Iām heartbroken. ANOTHER one of my friends has lost the battle to addiction. </3 She passed away the other day on February 17th, 2021. She had only just turned 30 a few months back. My heart breaks for her family & friends, & especially her little son.
Though we werenāt that close I met her back in 2012 at Fanshawe College, we were both taking the Personal Support Worker Program. It was then that I learned she was on the methadone program & what it actually was & how it worked. (she was very open about it with the class because she had been doing really well on it, had all her carries & was working to taper off it.) You could tell she was proud of herself, & knew methadone had helped her tremendously & wanted to vouch for it, show that it can work! She didnāt know it at the time, no one really did aside from a few family members & friends but they didnāt know the severity of it, they thought Iād gotten & stayed clean but in reality Iād just gotten better at hiding it. I was actually struggling quite hard & wanted to stop but I didnāt know how. I thought of trying methadone but my family was so against it. So I kept trying on my own to get clean but I would always relapse within a week or two. Eventually I decided I couldnāt do it anymore, I wanted to quit but I knew I obviously wasnāt going to be able to without some help. So I bravely went up to the local methadone clinic all by myself at age 19 & got myself signed up for the program, & after a month into it I managed to stay clean (aside from weed) for 5 years! & during those 5 years I had the most beautiful baby boy I could ever ask for, & heās now 5! & I donāt believe any of those amazing 5 years would have happened had I not gotten on to methadone, & had it not been for Courtney. I will miss seeing your beautiful face & big blue eyes around town & your silliness & laughter you brought. I wish we could have spent more time together, maybe one day.. but for now, fly with the angels girl & may you finally Rest Peacefully Beautiful ā
