyes at him.

Noah flinched at the last sentence. His mind flashing back to the night he ruined everything. A few weeks ago when he had too many at the bar with his friends, when she approached them. The way she had “accidentally” fallen on him when she was tipsy. After her uber cancelled last minute, Noah offered to walk her home - he told himself he wouldn’t want you walking home alone at night, especially after you had been drinking, trying to rationalise his actions in his head. His stomach churned thinking about what happened next, if only he had said no. If only he had come straight home to you, instead of crawling into bed beside you at 4am after trying to hide the smell her perfume that still lingered on his skin.

Noah approached you suddenly, his hands rising up to the sides of your face and holding your cheeks

“I’m so sorry” he chocked slightly. “There isn’t a second of the day I don’t think about how much I fucked up, how much I’ve hurt you”.

You looked up to meet his eyes and you could see the hurt in them and it made you feel sick, deep down all you wanted to do was wrap your arms around him and pretend none of this was happening.

“You need to go” you said, breaking eye contact and taking a step back.

Noah’s shoulders fell and his eyes grew heavier. “What can I do? To make this better? Tell me and I’ll do it, anything”. He pleaded with you as you turned your back on him. “Please give me another chance baby.”

Noah gently wrapped his hand around your wrist, tugging it slightly so you were both facing once more.

“I love you. I have always loved you, from the moment I met you in the coffee shop 4 years ago, when you were trying to juggle 4 cups of coffee at once, bumping into me on your way out the door. The second you looked up at me, everything in me changed.”

Your throat let out a chocked laugh as the memory flew through your mind. You couldn’t stop it anymore, your eyes welled and tears ran down your face. You looked at Noah and could see his eyes brimming with tears. He inhaled deeply and locked his eyes onto yours again.

“You made me want to be better. My life was empty, I was floating from one thing to the next without any direction, not caring about the people I hurt around me. Suddenly after meeting you I felt like everything I ever needed was in front of me, everything I didn’t know I was missing”.

Your chest heaved as you tried to stifle sobs whilst memories of the last 4 years played in your mind. You were always worried this would happen. Noah has been open with you about his past early on in your relationship. He never made it passed the 1 year mark without fucking up, or fucking someone else. Early in your relationship you quickly became used to the glances of other women he received when you were out, though Noah would always do something silently as if reassuring you, squeezing your leg or tightening his grip around your waist. You wondered what was so special about her that made her so irresistible. You naively told yourself he would be different for you, and he had been, up until now. You knew you wanted him back, you knew deep down you couldn’t live without him. The last few weeks had been the worst of your life, trying each morning to forget him and tell everyone around her that you were fine, only to end up crying in bed each night wishing he was here with you re-watching The Office for the tenth time, wishing things were different. You were in your head and Noah could tell, his hand trailed up your arm, pulling you from your thoughts. He used his other hand to pull you in closer and you didn’t stop him this time. Noticing this, Noah pulled you into his chest, placing one hand on the back of your head and holding you as she cried into his t-shirt.

“Why did you do this to us? You’ve hurt me so much” you whispered into him.

Noah felt like his heart was tearing out of his chest

“I know, baby, I know”.

Noah pressed a kiss to the top of your head and continued holding you. His eyes fell onto the photo frames that decorated the walls, filled with all of the memories you had made over the last 4 years, pulling at his heart. You hated how safe you felt with him, even when he was the one that hurt you the most, he was the only one that could make you feel better. You pulled away slightly, looking up at him through blurry eyes. Noah looked down at you and used his thumb to slowly wipe away the mascara that was now running down your face. His thumb moved lower, until it brushed over your lower lip making you instinctively open your mouth.

The room suddenly felt smaller, the air thicker as you stared at each other. Hesitantly, Noah leaned forward and pressed his lips to yours, the slight taste of wine lingering on your lips. Your head spun, you should stop this, your head dizzy from the wine, or from him, you should tell him to go, but you couldn’t. Fuck it.

You kissed him back, fuelled by anger but mixed with a love that you just couldn’t shake no matter how hard you tried. Your hands traveled up Noah’s chest, feeling his pulse quicken under your hands, wrapping your hands around his neck. He followed your direction and deepened the kiss, gently biting down on your lower lip with his teeth. You felt your body heat up and your breathing became more erratic. Your right hand tugged at his hair, forcing your bodies to press together until there was no space between the two of you. Noah started walking you back slowly, careful not to break the kiss, until you bumped against the wall.

Noah’s left hand rested against the wall as his right hand grazed your chin, forcing your head to tilt. You felt his teeth graze slowly over your ear and down your neck, his breath hot on your skin causing a moan to fall from your lips. Noah kissed your neck, working his way down to your collarbone and at the same time, using his knee to part your legs slightly and apply pressure to you with his leg. He felt you roll your hips forward as if you were trying to feel more of him against you.

Noah groaned “the past 2 weeks have been the worst of my life, I’ve missed this, I’ve missed you, so much” he whispered while placing small kisses into your neck.

His arms found the hem of your t-shirt and pulled it over your head, then his fingers lingered over your bra

“Can I take this off?” He asked, as if it was your first time together.

You let out a slight laugh and nodded, helping him to unhook the clasp and letting it fall to your feet. Noah stood for a moment, looking at you, at the way your nipples hardened from the breeze coming from the still opened window. You felt your face blush for a moment, almost forgetting that you had done this a hundred times, although this felt different, your mind wondering if this would be the last time, you wondered if Noah was thinking the same.

“Help me forget about it all” you said cutting through the silence, even if it only worked for the night. Noah knew what you meant, what you needed in that moment and you didn’t need to say anymore.

He lowered his mouth and closed it around one of your nipples and swirled his tongue around the edge, causing your back to arch and tighten your grip on his hair. Your face flushed with heat and you could feel your pulse race as he worked your chest with his other free hand. Noah pulled away and grabbed you, tapping your back, silently telling you to jump. You wrapped your legs around his waist as he held you and walked over to the sofa. Noah lay you down with urgency and used his tattoo’d fingers to unbutton your jeans, you lifted your hips slightly, helping him to remove the material that was in his way, revealing the delicate black lace that he loved so much. Noah placed your left leg over his shoulder, his long fingers traced the fabric as he began gently teasing you. He hooked the intricate lace around his finger and pulled the fabric to one side, exposing you to him. Using his index finger, he dragged it up your core achingly slow, before stopping just below your clit.

You let out a groan “I really don’t think you’re in a position to be teasing me right now”.

Noah laughed, then pressed his finger to your clit, rubbing gentle circles as you felt your hips buck towards him, wanting more. Noah could feel himself harden at the sight of you beneath him, coating his fingers.

“So wet for me already baby..”.

Noah dragged his finger down and pushed it inside of you, watching as he added another. You moaned as your breath hitched at the sudden fullness and began to rock your hips to meet his fingers. Noah lowered his head and placed a kiss to your inner thigh, taking his time as his fingers worked in and out of you. Noah paused for a moment to slide the lace down your legs, removing them completely. Returning to you, letting out a groan, his mouth reached your clit as he slowly circled it with his tongue before gently sucking. He moaned against you as you writhed beneath him, your skin pink and hot. Noah worked his tongue back and forth over you, one hand pressing down on your lower stomach, the other still moving in and out of you. Your moans were growing louder, though he could tell you were trying to be quiet.

“Let me hear you baby” he said against you before removing his fingers slowly and brought them up to his mouth. You wanted to kiss him, you wanted to feel him inside of you, you pulled him into a deep kiss, tasting yourself on his tongue as you felt his hands roam wildly over your body.

Noah was aching to feel all of you, to worship every inch of your skin. To make you feel so loved and special. Your hands fumbled needily with his belt as you found the buckle, before you could remove it, Noah’s hand caught yours

“Not yet my pretty girl.. I want to take my time with you first.”

Your face flushed as Noah held your wrist tightly, guiding it above your head along with your free hand and pinning them there as his lips found yours once more.

“Keep your hands there, don’t move” his tone demanding.

Your eyes fluttered shut as you felt Noah moving slowly down your body, kissing and licking until he gently bit down on your inner thigh, causing you to open your eyes and look down at him

“Stay still for me baby”.

Your breath was stolen from your chest as Noah’s tongue returned to your now aching core, this time more intense. His tongue lapping you up as he applied more pressure to the areas he knew were extra sensitive before turning his attention to your clit. Noah knew how you liked it, sucking gently and using the tip of his tongue to draw lazy circles around you. He could feel you tensing under him. He wanted you to release all of the tension he knew had been building in you.

“Let go for me baby, I want you to cum on my tongue” Noah hummed

He kept a steady pace as you tensed underneath him, your fingers digging into your hands that were still clasped above your head. Noah tasted you on his tongue and gently caressed your thighs, watching as your breathing returned to normal.

After a moment you eagerly reached for Noah’s belt buckle again, removing it and tugging off his jeans, the faint light from outside highlighting the outline of him, revealing just how much he wanted you. He tugged off his remaining clothing and towered over you. Your eyes dragged over his stomach, his broad shoulders, soaking up his tattoos, as if trying to take a mental photograph to remember when this was all over. You felt him at your entrance, then his tip brushing gently over your clit as he coated himself in you, before slowly pushing into you. Your mind went blank in that moment, unable to think about anything and only to focus on the feeling of him deep inside of you, this is what you wanted, this would help you forget. Even just for now.

Noah started slow at first, his mind numb from feeling you around him once more. He thought he had lost you, cursing himself internally for risking this. Noah let out a deep breath he didn’t know he was holding as he pulled back slowly before pushing into you again.

“Fuck..” his voice deep and eyes rolling back “you always take me so well, baby - like you were made for me”.

Noah quickened his pace, your hands clawing at his back, a little harder than usual, hurt and anger mixed with passion and lust as he began to work himself in and out of you faster. The sharp pain from your nails digging into his skin was mingling with the pleasure he felt from being inside of you. Noah watched as your face changed with his movements, how your chest rose and bounced and your lips parted. He leant down, shrinking the distance between you both and buried himself into your neck, kissing and gently biting you. You sunk your teeth into his shoulder as you felt yourself clench around him.

“Fee-“ your breath caught as he went deeper suddenly “feels so good” you said lazily.

You began rolling your hips meeting his rhythm, feeling him stretch you in all the right places and grinding against him each time he drove himself into you. Your breathing started to falter, skin hot and clammy.

“Please I-” you moaned pathetically into Noah’s ear, he maintained his pace as he felt you tighten around him. “Hm feel good baby? Let go, i’ve got you”. He said looking down at you.

With that your stomach tightened and you felt your vision blur, you squeezed your eyes shut as your mouth fell open.

“Eyes on me” he demanded.

Noah watched as you came around him, he thrust into you one last time letting out a loud groan followed by a heavy sigh as he spilled inside of you. His chest tight and muscles relaxing. He collapsed onto you, skin on skin, the air mixed with their heavy breathing.

You played with Noah’s hair as he slowly pulled himself out and placed a kiss on your forehead, still propped up over you.

“I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you, please, if you’ll let me”. You looked at him, the silence cutting through the air. “I love you” he said again, voice heavy.

You didn’t say anything. You lightly stroked his cheek, looking at Noah, into his deep eyes that were once again slightly tearful, with a lingering gaze before forcing your eyes closed, trying to stop the unwanted thoughts flooding back into your mind, now too tired to think of them and too tired to tell him that was the last time he would ever touch you.

Everything else could wait until the morning.

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