I feel like I come here when I have things to say that I don’t want anyone to see. I’m at such a weird place in my life. I’m the only single person in my friend group. I thought I met the person I was going to spend the rest of my life with, and it didn’t work out. And I’m trying to be ok and act like I’m fine. But I’m not that fine. I have spent most of my life alone, and I was actually pretty ok before. But man it’s hard when you experience that companionship and it’s gone so fast. And you keep trying to make it fit and it just doesn’t anymore. I’m not afraid of being alone. It’s just that now I crave what I felt before. And I’m just really sad. And I feel dumb for being sad about it

I know I’ve said it before, but I’m done being second string. I’m done being the person you know you should be with but are too much of a coward to make that choice. I deserve true love. All of someone. I don’t want an open relationship. Be with the person you think you deserve. I have realized I deserve so much more so you’re officially friendzoned. You missed your shot with me. The next person I date I will truly be crazy about and you will not be able to interfere. I love you, but we’re done here.

OMG ALYCIA DEBNAM CAREY SAT A TABLE NEXT TO MINE AT DINNER TONIGHT. I STILL CANT BREATHE

I don’t think I’m ok. I know I will be and I’ve definitely been parading around as a person who is, but I think I need to admit that I’m not ok right now

It’s been 3 weeks.

It feels cruel to miss someone this much when you never truly had them to begin with

I hope every day that you’re still my forever

I’ll never tell you how much I love you and how I start to text you all the time and have to hold myself back

I have realized, actually realized that the person I love simply does not have the capability to love me back. This has been heartbreaking because I truly think she is a soulmate. But I happen to believe that we have many soulmates. And I am now choosing to let her go. And I will search for the next. And it’s also ok if I never find another one again.

I think I might actually be done. I haven’t cried once. I don’t feel anything at all anymore.

You tried to fuck me and called her babe in the same night. I am out of my mind for tolerating this. If you need to figure out your situation, please leave me out of the equation.

I’m starting to think that you will never be what I want you to be in my life. But you’re impossible to walk away from. Are you what I shed in 2022?

Life is so fucking exhausting I swear

FUCK YOU.

Crying in a bar while drinking a bottle of wine to yourself is kind of a vibe

Not being cocky, but people really love the shit out of me. Like instantly. I can meet someone and in one minute they are obsessed with me. But I can’t get the one person I’m in love with to love me back and that is a certain kind of devastating that I don’t really know how to process.