Eternally Vindicated

you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for an amazing reason

i will personally never understand that thing people do when theyre like "i thought this was a good piece of art until i realised its fetish/pornographic" like why does art lose value if the artist was a little horny when they made it. why is that so scary. im sure a lot of the old masters were doing portraits of their lovers slightly bricked up & theyre still displayed in museums. why is sexual arousal not an acceptable source of inspiration when like every other emotion is. well i mean i know why sadly but i do not like it so i'll continue to complain about it

My fear is being a bad person, especially since I fear, like, if I'm considered not good NOW, would I even genuinely wanna change myself, or would it feel like losing the real self I've had, forever, in the process? Especially since Clark re-frames some of his traits as just him being a little bit weird and quirky, or as a part of how he's wired (which Mary literally points out). I thought to myself I'd swear to change if I needed to, so that I wouldn't be like Clark, but wouldn't I miss myself and become a completely different person? He's such a scary person to relate to - so scary to me, but am I even HALF that different from him?!

One thing about me is that I will always be a little in love with my friends’ OCs. I am normal and can be trusted with them I promise