It had to happen for growth purposes

at war with myseIf because I know I can do better.

i understand why cats just sit and stare at nothing

if there is anything that life has taught me it's that a big heart needs big boundaries

“Do it scared” “do it alone” are all great tips, but my biggest takeaway from therapy is do it messy. This is especially true if you’re getting out of a burnout, which I experience often. Literally just do it messy. You don’t need to pick the perfect trail to walk, the perfect playlist to listen to, whatever the fuck it is. You don’t need to have a meticulous to do list and wake up at the exact time you planned and drink the exact amount of water you planned to drink. Like the biggest thing for people like me to remember is sometimes it’s okay to do it messy. Put on a random yt workout and just get it done in sweats. Do 5 minutes of a daunting task and go from there. Sometimes just getting up is a win during intense burnouts or depressive funks. Literally just do it messy.

you ever just feel the mental illness brewing in your brain like some kind of fucked up stew

The urge to delete everything and disappear is strong today