aakanksha💌

major in bullshitting with a minor in talking out of my ass

winter comes and i can feel my life passing before my eyes while I stand at the stop sign

december and january were created to test how much I can handle back to back before I'm sent into an absolute spiral

no bond is stronger than a girl and the first anime she ever watched

summertime sadness (every summer carries the ghosts of all the summers that precede it)

every year summer rolls around and it’s just (memories of friends I don’t speak to anymore) (memories of places I can never go back to again) (memories of a person I can never become again) (with each summer our connections grow less and less sturdy) (you are one summer older and one summer less than the year before) (yearning for a past time you weren’t even that happy in) (wanting to hit up certain people but you’re one summer too late)

the fact that i'm no longer the same age as the protagonists of novels and films i once connected to is so heartbreaking. there was a time when I looked forward to turning their age. i did. and i also outgrew them. i continue to age, but they don't; never will. the immortality of fiction is beautiful, but cruel.

legend has it that girl still hasn’t cleared out the 9,000 useless screenshots on her phone

you can determine a person’s character simply by the ratio of useless screenshots to actual photos of their life on their phone. more actual photos of their life? normal person. more useless screenshots? tumblr user.

the impulse to hide what I'm doing at my computer still sits so deep even tho I'm literally never looking at anything objectionable , the door will open and I'll hurry to close the page like oh fuck no one can know I'm looking at the Wikipedia page for the Balkans

“he’s a red flag” “she’s a green flag” I’m a white flag. I give up bitch

yes girl I think it’s incredibly sexy how indecisive you are about every single decision in your life. I also love how you haven’t let anything go since you were 12. can we make out now

the amount of times taylor was promised a future with marriage and kids, from a older man who is societally at that stage in life (but she wasn’t good enough), to someone who wanted it so bad (in the wrong way) that he almost trapped her, to someone she grew up with for years and thought would love to be with her but that wasn’t true, to someone who came back in her life for a few weeks and promised her everything at her lowest and then ghosted her… built and broken down from the same high, promised what she wants the most and had it taken away repeatedly, and that leading into the prophecy and how she is fated to be left alone forever is just heartbreaking. i think one of the things i feel most in TTPD is resentment of these men making false promises, her hating herself because she always believes them and goes crazy when they leave.