he claws his way out, into the sun

crazy that sam’s otherness was so integral to the plot in the early seasons. sammy’s a freak. sammy’s a little off. There’s Something A Bit Different about sammy. nondescript guy w blueberry shot. but then in the later seasons, dean is so fundamentally Othered and they just straight up. don’t go into it. dean doesn’t have a female soulmate in heaven bc reasons. dean wants to experience people & feelings Differently than he has before but we won’t go into it. dean’s own subconscious asks him ‘how come you only want what you can’t have?’: dean as a character is aware of his own otherness, but the narrative itself bends to ignore it. dean has to die on the rusty nail bc sam is the normal one now and dean wouldn’t fit the mold of 1 wife and 2.5 kids: that’s intrinsically not who he is anymore. dean winchester constantly toes the line of this spoken/unspoken Difference and the story ties itself into knots with this dichotomy of introducing and acknowledging it, but simultaneously avoiding its resolution. (the resolution being of course, that dean is queer and loves cas back). just. so interesting that we have this direct comparison of sam (otherness by design) vs dean (otherness by mistake). spn truly did the Most to avoid following the natural path of the narrative huh

next year will be half a decade since the confession btw