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i am taking a small break from tumblr this week to focus on myself / my mental health & just finding other hobbies i love again. after i come back, my only active blog will be nym ( who is moving to a new url ). i am slowly working on her when i find the spare time. my issue on tumblr is i spread myself thin with too many blogs. and as much as i love my other muses in this moment, nymeria is just where my heart belongs.

i have been thinking about nym a lot and my time spent here. it has been a real struggle to have the muse to write for her lately. i am thinking about putting her on a semi-hiatus. if muse comes to me, i might draft things and throw them in the queue. i don't want anyone to think that i don't enjoy writing nym and all her dynamics. i love the connections that have been made with her, and having such amazing mutuals ♡ . im not completely abandoning her, because i love her too much. my current main blog is @keptkind. nym is everything to me, but i think i need some time away from her? i am really, really sorry to anyone i've kept waiting on doing replies, etc.

i pinky promise i am going to spend some time here on nym this week to get caught up. i think i've just let so many things pile up and it makes me a little anxious.

i am going to try my best to catch up on nym here this weekend. i have what i thought was back problems, actually being kidney stones. i do feel pretty okay today with what i had prescribed to me, so i'm hoping it stays this way tomorrow so i can feel like getting things done around the house, and get to dedicate my weekend to writing. and also truthfully i have been super sucked into the pitt and writing mel. but i think i'm going to be silly and watch dracula this weekend so i can get some nym muse back.

i think nymeria is very touch avoidant ? i feel like when it is someone who is not vincent, can send her in a panic spiral. it is not supposed to taken as offensive though i think she would understand how it can be seen as that. but it is a million times because of her trauma. i think there are days she can not even handle vincent touching her? she wants to be able to hug her friends and all of that, it is just extremely hard for her, and i'm not sure that it ever becomes better?

i am not leaving nym, pinky promise ! i've just been hyper focused on the pitt, so i made a mel blog !

i know i already made a post on mel. i had every intention of being here today, but a high pain day hit. so i took my medicine and pretty much napped straight through the day. i am leaning more towards my slip discs than my fibro. i am going to try to split time between the blogs tonight, even if i just curl up on my laptop ♡. i know i say this alllll the time, but thank you so much for being patient with me. i have so much love for nym and the dynamics we have created for her. she is not going anywhere as a muse, i just havent had much time to dedicate to writing like i plan and then chaos happens.

good morning sunbeams ! i am wishing you so much love and joy for this tuesday. i hope that it brings you all the good things you deserve. today's reminder is it is okay to have bad days. your bad days are not an indication of failure ! you are allowed to have days where existing is all that you can do. and guess what? that is more than enough. please try to never let anyone ( and yourself ) make you feel that you have to be productive to have worth. just waking up is enough, you are so capable and so strong. thank you for existing and making the world a better place because you are here. if no one has told you today, i am so proud of you. outside of laundry, i am all caught up on chores ! which means i have a pretty easy day. i am going to dedicate it to writing pretty much and get done what i can.

i want to be here to jump around on blogs and write, but i took a tiny human knee to eye ( i totally deserved it because we were playing tickle crabs ). my eye doesn't hurt but around it does and it might be bruised 😭

i know i have been making 23432 blogs over the last week or so. i am in no way abandoning nym. i love her too much to do so. her connections and interactions are so important to me. sometimes i find myself struggling with muse for a character, and need to take a break for a little while, so i dont feel burnt out on being here and writing. i am trying to remember that this blog / writing is supposed to be for fun and not feel like work every time i log on. i have two other blogs now : my fae oc and mel from the pi.tt. those two are going to be slower on interactions. but also, i just wanted to say thank you guys for being so patient with me when it comes to interactions here on nym. she means so much to me as a character, and honestly was never supposed to be this developed as a muse. thank you guys for even wanting to interact with her, it truly means so so much.

i am still working on getting her set up, but if you’re interested in interacting with my mel from the pi.tt , give this a like and i’ll follow when i get her blog finished 💖.