bass princess

I used to find an extreme amount of comfort in mental hospitals as a teen. I always wondered why that was, and I felt so much guilt when others said it caused them an extreme amount of distress, that it felt like hell. I now know it was the only time I could feel peace. I could escape from my abusive father, I could escape everyone at school who laughed and snickered at me. It was the one place I didn't feel like a freak. It was the one place where I could escape all of the torment and abuse. It was the one place I actually felt safe. Home didn't feel safe, and going to school, being completely isolated and bullied by everyone, didn't feel safe. Not because I did anything wrong, but I have a special sort of power with people. When they see me, it’s like looking into a mirror of their soul. The ugliness, the evil, the wickedness, for once, becomes as clear as day. And for once, they see who they really are.