le prospettive

Monet, pure art

lots of things are going on in my life right now. lots of thoughts, reflections, things to do, things to set up, things to forget. and when this happens, I just need to wrap up everything that goes up to my mind and write it. at this time of the year, last year, I was making a sort of a big decision which actually came up as the best decision I've made in a while. last year I was concerned about the future, I was broken and extremely unhappy. life just pushed me to the extreme condition of being constantly worried about anything and truly believing everything was just pointless. it wasn't easy, going on with that mindset while pretending that nothing was happening. but recently something made me realise that everything passes. good moments, bad moments, everything just goes on. I've met new people that unconsciously helped me to reach a point where I'm still not happy, but constantly working on that. I'm about to start a completely new period of my life, a chapter, if you want to call it like that. who's going to come with me? probably no one. or, people I love will follow me from distance. someone chase just to not be there and disappear, but I actually except that. It's how things have to be. so yeah, it might be scary but I'm ready to be a better version of myself and just live well because I just deserve that.