I am No Longer Here

pretty pieces

-k.aiden

one of these days I’ll post an actual smoke video instead of just a gif, until then .. enjoy 💋

— leave - a.m (via ashleymacleanblog)

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— Courtesy of the Depressing thoughts eating me alive

Fluffy pittbull by lunnaandstar

I love this girl drugdesigner!!

It’s my only escape I can’t even explain what I am feeling rn I I just want to fuckkng be numb fuck I feel different I don’t feel the same

Captured a smoke smileee

OKAY SO. after the last time that i posted on here (feb 2018)—i got pregnant with G’s baby and was too selfish to stop using until i was like 5 months pregnant. so i called the national hotline for substance abuse and they got me a grant to go to a rehab in the state. so i did my 30 days and got clean. i came home and got back with G—he was still using, but he moved in with me at my moms house—which put me back to being with my daughter!!!! he got clean about 2 months before we had our son. and let me back up to the week before i had him. sonograms and everything had been looking fine and the last one i went to—they said they saw something on his brain that they hadn’t seen previously. this is the part where i’m hysterical and they sent me to a specialist who also saw something and induced me the next day. he was born and they did a CT on him and it was what they called a pseudo-cyst that was harmless and would go away on its own. I THANK GOD EVERYDAY FOR GIVING ME THIS PERFECT AND HEALTHY LITTLE MOON BEAM. and that’s real. well G made it until our son was 3 weeks old and he relapsed. so i had to make him leave in order to safeguard my own recovery. then he made it about 5 weeks and got arrested and is now doing 2 years. we have almost 9 months behind us of it and i mean, it’s going pretty good honestly. like life is good. i’m clean since 02/15/2018. i’m not an NA nazi and in fact i don’t even go to meetings. i believe in God and that’s what’s working for me. i’m not here to judge by any means…bc you have to get sick of it on your own. &y’all KNOW i was miserable. okay and with the pending charges—my stepdad dropped the forgery charges he had pressed against me which left me with the 2 possession charges. y’all, i went into court (after having run from them for 7 months) and the judge talked to me and said he really didn’t think he would ever see me in there again. he gave me 3 years of non-adjudicated probation. so after i pay off all my fines and whatnot, it won’t even be on my record. i just want y’all to know that i thank those of you who rode this thing out with me. i honestly don’t know what i would have done without some of you ( @vacationfrommyself @boundtobelow @deplorable8shardz @samson-getting-lifted &i know i’m forgetting like 3 other people that i really connected with..y’all know who you are). but i’m really enjoying my kids and sobriety. TRULY. for whatever reason my messages haven’t worked in like a year. @staff please HELP. it keeps saying something screwy happened. i wanna know what’s new with my people!!!! who is still on here??? love to you all ♥️

This that shit I like to see.

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whaddup my fellow speed demons? today has flown by. mood is kindof erratic, but it always is. trying to stay as numb as possible. hope you guys enjoy my compilation from my cloud adventures today. plus this song is pretty fucking applicable. “i’ve been awake for years..” get it? anyway, remember to stay free, hydrated, &SPUN.

Haven’t heard from her in too long. I hope everything is all good with her.