Iâve read over 250 books this year. No, I donât have a life. Thanks for noticing.
This blog is my personal archive of book-induced psychotic episodes. Mostly romance and fantasy at the moment, because apparently thatâs the particular brand of self-inflicted brain damage Iâve been craving this year.
How it works around here:
I write down my thoughts during or after a book. These âthoughtsâ range anywhere from semi-intelligent analysis to incoherent gremlin shrieking.
My reviews are⌠letâs call them âentertainingly unstable.â Please do not mistake them for balanced, academic critique. My mental state 100% affects my star ratings. (If I was manic, that book was a masterpiece. If I was depressed, it was trash. Donât take it personally.)
This is ranting like itâs group therapy, but with footnotes. Trigger warnings include me.
So if you like chaotic reviews, dark humor, and the sound of someone mentally unraveling while yelling about fictional characters, welcome.
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âYou always wanted the nice guy. Too bad you got the fucking villain.â
â Killian Carson
In this unholy union of trauma bonding and red flag Olympics, God of Malice introduces Glyndon King. Soft-spoken, broken-glass-on-the-inside type. And Killian Carson, a chaos demon in human skin who sees therapy as a competitive sport he refuses to lose. She's haunted, he's unhinged, and together they have the kind of chemistry that should be illegal in at least twelve states and two EU countries.
The vibes? Deranged. The romance? Absolutely feral. The logic? Gone. And I loved it.
Review:
Did this book give me emotional whiplash? Yes. Did I finish it and question my moral compass? Also yes. But in Rina Kentâs world, sanity is optional and I'm just here vibing with my trauma.
This was a reread and somehow it got better. The chaos? Sharper. The obsession? Louder. Killian Carson? Still my Roman Empire. Heâs violent, possessive, emotionally stunted, and honestly should come with a warning label and a court-ordered therapist. Which is probably why Iâm in love with him. The man is a human red flag wearing daddy issues like a crown, and the way he half-softens for Glyndon while still being fully unwell? Go ahead and inject that straight into my inner child wounds.
Glyndon is fighting demons (some metaphorical, most literal) and still manages to fall for the guy who looks at her like heâs deciding whether sheâs his next art project or his next victim. Their dynamic is full-on âmonster chases prey but catches feelings,â and I ate it up like candy with a side of therapy bills. Itâs the ultimate good girl Ă psychopath combo, and yes, Iâm aware that says something deeply disturbing about me.
The college setting has rich people nonsense, mafia politics, legacy name-dropping like it's a blood sport. I donât even care that the realism is held together with scotch delusion and the sheer audacity, I was hooked. Itâs not meant to be realistic. Itâs meant to be delicious. Like a dark romance sundae with obsession sprinkles, generational curses, and a hot fudge drizzle of mommy and daddy issues.
The push-pull between these two? Deranged in the best way. The banter? Award-winning. The pacing? Imagine a rollercoaster designed by someone mid-breakdown whoâs also holding a grudge, and I was in the front row, screaming. Does the plot occasionally throw logic into oncoming traffic just to see what happens? Absolutely. Did I care? Not even a little.
Killianâs POV reads like twisted poetry written in blood and red flags. He doesnât fall in love. No, he stages a full-scale psychological invasion on Glyndonâs boundaries and calls it devotion. Itâs not healthy. Itâs not wholesome. Itâs a car crash I canât stop rereading. Also? The tiny flashes of vulnerability buried under all the emotional war crimes? Yeah. I teared up. Against my will. How rude.
Now, does every character act in ways that make sense? Not even a little. Are all the seeds planted in this book fully resolved? Not at all. But thatâs not the point. The point is vibes, trauma, and setting up enough chaos for the rest of the Legacy of Gods series to spin off into madness. And for that? This book delivers.
God of Malice kicks off the series with fangs out and knives sharpened. Itâs dark, unhinged, and makes little sense if you haven't read Rina Kent before, but in a way that feels almost holy. This isnât a love story. Itâs a psychological threat delivered with eye contact. And honestly? Iâd reread it tomorrow with snacks and zero shame.
â â â â four stars, because I saw the red flags, licked them, and called it emotional depth.
âIâll always be there. (Even if I get worse?) Even then.â
â EliâŻKing
Ava Nash wakes up with two years of her memory gone and a shiny new husband sheâs pretty sure she used to hate. That husband? Eli King. Emotionally unavailable, dangerously hot, and somehow now calling her his wife. As Ava tries to remember how she went from enemies to married with matching rings, she has to figure out if this is love, manipulation, or a long con wrapped in a romance novel. Secrets, power games, and identity crises incoming. Good luck to her.
Review:
This book had so much potential. Marriage of convenience? Enemies to lovers? Amnesia-fueled psychological warfare? Inject it directly into my bloodstream. Ava and Eli had sparks. Twisted, reluctant, "why do I want to kiss you and also throw hands" sparks. Their banter carried enough tension to power a small city, and their dynamic had that unhinged edge that kept me hooked even when the plot started drifting into a fog machine. Ava clawing her way out of emotional wreckage and into something like self-awareness? Gorgeous behavior. Eli unraveling like a designer-suited disaster with rage issues? Art.
But yeah... I wanted more. Like, rip-my-heart-out-and-stomp-on-it levels of more. Not âvaguely confused in a soap opera dream sequenceâ more.
More of the other characters. More legacy payoff. More from the series Iâve been mentally unwell about for six entire books. I love a standalone vibe as much as the next emotionally damaged reader, but this finale felt like it ghosted its own franchise. Where was the mess? The depravity? The repressed disaster gays and feral murder boys Iâve spiritually adopted?? I needed Ava to walk into that chaos in heels and make it her bitch.
Instead, the pacing was like watching a car inch forward for 200 miles and then suddenly launch off a cliff. There were flashes of brilliance, then whiplash so intense I thought the book had a personality disorder and forgot to warn me. The darkness didnât hit like a freight train this time, it hit like depression wearing designer sunglasses. Less âhow is this legally published?â and more âyou both need therapy and possibly a joint exorcism.â which normally im cool with, but for the series finale?
There were heavy themes here (mental health, trauma, manipulation) and I highly recommend checking trigger warnings first because this one goes deep.
Still, the emotional moments in the last act? Gorgeous. The chemistry? Beautiful. The payoff for these two characters? Solid. If you go in expecting dark MMF chaos and come out emotionally gutted by two tragic soulmates and one glorified third wheel in denial? Thatâs not a failure. Thatâs just Rina Kent doing parkour with your expectations.
â â â three stars, because it felt like a fever dream that tripped over the landing but still slapped me hard enough to leave an imprint.
âWhy would he be happy with me when I canât even stand myself?â
â Brandon King
When cold control crashes into unmedicated chaos, Nikolai Sokolov and Brandon King spiral into the slowest, most self-destructive enemies-to-lovers mess imaginable. Mafia legacy? Check. Unresolved trauma? Obviously. Forbidden obsession that could level a small country? Oh, absolutely. Itâs not love, itâs a mutually assured emotional explosion, and weâre reading every second.
Review:
This book ripped open my ribcage like it was checking for spare trauma to play with. I knew I was screwed the moment Nikolai opened his mouth and something so unhinged it looped back around to seductive, immediately fell out. He sounds like sin, speaks in red flags, and somehow still makes Brandon feel like heâs the safest place to fall. Itâs giving opposites attract but in a *what if stability kissed volatility on the mouth* kind of way.
Brandon is repressed like itâs his full-time job. Quiet. Gentle. The kind of soft that gets overlooked until it explodes in emotional shrapnel. And Nikolai? That man is a chaos demon in designer shoes. A sexy liability. A war crime with a jawline. Together, theyâre a crime scene and a love story rolled into one, and I would watch them ruin each other forever.
No. It doesnât just work. It hit every single nerve like it had a personal vendetta.
The chemistry is insane. It's "I'll throw hands with your trauma if it looks at you wrong" levels of intense. This isnât a romance arc, itâs two walking trigger warnings falling face-first into codependency. I love enemies-to-lovers, but this was more like âemotionally constipated art boy and unhinged mafia menace accidentally imprint on each other and never recover.â And I ate up every beautifully deranged second.
Letâs talk Brandon. Sweet, tortured Brandon. My dude spends half the book trying to convince himself heâs unlovable while actually being the most emotionally honest character in the whole damn series. His inner monologue reads like someoneâs therapy homework that got left out in the rain. His arc hits because itâs not polished or pretty, itâs raw. Cracked and clawing toward something better. This is a man who spends most of his time trying to disappear quietly, and when he finally decides to want something, it feels like the earth shifts. Watching his growth put me in a corner crying over it.
Now Nikolai. Listen. If âchaotic bisexual with a god complex and a heartbreak kinkâ was a genre, heâd be the poster boy, the syllabus, and the final exam. Heâs emotionally unstable in the most magnetic way, uncomfortably soft when it counts, and so violently protective it feels both concerning and strangely therapeutic. His love for Brandon doesnât show up politely. It crashes in, flips a table, and refuses to leave. He wonât sit with his own pain. He dodges meds like theyâre bullets. And he masks everything behind deflection, violence, and pitch-black humor. He is one bad day from a full psych workup, and I would still follow him into the void without hesitation. And I adore him for it.
Also? I screamed. Out loud. Multiple times. This book has so many emotionally unhinged one-liners I shouldâve read it wearing a helmet and emotional support eyeliner. âEven if you hate yourself, Iâll love you for the both of usâ?? That line from Nikolai body slammed me into the concrete. I had to put the book down, walk outside, and whisper âbe so for realâ at a tree. I have not recovered. I remain unwell.
Letâs be so clear: this book is not soft. Itâs raw. Itâs feral. The trauma, the mental health spirals, the mafia violence, the ever-present threat of emotional and literal destructionâit does not let up. This isnât fun little âboys kissingâ energy. This is âI looked into your broken soul and decided to die thereâ romance. No wonder this wrecked me harder than any of the books in the series. It showed up, stole my stability, and left. Like, WTF?
There are moments where the pacing stumbles. The middle gets a little stuck in the âweâre toxic but in loveâ hamster wheel. Some of the emotional moments become repetitive if youâre not paying attention. And yeah, if you havenât read the other Legacy of Gods books or done your homework on the Rina-verse, a few plot threads might feel like inside jokes you werenât invited to. But if youâve been here from the jump? This is your reward. Cameos. Callbacks. Generational mafia drama. The strange little romance world opened the door for unhinged queer chaos and I was absolutely gnawing the pages.
The way this series leaned into MM romance? We love it. The representation matters, obviously. But what matters more is that it wasnât performative or just a token queer moment. It was raw. It was heavy. It was messy in the way real love stories are, especially when they come wrapped in trauma, bloodlines, and emotional repression. Queer boys in love with knives, guilt, and barely-earned tenderness? Yeah. That hit different.
Caution for dark themes: mental health, self-harm, mafia violence, stalking, and very questionable emotional coping skills are all front and center. If youâre looking for fluff, you took a wrong turn somewhere near the gates of hell. Nothing here is safe. Nothing here is neat. This is rage holding hands with vulnerability while love throws itself down a flight of stairs and says âitâs fine, I meant to do that.â
But if youâre like me, and your nervous system thinks that love and pain are basically the same thing, this book might feel like crawling into a weighted blanket made of red flags and bad decisions.
â â â â ½ four and a half stars, because Brandon reminded me Iâm not okay, Nikolai confirmed it, and I wouldnât trade a single moment of their chaos for my peace of mind back.
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âThereâs no such thing as the perfect defense.â
â Adrian Volkov
âIâll touch your scars until you normalize them and can live with them, because theyâre what make you who you are.â
â Jeremy Volkov
Cecily Knight is all pastel sweaters, polite smiles, and unprocessed trauma. Jeremy Volkov is what would happen if Freud met his final boss. Brilliant, violent, obsessive, a man with too much self-awareness and not nearly enough restraint. They meet at university going to rival schools. She becomes his religion. He becomes her undoing. What follows is desire dipped in darkness, a spiral of power games, obsession, and the psychological equivalent of drowning while someone calmly tells you it's love.
Review:
Read God of Wrath and suddenly all my standards are Jeremy-shaped and clinically inadvisable. Iâve gone through this book twice now and I still canât tell if it healed something in me or just catered directly to my specific psychological issues.
Jeremy Volkov might be my favorite Rina Kent man. Which says a lot, considering all her male leads feel like they were genetically engineered in a trauma lab for people with abandonment issues. Heâs powerful, obsessive, possessive, and still somehow vulnerable in a way that feels illegal. Heâs the mafia heir with a therapistâs vocabulary and a hitmanâs problem-solving skills. The way he talks about Cecily isnât romantic in the traditional sense. Itâs devotion laced with madness. Itâs the kind of love that sounds like a warning. And unfortunately, thatâs my favorite kind.
Cecily, though? Sheâs phenomenal. Cecily? An icon. She's written with this perfect mix of quiet strength and deep fear, and watching those cracks turn into sharp edges is ridiculously satisfying. Her trauma isnât there for shock value. Itâs woven into every choice she makes, every wall she tears down or builds up. She starts out fragile, not weak, and by the end, sheâs staring into the dark and daring it to flinch first.
Their relationship is chaos, but the kind you walk into on purpose. This isnât the kind of romance that gives you butterflies... sometimes heart palpitations. Itâs toxic, itâs obsessive, and itâs somehow still cathartic as hell. Jeremy and Cecilyâs dynamic feels like watching two thunderstorms collide. Itâs not healthy, but itâs honest. Especially if youâve ever been in something where love and control start to blur together.
World-building in a romance book? Yeah, apparently, because the Rinaâverse is actually wild. The way she weaves characters and storylines across series feels borderline fantasy-tier. Jeremy is Adrian and Liaâs son from The Deception Trilogy. Cecily is Xander and Kimâs daughter from The Royal Elite Series. Itâs all connected, and I lost my mind over it. Watching the next generation treat inherited trauma like a trust fund they never asked for? Unhinged behavior. I loved it. It felt like reading mafia fanfiction written in the family group chat.
The atmosphere hits like a fever dream. Itâs dark academia meets mafia initiation, obsession wearing loyalty like a mask, and violence that somehow counts as a love language. Rina Kent said âwhat if we kissed during a psychological breakdown after manipulation?â and then made it a literary career out of it. And I will eat it up every time. I know I'm unstable, do you?
Of course this book isnât perfect. Some people say all her books follow the same pattern. And they're not necessarily wrong. But if itâs a toxic love ballad with knives and trauma and it slaps every time, Iâm not skipping it. Iâm vibin' on repeat.
Yes, the final act was a little rushed. Yes, right now Landon exists solely so Jeremy can go full emotional pipe bomb and self-destruct on paper. Yes, Jeremy absolutely shouldâve chased after Cecily instead of standing around brooding like a Victorian ghost. But honestly? I forgave all of it because the emotional build-up hit like a punch to the chest in the best way.
People also say her characters act too immature for how dark the content gets. And yeah, sometimes the emotional logic packs a bag and leaves the building. But thatâs the thing, Rina Kent isnât writing realism, sheâs writing psychological theater with guns. Itâs not about logic. Weâre making choices that make sense to a brain marinated in cortisol. And for trauma-coded brains like mine, that hits way harder than anything labeled âsensibleâ ever could.
If you like your romance dark, obsessive, slightly unhinged, and marinated in unresolved generational trauma, God of Wrath absolutely delivers. If you're the type to read dark romance and then leave a review saying "this was problematic," maybe skip Rina Kent all together. There's stalking, manipulation. Thereâs violence and wildly unhealthy power dynamics. Itâs not here to be a moral compass. Itâs here to help the unstable scream into the void and call it healing.
Personally, this book felt like being emotionally disemboweled with an iridescent knife and then lovingly tucked into bed by the same hands that gutted me. Itâs dark. Itâs feral. Itâs everything my therapist warned me about and I still ate it up like an unstable freak.
â â â â because Jeremy Volkov redefined yearning, Cecily Knight said healing can come with a knife, and Rina Kent continues to write like sheâs trying to outâtrauma her own characters.
I did a thing (again).
Because apparently my âtotally normal reviewsâ werenât enough for my overachieving brain, and I started drawing book covers too.
Was it smart? Nope.
Will I stick with it? Probably not.
But theyâre cute, and Iâm riding this manic wave with pride đŤś
Pick your fave (or donât, Iâll still obsess anyway).
âEveryone needs someone worth going to jail for.â
â Leo Lohan
Scarlett Miller is bartending a trivia night post-breakup, fully spiraling about her life choices, and then Leo Lohan crashes into her like a romantic concussion. He's hot. Heâs kind of weird. And they hit it off way too well. One problem... she has no idea heâs a pro hockey player. He has no idea sheâs the coachâs daughter. They find out after. Cue chaos. Now itâs secrets, tension, and a âwe probably shouldnât but definitely willâ vibe. Game on.
Review:
Okay. Iâm a known hockey romance enthusiast. I show up for the locker room chaos, emotionally stunted teammates, and forbidden coachâs daughter tension. And Wildcat served it like a warm little snack wrapped in banter and soft boy delusion.
Leo is a certified golden retriever book boyfriend. Heâs sweet. Heâs persistent. Heâs locked in on Scarlett with laser focus from the jump. Heâs obsessed with in a âdream girlâ way that toes the line between adorable and potential early-stage limerence, but this is fiction, so it fine. Scarlett is messy, impulsive, a little self-sabotage-coded, and honestly? We love that for her. She makes questionable decisions, owns them, and keeps the vibes alive. I can respect it.
The tropes are all here. One-night stand with consequences. Mistaken identity. Secret relationship. The forbidden âplayer and coachâs daughterâ combo. It didnât reinvent the wheel, but it didnât flatten the tires either. Itâs a solid start to a sports romance series, and it did its job introducing the team in a way that made me want to keep reading about these reckless little hockey men.
But. And you knew thereâd be a âbutâ after the emotional bloodbath that was Nightfall. I finished this one feeling a little âhuh... okay.â Not mad. Just not fully fed. The tropes are familiar. A reliable recipe, but nothing new was added to the dish. The spice was moderate. Not minimal, but not melt-the-ice hot either. This was a cozy kind of spicy. Less chaos, more comfort. Itâs the kind of romance you read when you want serotonin, not a spiritual crisis.
But still. I wanted more. Some character choices felt rushed. Scarlettâs fall for Leo happened fast, and not in a âweâre soulmatesâ way, more like a âI guess weâre in love now?â kinda way. The coachâs daughter angle had so much potential for tension and angst, but it never really hit the depth I hoped for. I wanted messier fallout, more emotional stakes, more something. Instead, it all wrapped up a little too cleanly. Like we skipped the part where things were supposed to break first.
The sports setting works. The team dynamic is fun. The side characters have personality. It all feels like the first chapter of something bigger. Which is cool, but also means it didnât quite deliver a full emotional arc. Iâm hoping the future books go harder now that the setup is done.
Would I recommend it? Yeah, if youâre looking for sweet sports romance with a likable hero, a realistically messy heroine, and a âweâre not supposed to be doing thisâ vibe that stays mostly wholesome. It's great! Would I recommend it if you want depth, chaos, or high-stakes emotional warfare? Absolutely not. This is hockey fluff. You will not cry. You will not break. You might giggle, say âawwâ a couple times, and kick your feet a little.
â â â three stars, because Leo made me smile, Scarlett was a lovable disaster, and sometimes predictable is exactly what you need to survive the week.
â â â â â [â ] ..yes i see the red flags. no i will not be leaving.
âAfter a while you get tired of pretending that youâre in control of everything that happens to you and you start being what happens to everyone else.â â Damon Torrance
Emory Scott wakes up in what can only be described as a mansion-prison. They call it Blackchurch. A secluded fortress where the rich stash their problematic sons and expect silence, obedience, and zero therapy. Will Grayson III, once the golden boy, is there. Now broken, furious, and done playing nice. When Emory lands in his personal purgatory, the past crashes into the present with brutal consequences. Secrets unravel. Power shifts. Survival gets messy. This finale isnât just a book, itâs blood, closure, chaos, and every Devilâs Night ghost clawing its way to the surface.
Review:
This book broke my spine and then politely asked if I was enjoying myself. Spoiler: I was. Iâve never been so emotionally attached to a group of degenerates like I am with the Devilâs Night characters. These are my comfort psychos. I will defend them like theyâre real. Iâll psychoanalyze them instead of myself. I would die for them. Especially Will Grayson III.
From the second book I was feral for this man. Then Nightfall came along and said, what if we show you exactly why heâs the most emotionally unstable and somehow still the most lovable Horseman? And I said thank you, with tears in my eyes... while shaking.
This book is kinda long. And no, I donât particularly care. It's 700+ pages of emotional carnage and I was glued to every word like it was gospel. If youâve been following the series, this is the pay-off. You get the arcs. The trauma. The redemption. The full circle moments. You get to see who Will really is. Not just the party boy, or the spiraling addict, but the man underneath. And yeah, that man is a mess. But heâs my mess. Our mess.
The setting? A remote mansion-prison called Blackchurch where "troubled" rich boys go to rot. I had doubts. Especially with an entirely new group of side characters. But it ended up being the exact claustrophobic, tension-drenched hell this story needed. The vibe is thick. Isolated. Unstable. Like being locked in a haunted house with your worst memories, someone you once loved, and a group of psychos that haven't seen a woman in months. Iâve been in psych wards. Iâd still take Blackchurch. At least they let you scream, and you could get out some rage without repercussions.
Now, let's talk about Will! The addiction. The trauma. The grief. The fear. The way he hates himself for it, but desperately wants to gain control. So damn raw. I also have an addictive personality so maybe I understood a little too well a little too much. And the way he sees Emory? Like sheâs the only thing keeping him tethered. The only soft thing in all his ruin. Its feral. Itâs obsessive. Itâs beautiful. I saw parts of myself in Will's spiraling. In his self-sabotage. In his avoidance style. I felt seen and it was horrifying. I know I'm not well, but at least I'm never boring. I am the disaster you couldnât stop reading. Take that how you will.
Emory ended up being one of my favorite Devils Night girls. She's right up there with Banks. Her trauma is handled so well. Sheâs not immediately strong or âfixedâ by love. Sheâs complicated. Sheâs scared. But she fights. And when she finally starts demanding space, demanding freedom, demanding more? Yes. YES. Give that girl a crown and a knife. Let her take down the systems that hurt her.
And the chemistry between her and Will? Top tier. Soulmate psychosis. These two are unwell and in love and that is my favorite genre. In the present timeline, they are not good for each other, but they become what the other needs. And that transition is everything to me. Thatâs why I read dark romance. I want the mess. I want the slow transformation. I want the pain before the healing. i want to overanalyze their trauma so i donât have to think about mine. i donât process emotions. i hyperfixate on characters who are worse off than me.
You know the way I said I was worried about the other horseman not being in the book? Well, they were! And we got some great couple moments, and got to see the group dynamics I was so desperate for. Yeah, sometimes it distracted from Will and Emoryâs arc. But also? If we didnât get our Devilâs Night family reunion, I would have rioted. Let me have my emotionally traumatized friend group and their stabby love languages.
That being said, the romance in present-day does take a backseat to the finale chaos. There are flashbacks, and they do deliver. But kinda wanted to sit with Emory and Will in the slow moments, where they can be soft. I wanted more of them just existing without legacy of all the blood or violence still hanging in the air. But I get it. This is a finale. Not everyone gets to lay in the grass and heal. Some of us have to burn everything down first. I vibe with that. Fight for your ending.
There is a lot happening here. Conspiracies. Revenge. Psychological warfare. And somewhere in the middle of all that mess, a love story that has been crawling through fire for years to finally drags itself to the surface. If you havenât read the rest of the series, you may have trouble surviving this book. It is defiantly not a standalone. Itâs fan service, trauma edition. The kind of ending you have to earn.
And the themes! Power. Control. Forgiveness. Freedom. Obsession. And my least favorite, letting go. Not just of other people, but of who you were when everything hurt. Of what you had to become to survive. Some quotes in this book hit like they were ghostwritten by a licensed therapist. Damon especially speaks like heâs halfway through starting a cult and honestly? Iâd consider joining. It's a bit concerning that I relate so much to the most twisted characters.
If you're here for soft boys and clean resolutions, run. But if you want pain and depth and a main character so catastrophically human it makes your chest ache, this is it.
This isnât just a book. Itâs like a love letter to all the kids who survived something and never got to talk about it. For those who were always too loud and who joked through pain. For the ones who made it out, even if they had to crawl.
â â â â â [â ] six stars, because Will Grayson is etched into my psyche and this series claimed me, body and soul.
"you can kiss me with this color the next time were together. It'll show up on my skin better."
-Crew Lancaster
âWhen weâre lucky enough to find someone that makes our world brighter, shouldnât we grab hold of that person and never let them go?â
-Wren Beaumont
Wren Beaumont is the human embodiment of a dress code. Perfect grades, perfect manners, purity ring basically soldered to her finger. Crew Lancaster is the emotionally constipated bad boy heir with just enough generational wealth to make it hot. Theyâre not supposed to like each other. So naturally, they get stuck as project partners and immediately develop enough sexual tension to power a small nation. What follows is prep school chaos, enemies-to-lovers brain rot, and a slow burn so intense it made me question my morals and several federal laws.
Review:
This was my second time reading it and I still canât tell if I loved it or if it just rewired my brain with glitter glue and unresolved trauma. The ârich kids at an elite boarding school with too much money and zero emotional regulationâ vibe delivers. Itâs family legacy nonsense, reputation anxiety, and horny teenagers in cashmere sweaters. Which, unfortunately, works for me. Itâs messy, dramatic, escapist chaos... basically a tabloid fever dream wrapped in privilege, purity rings, and primal attraction. Not high literature. Not emotionally healthy. Just status games, legacy guilt, and sexual repression getting absolutely wrecked by one emotionally constipated boy with parental issues.
Perfect grades, perfect manners, purity ring permanently welded to her finger. Her family basically built her into a Stepford daughter. She starts the book more tense than a nun at a strip club and ends it with autonomy, power, and orgasms, in that exact order. Thatâs what we call character development. Watching her finally stop living for other peopleâs expectations? Delicious. Let the girl rebel. Let her break things on purpose.
Crew on the other hand, is made of sharp edges, trust issues, and the kind of softness that only shows up at 3AM in a panic. Heâs moody, obsessed, and occasionally speaks like he swallowed a Tumblr post from 2013. His internal monologue is full of possessive nonsense and âyouâre mineâ energy, which is both hot and deeply concerning. His fixation on Wrenâs virginity and purity ring had a lot of people making direct eye contact with god. Like yes, the forbidden tension works. But also. Sir. Therapy. Immediately."
To be clear: this book has spice. Like way more spice than youâd expect for a prep school setting. They're both 18, so it's technically fine, but I had to unconsciously relocate them to a completely different timeline just to avoid a moral crisis. Thereâs a lollipop scene that spiritually altered me. The smut is detailed, intense, and very adult. Which makes the prep school backdrop feel deeply confusing. I liked it. I also had to sit in total silence afterwards to keep my conscience from shriveling like raisin. Think more Rina Kent, less Stephanie Perkins.
As for pacing, the first, like, third of the book kinda drags. Yeah, itâs building tension, but it takes its sweet time and I kept zoning out. Thereâs not much of a plot outside the romance, and I was left wondering about the side-plots. The whole book leans hard on the relationship, which is great if youâre here for vibes, sexual tension, and beautiful people making terrible decisions. But if you came for more than aesthetic angst and emotionally irresponsible behavior, you might leave feeling empty.
Crewâs behavior does lean hard into bully romance territory, and not everyoneâs gonna be cool with that. Heâs possessive. He pushes boundaries. He talks about virginity like heâs the high priest of some purity cult. The story hinges a lot on Wrenâs virginity, which Iâm used to seeing in romance books, but I get why it wonât work for everyone. It flirts with toxicity and doesnât always land clean. That said, I read dark romance. I live in the land of morally questionable love interests and characters who communicate exclusively through obsession and veiled threats. So I wasnât shocked. Think more Rina Kent and less Lynn Painter.
This book is wildly polarizing. Some people ate up the tension, the angst, the sheer unhinged chaos of it all. Others hate how quickly it shifts from disdain to obsession, or how horny it gets considering the characters are still technically in school. It all comes down to what flavor of brain rot youâre craving. If you're looking for emotional growth, deep introspection, or a solid external plot arc â this probably isnât your book. But if you're in the mood to read about rich teenagers being feral and emotionally stupid in a morally questionable romance with A+ spice, then yeah, its got you covered.
â â â ½ three and a half stars, because Crew short-circuiting over Wren's lip gloss made me painfully aware of my relationship status, but I genuinely canât tell if the lollipop scene turned me on or triggered the urgent need to sanitize my insides.
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âLoving me would be like a gilded cage. Pretty but still a cage.â
â Jax Kingston
Jax Kingston is the British bad boy of Formula 1. Which means heâs fast, emotionally unstable, and basically allergic to healthy choices. His team is one scandal away from duct-taping him to a rocket and launching him into the stratosphere, so they bring in Elena Gonzalez. A PR specialist with a spine of steel, a functioning frontal lobe, and no time for his drama. Sheâs here to save his reputation. Heâs here to publicly self-destruct. What follows is slow-burn chaos, sharp banter, and a romance that ruins you just right.
Review:
Okay. So I knew this one was going to hurt. I just didnât realize it would hurt in a claw-my-way-through-the-emotional-wreckage, "why am I like this" kind of way. Wrecked is a mess â but in the most intentional, calculated, soul-crushing sense. It grabs your face, stares directly into your soul, and politely asks how many therapy sessions your insurance covers before emotionally waterboarding you for 300 pages straight.
The angst? Cranked to eleven. Jax isnât just a hot mess. Heâs a full-blown existential crisis in a race suit. His struggle with addiction, self-destruction, and the looming threat of Huntingtonâs disease was raw. It actually feels like you're watching someone spiral in real time. I kept checking the page count just to see how much longer Iâd be held hostage by my own empathy.
And Elena? An icon. A force. I loved that she wasnât just there to fix him. Sheâs flawed, layered, emotionally intelligent, and blessedly unwilling to tolerate his nonsense. The way she met Jaxâs chaos with compassion and boundaries made me want to fist bump her through the page. She wasnât a prop. She was present. She was real. She was tired.
Their dynamic? Oh, itâs messy. The sexual tension is unhinged. The banter is hot. The emotional intimacy feels slightly illegal. I live for a âweâre both disasters but somehow less terrible togetherâ storyline. But the hot and cold? The emotional whiplash? The constant push and pull with no actual forward movement? I wanted to walk directly into the ocean. At one point I had to close the book and scream into a blanket because they couldnât go five minutes without miscommunicating or spiraling into a dramatic feelings pit.
I get it. Theyâre traumatized. So am I. But there comes a point in every romance where I stop rooting for love and start rooting for emotional isolation. Somewhere around the halfway mark I stopped being sympathetic and started developing antisocial tendencies. I love angst, but even I draw the line at circular trauma loops with zero payoff.
That said, the emotional resolution did land. The ending is messy but honest. Itâs not some sparkly, romcom epilogue where love magically cures everyone. Itâs two people choosing to stay, even though nothing is easy and the world is still terrifying. And honestly? That felt more romantic than any fairytale ending ever could.
Also, Jaxâs family? Inject that into my bloodstream. The sibling dynamic added so much heart, and it helped me care about him even when he was being a full-blown self-destructive menace. I did not expect to be emotionally attacked by the brother, but here we are.
Tone-wise, this book is heavier than the first two. Thereâs trauma. Thereâs grief. Thereâs addiction, illness, and an avalanche of emotional damage hiding under sunglasses and dry sarcasm. I liked it. I like being stabbed a little by my romance novels. But I fully get why it didnât land for everyone. This one requires mood, mindset, and maybe a preemptive blanket fort.
Pacing-wise? That mid-book slump returned like a cursed side quest. I donât know if itâs just me or a Lauren Asher ritual at this point, but every book in this series hits a point where my brain starts buffering like Iâve lost WiFi. The emotional tension stays high, but the plot spins in circles. I needed movement. I got mutual avoidance and repressed trauma. My soul left my body.
â â â three stars because Jax obliterated me, Elena carried, and the tension ruined my nervous system. But the emotional whiplash had me dizzy, the middle dragged, and now I need a full romance detox.
âScrew platonic, I want catastrophic.â
â Liam Zander
"You're not a problem to fix, Sophie. You're someone to love."
â Liam Zander
Sophie Mitchell is rich, repressed, and trying to break free via a spicy little bucket list that is one minor PR scandal away from becoming a headline. Liam Zander is an emotionally stunted Formula 1 driver with control issues, a tragic backstory, and exactly zero coping mechanisms that arenât avoidance or abs. He finds the list. He offers to help. With rules. You can already tell how well thatâs going to go. What follows is flirtation, racing circuit chaos, slow-burn disaster tension, and the kind of mutual pining that makes you want to scream into a pillow and then eat the pillow out of rage.
Review:
Okay so hereâs the thing. I liked this book. I did. But I also wanted to shake it like a snow globe just to see if the plot would rearrange itself into something slightly more coherent.
Sophie and Liam are two chaos demons in denial, which is a dynamic I usually love. The banter? Cute. The tension? Hot. The âweâre just friends doing mildly erotic bucket list challenges in increasingly compromising situationsâ premise? Honestly iconic. I live for a trope that forces characters to be emotionally stupid in close proximity. Watching them spiral through repressed feelings while doing things like skinny dipping or speaking German was entertaining, stressful, and deeply unhinged in the best way.
But it also made me want to lie down in the middle of the highway screaming 'JUST KISS ALREADY' repeatedly. Like. I get it. Emotional repression is mysterious. But at some point I need someone to crack open their rib cage and say âhere is my heart, I am unwell.â Instead we get chapter after chapter of Sophie being like âIâm not like other girlsâ while Liam stares off into the distance like someone just told him love isn't a pyramid scheme. Just say youâre in love and let me move on with my life. Please.
I will say Liamâs emotional arc was the best part. Watching him slowly fall apart and then put himself back together using Sophie as emotional duct tape was satisfying. We love a man who emotionally flatlines and then reboots his personality because a woman handed him a granola bar and basic empathy. Heâs the kind of love interest who thinks vulnerability is a character flaw but still manages to be slightly soft without turning into a sentient red flag. Good job, Liam. Go to therapy next.
Sophie, on the other hand, was a bit of a rollercoaster. She wants to be rebellious but keeps forgetting that rebellion isnât just putting âhave sex in a stairwellâ on a checklist. Sometimes itâs saying no. Or thinking for yourself. Or not letting your dad emotionally steamroll your entire personality. Her growth is there, it just got lost somewhere between the awkward jokes and identity crisis cosplay.
And speaking of awkward jokes. Some of the dialogue physically hurt me. Like I had to put the book down, pace around sim style, and eat a cookie out of pure psychological necessity. I mostly enjoyed the banter, but thereâs only so many lines that sound like rejected Instagram captions I can take before my skin starts crawling.
Also. The miscommunication. Dear god. I can handle a little âoops I didnât say the thingâ moment. But this book stretched it into a whole subplot. These two were out here refusing to use their words like they thought conversation was a federal crime. It got old. Fast.
The F1 setting was still a win for me. Love the vibes. Love the drama. But compared to Throttled, this book felt like we were parked in the pit lane for most of it. Less race cars, more emotional bumper cars. Which normally I don't have a problem with but I missed the adrenaline from the first book. I missed the track. I missed Liam in a fireproof suit. I feel slightly robbed... can you be 'slightly' robbed?
BUT... interconnected standalones are the literary equivalent of someone holding my hand and telling me itâs all going to be okay, even if Iâm unlovable and mildly psychotic. I love being able to stay in the same world without having to watch a fully happy couple try to find new drama just because the series isnât done yet. No one needs a sequel about communication exercises and joint taxes. Let me hop universes like a hot gremlin with commitment issues. Let me just swap view points and emotionally rebrand. Thatâs self-care.
â â â Three stars, because his trauma arc said 'you will feel things' and unfortunately, I did.
âThis isnât a negotiation⌠and despite what you may think, I am your judge, jury, and executioner.â
â Evelina Westerly
Evelina Westerly runs a criminal empire in heels, balances vengeance with science, and still has time to ruin a DEA agentâs life (and emotions) with just one look. Enter Nicholas Woodsworth, aka undercover agent with a badge and a death wish. Heâs betrothed to her sister. They meet. They clash. They combust. What follows is a romance with high stakes, electric chemistry, and just enough Wizard of Oz inspiration to make you question who to root for.
Review:
This book said âWhat if tension was an Olympic sport and these two were fighting for gold?â The chemistry is unhinged. Like, I-didnât-know-whether-to-read-or-take-a-cold-shower levels of electric. The push-pull dynamic? Delicious. The morally gray decisions? Chefâs kiss. The sheer amount of sexual tension in a single shared glance? Illegal in most countries.
I always need a little more than just romance to stay focused (hi, ADHD, thanks for playing), and this book delivered. The suspense, the danger, the espionage, the âwho do I trustâ knife-to-throat energy. Itâs giving a little romantic thriller and I devoured it like a rabid raccoon with a Red Bull.
Sheâs a botanist. Sheâs a drug lord. Sheâs the Wicked Witch of My Heart. Okay but hear me out: Evelina Westerly is everything. She's not just the bad girl. Sheâs a badass. Sheâs chaos in stilettos who uses Latin plant names and fully justified murder as entertainment, and I respect that. Like, this woman literally weaponizes phytochemistry. If I had a type, it would be âbotanically inclined war criminal with excellent taste in shoesâ.
With that said⌠the pacing? A little wonky. The middle occasionally feels like someone hit pause on the chaos and I just zoned out completely. My brain said âspeed it upâ and the book said âletâs not.â Not a dealbreaker, but I did get that jittery read-faster-than-physically-possible feeling more than once. And the ending? Felt...rushed. Not bad, just lacking the emotional uppercut I was primed for. Threads were tied too quickly and cleanly for a book that otherwise let the tension simmer like grandma with the crockpot.
I see a lot of other readers say that the plot is too over the top or âunrealistic.â I mean, you picked up a fairy tale-inspired romance where the Wicked Witch sells designer drugs and makes men cry. I would hope you werenât expecting plausibility. This is the Neverafter series, embrace the chaos. If youâre looking for a realistic story, this is not the series to go to.
There are also quite a few readers that were disappointed with the ambiguity of the Wizard Of Oz aspect. I get it. If you came in expecting the same intense fairytale parallels that Hooked and Scarred delivered, this one probably felt a little softer on that front. The references are more thematic than literal. A lot less âflying monkeys,â and more âWicked Witch in a bulletproof vestâ vibe. But for me the subtlety worked. It didnât need to scream Oz to still feel like a twisted homage. Itâs not a direct transplant. Itâs a reinterpretation. A fractured fairytale with a green-tinged edge and just enough magic left in the shadows.
Wretched might actually be one of my favorites in this series. The villain-centric lens, the morally gray romance, the quiet rage wrapped in femininity. Is definitely my vibe. And it hit hard. Will I raise the rating on a reread? Probably. My brain is already trying to gaslight me into opening it again.
â â â ½ three and a half stars for now, because Evelina Westerly is the witch Iâd burn the world for, but I was holding out for a longer climax and a line that could haunt me for weeks.
âYou could burn down the kingdom until itâs nothing but charred rubble, and I would crawl over the embers with glee, so long as I could worship at your feet.â
â Tristan Faasa
Tristan Faasa. The scarred, bitter, banished royal, doesn't buy his brother michael's whole "oh dad's dead guess im king now" act. So instead of keeping his head down, he goes full rebel-leader mode in secret, as you do. Because that's obviously the best option. In comes Sarah Beatreaux. She's to marry the king but secretly on a revenge mission. Girlâs got plans, and none of them involve falling for the emotionally complex, morally gray prince who may or may not be planning a murder. Deception, betrayal, crown-stealing, and a slow descent into âoops I caught feelingsâ.
Review:
This book had me wrapped around its little villainous finger. Itâs like a Disney villain suddenly developed an R rating. After Hooked, I had to start Scarred, because apparently childhood fairytales werenât emotionally damaging enough without adding political intrigue, casual murder, and a forbidden romance that can make my inner demon dance.
Letâs get the obvious out of the way: this is The Lion King reimagined for people who grew up, got horny, and didnât go to therapy. Yes, Tristan is Scar. Yes, thereâs a forbidden romance. Yes, I loved it. I ate this twisted fairytale/fantasy-smut combo like it was my last meal on death row⌠for the most part.
Tristan Faasa is loyal, bitter, morally gray, and radiates âIâd kill for you but also Iâve killed for lessâ energy. And the fact that this book let him be the protagonist instead of keeping him as the snarling, eyeliner-wearing villain on the sidelines? Peak decision. I havenât been normal since. I am absolutely apart of the target audience and I want more stories where the villain gets the mic and uses it to confess his sins while making out with the enemy.
Saraâs character is admittedly less developed, and honestly? I didnât completely notice until someone pointed it out. Maybe itâs because Iâve been conditioned by the patriarchy to expect men to get all the emotional arcs while women just vibe in the narrative waiting to be kissed, sacrificed for angst points, or villainized for acting normal. It could also be because Tristanâs inner monologue was spicy, unhinged, and occasionally poetic in the way that makes you concerned for both his safety and mine.
ALSO. The dual POV was essential. I firmly believe if weâd only gotten Saraâs POV, Tristan wouldâve come off as an unhinged, power-hungry jackass with a knife kink and a death wish (not wrong, but not the whole picture). Instead, we get both angles: her reluctance and his obsession. Her rational panic and his spiraling devotion. It makes the dynamic more enticing. Toxic, sure, but interesting. Like if Romeo and Juliet had knives, guns, and an OnlyFans.
Pacing-wise? Listen. The beginning hits like adrenaline and bad decision making. Then we hit the middle, where things get weirdly slow like the book took a nap. Then the ending bolts out the door like it remembered it left the oven on. It felt slow in a way that made me check how many pages were left three times and yell âwrap it up!â like I was heckling a student film. Then all of a sudden Iâm wondering how it all happened so fast.
As for the writing style... itâs dramatic. Like, DRAMATIC. This prose is serving tortured poet energy. I didnât mind it (I was clearly in the right mood), but if Iâd read this in a different mental state I mightâve said the author was trying too hard. You have to meet the book where it is: barefoot in a castle, mid-monologue, plotting a murder.
Thereâs also a weird genre blend happeningâlike the book is wearing medieval cosplay but snuck in with a fake ID. Is it historical? Modern? Time period? Unclear. But if you treat it like romantasy with dark fairytale flair, it mostly works. Mostly. Just donât ask too many questions.
Now for the smut. Some people said it was too much, too tropey, or unrealistic (virgin heroine into instant kink discovery). I personally didnât really care. Iâm not reading dark romance for realism. Iâm reading it for morally ambiguous men who whisper filthy things between monologues about loyalty and revenge. And of course for all the psychological issues.
Also I signed up for knife flirting and royal trauma, not unexpected emotional attachment to a side character. I almost threw the thing across my living room because of a guy named Simon?! Anyway, final thoughts: the DSM and the Brothers Grimm walked into a bar and birthed this book.
â â â ½ three and a half stars, because I would absolutely commit political treason and crawl through burning embers for Tristan Faasa.
âMaybe love isnât supposed to be easy. Maybe itâs supposed to be this complicated, messy thing that we fight for.ââ Oakley Ford
Vaughn Bennett agrees to fake date nineteen-year-old pop star Oakley Ford to make him look less like a PR nightmare. Sheâs got twin brothers who treat chaos like a hobby, an older sister who doubles as her second brain cell, and a boyfriend named W who is the dictionary definition of âman written by red flags.â Oakley is Hollywoodâs most reckless golden boy, and together they sign a contract thatâs supposed to be fake but ends up ruining my emotional stability.
Review:
This was the book that dragged me back into reading as a teenager, which means I am permanently bonded to it like a hostage with Stockholm syndrome. Rereading it now felt like finding an old diary and realizing half of it was super embarrassing but the other half was still alarmingly relatable. Nostalgia is manipulative like that, and unfortunately it still works.
Fake dating is my addiction, and this was my gateway drug. Oakley, pop star disaster with the energy of a lit match in a fireworks factory, collides with Vaughn, the allegedly normal girl who is , apparently, already one bad day away from listing her brothers on eBay. The setup should feel ridiculous, but it doesnât. The balance and vibe kinda work. He falls first, which is the natural order of things, and watching him pine while pretending not to gave me actual serotonin. Like what my dog should do instead of raising my blood pressure. Their chemistry isnât only banter. Itâs in the tiny moments where fame and real life grind against each other until sparks start flying.
Vaughn is the only thing keeping this book from floating away in a glittery haze. Sheâs working, parenting, surviving, and trying not to collapse while her twin brothers do their best impression of caffeinated raccoons, gotta love emâ. Her older sister adds stability, but thereâs only so much she can do so Vaughn is the carrying a lot of weight. And then thereâs W. W is the kind of boyfriend who calls himself a âreal manâ while refusing to do the bare minimum, which is just a little too realistic for me. He thinks sex is part of a loyalty program and Vaughn should be grateful just to redeem her points. Watching her start with him is brutal, but watching her realize she deserves better is the whole payoff.
And Oakley. His arc is one of my favorite redemption stories, mostly because I have a screwed up sense of love, but he turned it around pretty damn fast. He starts spoiled, cocky, and immature, basically the human equivalent of a YouTube apology video waiting to happen. But did that make me hate him? Apparently not, which concerns me immensely. But then the edges crack. You see the vulnerable nineteen-year-old who wants to be seen as human instead of a brand, and I fell for that too. He goes from walking PR hazard to someone who actually earns Vaughnâs respect, and I hated how much I loved it. Itâs the kind of growth that makes you want to throw the book across the room just to cope.
The family dynamics seal the deal. The twins are comedy relief with no off switch, Paisley, the older sister, is so great, and the messy, real-life obligations Vaughn faces keep the romance believable. The contrast between her world of bills and babysitting and Oakleyâs celebrity circus is what makes their relationship feel earned instead of just Wattpad wish fulfillment.
Iâll admit it drags in the middle, like someone added filler episodes to stretch the season. By the end I didnât mind that though, I kinda wanted more. Oakleyâs early behavior is immature, but honestly, thatâs just nineteen-year-old boys in their natural habitat. And yes, the beats are predictable, but clichĂŠ is comfort food, and I inhaled it anyway.
Other readers point out the age gap discourse. Heâs nineteen, sheâs seventeen, and technically yes, that makes people twitch. I get it, but itâs a two-year difference. When I read it at 16, it felt fine. At 19, still fine. By 23, I see why people side-eye it, but the issue is more about life stages than math. And they were actually in a similar stage of their lives despite the 2 year age gap. For me, it was never enough to ruin anything.
So yeah, When Itâs Real is still one of my comfort reads. Itâs fake dating, family chaos, pop star meltdowns, and character development that actually lands. Itâs clichĂŠ, itâs messy, itâs addictive, and apparently my teenage self had more taste than I gave her credit for. (But not much)
â â â â ½ four and a half stars, because apparently my love language is fake contracts, redemption arcs, and men with guitars who trick me into forgiving them. Can you tell how unhealthy my love life is?
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âWhen Iâm with you, I want to play more than I want to win.â
â Nolan Sawyer
Mallory Greenleaf swore off chess after a family tragedy, but one reluctant tournament later she accidentally beats the reigning world champion, Nolan Sawyer. Suddenly sheâs dragged back into the spotlight she never wanted, stuck juggling competitive chess, family survival, and a man who looks at her like sheâs a puzzle he plans to ruin.
Review:
Ali Hazelwood again. Yeah, I know. Can you tell I was going through something? At this point just assume one of my coping mechanisms is binge-reading her books until my frontal lobe gives out. The quick wit in this one lit up my serotonin receptors like a car battery on jumper cables. The quips are smart and fast, the kind of humor that makes you laugh first and wonder if you should be worried about yourself later. Honestly, it felt like reading myself if I didnât have anxiety induced selective mutism in social settings. But whatâs new about that?
Itâs labeled YA, but letâs be real, this is new adult playing dress-up for Halloween candy. It reads younger without being childish, which means adults like me can devour it guilt-free while pretending weâre âanalyzing narrative structureâ instead of spiraling over a teenage chess prodigy romance. And yeah, I kinda wanted wanted more on-page romance, but then it couldnât be labeled YA. Even so, it was still a fun ass read and I inhaled it.
Mallory is chaos in a jumpsuit. Sheâs broke, running herself ragged at the auto shop, raising her sisters, and somehow dragged back into competitive chess like itâs a blood sport. Itâs relentless and heavy and feels like gasoline mixed with generational trauma. And what hit me hardest? The misogyny in the chess world. It isnât just hinted at or softened, itâs blatant and exhausting, the way male players dismiss her, underestimate her, or act like she doesnât belong at the table. It felt real in a way that was both validating and maddening, because every woman whoâs ever had to exist in a male-dominated space will recognize it instantly. Watching Mallory push back against that pressure made the whole story hit harder.
And Nolan. Oh, Nolan. The bad boy of chess who broods professionally but also manages to dismantle Mallory with nothing but his stupid eyes. I loved him. The rivals-to-lovers tension here is feral. Itâs slow burn, low spice, basically the literary equivalent of holding your hand over a flame just long enough to scream but not enough to scar. Did I suffer? Absolutely. Did I eat it up anyway? Unfortunately, yes.
The style is aggressively contemporary, but the texts, memes, and social media pacing actually worked. The dialogue reads like a group chat that somehow figured out punctuation. Itâs modern without being cringe, which is more than I can say for half the internet, including myself.
Now, what Iâve seen other readers mention: the chess is surprisingly legit and not just window dressing. Some thought maybe it leans closer to womenâs fiction with its heavier family plot, and honestly, I kind of see it. Malloryâs decisions drove people insane, and if impulsive self-sabotage gives you hives, maybe take a Benadryl before reading. And yeah, a few beats are predictable, but so is my coffee order, and that doesnât stop me from needing it every morning.
For me, this book nailed the formula: reluctant prodigy versus chess royalty, family pressure, blatant misogyny, and quips sharp enough to make me choke. Compulsively readable, cathartic in the worst way, exactly what my brain ordered.
â â â â â five stars, because apparently the cure for my depression is sarcastic quips and emotionally constipated chess champions.
âKeep talking. I love hearing your voice.â
â Noah Slade
Maya Alatorre joins her brotherâs Formula 1 team as a vlogger to document the season. Unfortunately, his teammate is Noah Slade, reigning world champion, control freak, and man most likely to ruin your peace of mind. The plan was simple: film, behave, avoid feelings. The execution? A public relations nightmare with kissing.
Review:
I read this during a mild mental breakdown, which might explain a lot. The F1 world has this electric energy: the noise, the travel, the adrenaline, the absolute ego of men willing to risk their lives for a glorified metal cup. Iâm not really an F1 girl, but I grew up around motocross, so I get it. The hunger to win, the tunnel vision, the masculine delusion. Hot. Unhealthy, but hot.
The forbidden-romance setup scratches a very specific part of my brain. Brotherâs teammate, guaranteed career suicide, cameras everywhere. Every interaction feels like itâs one tweet away from becoming a scandal. Thereâs the media circus, the brand deals, the sponsorships breathing down their necks. Maybe itâs a little over the top, but the word âfanâ literally means âfanatic,â so honestly it checks out. You can practically feel the gossip blogs foaming at the mouth.
Maya is driven, stubborn, and entirely held together by caffeine and spite. Sheâs juggling her career and her family while falling for the one man guaranteed to cause a PR meltdown. I like to think Iâd handle fame-related scandal better, but given my current inability to answer texts without spiraling, Iâd probably make it worse and somehow trend on Twitter for it.
Noah Slade is ninety percent control issues and ten percent denial. He treats emotions like a design flaw and holds himself together with discipline and repressed trauma. Watching him unravel is deeply satisfying, like seeing a therapistâs dream client finally give up pretending. His arc from emotionally constipated robot to semi-functional human is the kind of growth Iâd clap for if I wasnât busy feeling like fiction myself.
The pacing gets weird. It starts fast, slows in the middle, then suddenly remembers itâs supposed to be dramatic again. And the third-act breakup? Hate it. Theyâre lazy, annoying, and always feel like the author ran out of ideas and chose violence instead. At least this one didnât drag long enough for me to commit crimes.
Other readers call it predictable or Wattpad-adjacent. Sure. But if this is a Wattpad fever dream, then sedate me gently because I was having fun. Familiar isnât a flaw when itâs executed this like this, itâs comfort with horsepower.
Throttled is fast, messy, and addictive. The F1 energy crackles, the forbidden setup hits like caffeine on an empty stomach, and the chemistry makes you forget how to blink. Itâs chaotic, unhealthy, and honestly, so am I.
â â â â ½ because I have a competitive streak and, I guess, a weakness for emotionally unavailable men who drive too fast and call it therapy.