estelle ❤︎

trust me, i get it. for a lot of people (2020 shifttok survivors), it’s been years. and after waiting for that long, you get sick of hearing people say it’s “as easy as breathing,” “you’ll shift when it’s right,” or “i shifted once i stopped caring.”

and it’s so easy for giving up to look more appealing than continuing your journey. it’s all too effortless to say “fuck this, it’s been too damn long, maybe this just isn’t for me.” i used to often find myself struggling to find a reason to keep going, keep attempting, in the face of what felt like endless failure.

i'll start by saying that shifting fatigue is so real and so normal. you're not wrong for feeling this way. you're not lazy or undeserving of shifting. when you want something so badly for so long, and you feel like you're so close only to be denied again, it is genuinely exhausting. why wouldn't you become bitter? why wouldn't you get tired of forcing yourself to stay hopeful? you're not wrong for that.

over time, shifting can stop feeling fun and just feel like a chore. you don't think about how excited you are for your dr throughout the day anymore, you just anticipate another failure.

it's no wonder that becomes exhausting. you're not supposed to bully yourself into shifting or brute force your way there. stop pretending to be motivated if you're not. that's why i stopped posting on this blog for a long time, i just didn't have it in me. i was tired and i admit that. but that doesn't mean i ever gave up, and neither should you. resting is not the same as quitting.

reconnect with the part of shifting that actually brought you joy in the first place. stop worrying about methods, symptoms, the 3d, if you're doing not enough or too much or everything or next to nothing. think about your actual desire.

where are you most excited to go? what's the first thing you want to do? who's the first person you're going to hug? what are you gonna eat? what's your day-to-day life like? where do you go to school? who's your best friend you can't wait to gossip to? who's your worst enemy you can't wait to beef with? remind yourself why you want this.

and if you can't bring yourself to do any of this because you're that burnt out, let me remind you that that still doesn't mean you won't shift. your emotional state is not a blockage. you do not need to be your most faithful sunshine and rainbows self in order to shift. you don't need to raise your vibrations or do shadow work or become a monk with perfectly balanced inner peace. i'm not denying that those things can help, but you can still be tired and over it and decide "i'm in my dr", and end up there.

sometimes the healthiest thing you can do for your shifting journey is to take a step back from it. stop digging up the roots to check if they've grown, let the seed stay in the soil. and above all, don't be ashamed to admit that sometimes you're just over it and that's okay.

channeling is a divination technique where we communicate with the energies of someone. they can be your spirit guides, your higher self, somebody who has passed away, entities, angels, as well as people from your desired realities. when you channel them, you are telepathically and intuitively connecting to their essence, therefore receiving their messages. you can channel people from your desired reality if you wish to connect more, or are looking for motivation! note that these are the methods i have discovered in my years of being in the shifting community, so the list is not exhaustive. there are many other methods out there which i may not have listed, so if you know any, feel free to comment them down and i'll add them here! 

before i begin, i want to emphasize the importance of protecting yourself before you take part in any divination practice. it is likely to encounter unwanted energies or trickster entities, which i have experienced, so make it a rule to always take a few steps to protect your vessel and your space before you channel. this is not a negotiable step. ways to protect yourself before channeling: - listen to protection subliminals or frequencies - pray to any god, deity, angel, or your spirit guides to protect you - keep protective crystals like black tourmaline, obsidian, amethyst or labradorite to shield yourself from unwanted encounters. - set a firm, mental boundary for who you wish to channel - meditate for a few minutes. envision and feel a bright, white protective, bubble-like shield around you that shields you from any harm.

1. the book method take any book of your liking, it could even be a newspaper or an article you wrote for your school's newsletter in the 7th grade. the first step is to ask your question to whoever it is you wish to channel. once that's done, start to intuitively flip through the pages and keep doing so until it feels right to stop. you'll feel an energy or a voice in your head telling you to stop. next, close your eyes and take your index finger. start dragging your finger across every line in the page, and stop when your intuitive urge tells you to. the word, sentence, or phrase that your finger lands on will be the response from whoever you intended to channel. this is an easy technique if you feel underconfident to channel telepathically or if you don't want to use too much of your spiritual energy. 2. the random word generator method once you've decided who you want to channel, ask them a question and go to this website. click on the generate button, and you will receive their answer. you can also keep clicking until it feels right to stop, in order to get their response. the answers might be bewildering, so feel free to try this technique until you get answers that you can make sense of. 3. the telepathy method this technique helps you get more detailed and authentic responses. you can have a channeling subliminal playing in the background, if you prefer. you could also play music which reminds you of the person or being you wish to channel, which makes it easier to connect to their energy. begin by meditating for a few minutes on the energy of whoever you want to channel. focus on feeling their presence and their energy. then, keep a clear and strong intention in your mind to contact them. if you wish, you can repeat "i am channeling person's name" in your head a few times. once you feel more confident, you can approach them with a simple "hi" or a "hello", or anything else you want to say to greet them and begin the session. once it feels right, you can ask them a question or say whatever you want to say to them. you'll then notice an answer popping up in your mind. you'll know it's them talking as the energy and nature of their response will feel very distinct and different from your own thoughts and energy - you will intuitively know that it is them. if you are clairsentient you might sense their presence more strongly. keep talking to them and ask them all the questions you wish to ask. i'd recommend keeping a notebook and pen, or your notes app handy to note down their responses. make sure to be mindful and respect their boundaries. once you are done talking, thank them for their time and cooperation.

4. the letter method this can be useful if you are not confident in telepathic channeling. write a letter to the person you wish to channel, it can be on paper or digital, it doesn't really matter. be authentic and genuine and write down whatever you wish to tell them, you can also ask questions. an optional step: once you're done, ask them, in the letter to send you a sign if they have received your message. this could be anything like a rose, or a black cat, whatever you prefer. keep an eye open and be receptive to everything around you since they will be sending you the sign to confirm they received your message.

5. the media method this method is really simple and effective, especially for people who are underconfident or still developing their psychic abilities. the media i am referring to here is music, images, tv shows, videos, or anything else. ask your question to the person you wish to channel, and then ask them to send you a sign as their answer. you can use pinterest, youtube, your spotify playlist, or anything else that feels right. you will receive their sign, it will be something that really feels as if its from them, or something that really stands out to you. alternatively, you could ask them something and ask for a specific sign to confirm it. for example "show me a blue butterfly if you had a good day". 6. the shufflemancy method another fun and effective method which involves the use of music. prepare a method of songs you like. if possible, make sure that there's a variety and that each song conveys a different energy, theme/message, and emotion. once you've asked your question or said your message to the person you want to channel, begin pressing the shuffle button of your playlist until it feels intuitively right to stop. you'll receive the song that they chose for their answer. try again if it didn't resonate! 7. the pendulum method if you're more experienced with divination and own a pendulum, then consider trying this method! begin by clearing your mind, take a couple of deep breaths, meditate for a few moments. once you feel more like focused, set your intention to channel whoever it is that you want to channel. once that's done, ask them a question. set a rule - for example, clockwise rotations are a yes, and anti-clockwise rotations are a no. you can change it to your liking or based on what message you want to receive. after asking your question, you'll find your pendulum spinning accordingly. 8. the tarot/oracle method i've noticed a lot of shifters own tarot decks, so you can give this method a try as well! use whichever deck you feel most intuitively drawn to - it can be tarot or oracle. you can even use playing cards or an uno deck. it doesn't matter which you use since there's no rules :) once again, focus on the energy of who you wish to channel. hold the deck and meditate while focusing on their energy, keeping an intention to communicate with them. once you feel ready, ask them your question then begin shuffling your cards until it feels right to stop. pull as many cards as you like, your intuition will know. then interpret the messages conveyed by the cards. 9. the dream method this is ideal for the whimsical shifters who like dreamwork. when you start feeling drowsy right as you're about to go to sleep, feel the energy of who you want to channel. simply thinking about them is enough. then you can ask them a question or ask them to send you any message. fall asleep with the intention to channel them and receive their messages, and you should get their responses in your dream! make sure to jot all of it down once you wake up so you don't forget anything.