He nodded at her question, not surprised she knew of the relationship between Alex and Scout, given her previous admission that she had been investigating Alexâs background. When she mentioned taking alcohol from the club, a small, genuine smile appeared as he chuckled softly, and he made a note to start hiding the alcohol stores better. âIâm going to hang your picture up so the staff know, this woman is not entitled to free alcohol.â he joked, honestly not minding if she helped herself. It wasnât like he would ever charge her, it wouldnât even occur to him to.Â
Yet the smile fell from his lips almost immediately as her panic set in, and he listened intently to her following sentences. An outburst from Delilah wasnât uncommon, and when panic set in with her like it was know, his instinct was to prepare in case she shifted. But, her question also had him pausing as he realised she was thinking the same as him. He couldnât pinpoint when they had crossed that line from just having sex to more, but they had now. Her voicing the concern confirmed it, and he swallowed lightly as his hand dropped down from her cheek to grab the bottle before she could. He didnât hand it to her yet, taking a large drink as he tried to steady his hand. âI donât know.â he admitted quietly, finally breaking the silence that had fallen after she had finished speaking.Â
He thought back to the night theyâd gotten married, how heâd even suggested it, as much as he denied knowing what had lead to the drunken decision. He clearly didnât want to go back to how things had been between him when heâd first arrived in town, but he had no idea what to do from now on. The territory they were in was so unfamiliar, that he felt so lost, he had no idea where to go from here. âI donât know, but what I do know is this stopped being just sex a while ago for me. The whole marriage bullshit, yeah that, that can be reversed. But, I donât think I wanna go back to whatever we were before.â he took a breath, glancing to a spot just over her shoulder before returning his gaze to hers.Â
âIâm not saying letâs stay married, Iâm following up with the lawyers but ⌠if you want to stay friends or fuck, even stop altogether⌠I donât know, I can back off. Leave you alone, if you want.â it pained him to say it, finding it hard to picture a life without her in it, but if that was what she truly wanted then, heâd do it. For her. âI just donât know if I can be just a friend to you anymore.â he took a small, reluctant step back from her, prepared for her to send him running.
A playful pout crossed her lips only for a moment as he mentioned warning the workers against her â despite her doubts that he actually would ever do it. She had known for while now that things werenât what they started as. Their first encounters were about having fun, needing a distraction â not unusual for Delilah â yet, sheâd been fresh out of the trauma that had triggered her families werewolf gene. He was new in town, attractive, naturally the slept together. And if her memory served, she shook his hand, said thank you and they parted ways. And then they got together again, and again â until it fell into a comfortable habit.
Something changed though, and she couldnât figure when itâd happened. Late night booty calls turned into early morning conversations, they shared deeply personal conversations, fear â gifts became more meaningful (thought still with a side of fun, of course.) For hellâs sake, they were standing in a cabin heâd gotten just so they could get away. How had she never seen just how far theyâd gotten? Her lungs took in practiced deep breaths, a sense of panic rising as she regretted ever bringing it up. Because if this had truly gotten to this place so easily, she would just as easily fuck it all up. The damn near growl that escaped her throat when he took the tequila away, the only vice she knew how to fall back on.
âHoly fucking shit, this is a mess.â Not her best opening statement, though maybe the best anyone could expect. âBut if itâs not just sex than what the hell is it? Are we calling it something? How long have you known thatâs how you felt about it and were you ever going to tell me or just ââ Her head shook, there were too many questions and she wasnât sure if any of it really made a damn difference.
âWhy the fuck would I want you to leave me alone?â She was almost certain normal people didnât drop this many profanities in a conversation about the status of their relationship. Nothing about this was exactly normal, she supposed. Slipping off the counter, using the narrow space between them to move away â she took several steps, as if it would help her feel like she could breathe, before turning back. âYou know Iâm really shitty at this, right? Like Iâve always just stuck with sex because itâs what I know, Iâm good at that â I donât know shit about how to deal with anything else, whatever you want to call it, and thereâs 99.8% chance I will absolutely fuck up. Itâs what I do.â