Bennett

super old dslr photo I took in a random antique store.

Im learning more how to uncross the webs of my fascia through movement and massage it is a fun project for me and I feel like everything is coming together at accelerated speed and this feels like big piece of the puzzle because of how interconnected every bodily system is I can connect this to a greater systemic synchronistic conscious and really see my body and soul as part of God. The past few months I found this spot in hollow point of the collar bone if I press on all tension and pain dissolves and im lifted my eyes come back I told stellate ganglion block clinical trial doctor and he said that it makes a lot of sense because that is where the vagal nerve is. i feel like I think being Virgo ascendant hyper conscious of my body makes it easier to find solutions and have been doing stuff like this intuitively for years so its really interesting to read about it and have this aha Vindication moment. I want to trust my intuitive processing more readily because I feel like it's my only function in this life that is intelligent and true but my emotional social processing is so out of wack and I think its muxh easier for me than others to fall in to distractions and illusions and fear. I also just kind of realized on emotional level how severe the physical pain and suffering I have been dealing with for about a year now completely shrouded everything and now that I feel im recovering when it comes back for a little its just unreal and shocking In the back of my mind I thought the pain was signifier of death looming inevitably but now Well i atleast have a few months or years of peace. but through untangling the physical webs i think i can touch internal memories and feeling networks and then my ultimate goal is to become more detached from my body and desire. but It makes sense fascia tangles and sticks together like glue gets stuck trying to protect several powerful changinf networks this is how the earth feels too. ive been in freeze mode for so long but I know the truths of life are always more simple than you think so a child can understand more than adults. suffering, love, connection, creation

Ladybug on my shrine

Order and Reason my doodle that got me reprimanded at work + my tights I drew on with crayons two years ago ft. beloved John galliano skirt gift from Sarah, and pink magnolia trees I saw walking home. theres a big pink magnolia tree in my next door neighbors backyard in the house I grew up and the branches spread out intertwined to the fence and over it, so all the petals would fall in to our yard. they'd make me feel special because they usually always bloom on my birthday only for two weeks before all the petals fall so in my mind theyre my birthday tree

My dream In sunshine autumn leaf park. after drinking my own love potion i have two dreams back to back of professing love and letting my self free. I tell my mom everything I always wanted to confession of love and sorrow. Im 7 and Im 11 and 21 and 30 and we embrace and cry and everything collapses and spinning around us In to glowing white ringing buzzing particle. But in the next dream i am watching a boy grow up, first he is a baby, I take care of him and adore him. we go on a walk and he's older now suddenly and i speak to him as if he is me and tell him everything we will go through. We hug and laugh in Central Park, the wind is strong and the leaves fall all around us and I feel pure hope and love. These have been some of the most impactful dreams of my life