“get high with the right person.”

“It’s either God or the devil with these drugs I’m on”

“The drugs are your band-aid, but tell us about your bullet hole.”

“but baby did we really love eachother? or just the drug addiction we shared”

“I would rather be wrapped up in your arms than wrapped up in these sheets.”

“Yes, the hurt has faded, but I’ll admit- It sometimes keeps me up at night to remember that the boy I fell in love with isn’t the same person he used to be. It still stings a little bit whenever my mind catches a glimpse of the people we were when we couldn’t get enough of each other. Yes, I’ve changed after him, too- Less naive, rougher, more mature, more skeptical. I don’t think I’ll ever give myself fully to someone else ever again, not after the way he destroyed me. This time last year I loved a boy who never would’ve left me the way he did. Biologically, yes, he is the boy I fell in love with. But somewhere between the first “I love you” and the last “I l just don’t feel it anymore,” he changed. When I speak to him now, I see no traces of the boy I would’ve died for. And that probably hurts more than anything, the fact that things could never go back to the way they were, no matter how hard we both tried.”

“I hotboxed the car tonight & smoked a cigarette afterwards, I remember Summer days spent with you doing the same thing, But you’d never let me hit your cigarette, you said I was “too pretty for that shit”.. Well isn’t that unfortunate. That night we ate painkillers like candy after we had sex but it was just temporary healing at it’s best because two fucked up people can’t do anything but fuck with each other’s head. And we did. Oh God. We did. Our love was toxic but people said we were cute together but nothing’s cute about phones being thrown & broken into more pieces than our hearts ever could & “if you want to leave, I’ll pack your shit”-screaming tournaments. You told me I was beautiful when I was sad & I always wanted to kiss you more after I made you mad, what the fuck was wrong with us? I hope you’re able to smile without drugs now & I hope she remembers that your favorite candy is Reese’s & when the sun sets, I hope you remember getting high beneath orange & pink skies with me. And even though we can’t go back.. I hope you miss it & for a split second even consider it.. then laugh & ash your cigarette,”

“I fucked you over; I know.”

“You smiled to me and i thought: damn, i’m fucking in love with you.”

“I tell everyone who wants to hear it that i don’t ever want to talk to you again. Yet, i find myself clutching my phone with both hands hoping that the screen will light up with your name on it.”

“Damn, but you? I cared for you, i was always there for you. When life was looking bold i was always there for you. Shed a couple tears for you, made a couple prayers for you.”

Your arms are my home, and I’ve been homesick for so long.

I’m not where I want to be, and you’re not who I wish you were

“what’s worse, I really wanted you to stay… but I needed you to leave cause we was fightin’ everyday.”