LOVE ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ FREAK!

i want to call off so bad -_-

I could use a warm hug!

Goodnight. Pookies

I love all of you and i want you all to feel love in your lives

Its just that life really is a gift. Maybe my brain is just finishing developing because Im 25 but ive just been having such changes in my thinking lately, and thinking that I want to be here for all of the good and the bad. I spent a lot of years gambling with my life every day and not caring what happened to me, and not caring to see the future or be around for it. But recently I just dont think I feel that way anymore. I really want to stick around. I used to feel like we were all so small in the world as individuals and that that made our lives pointless, and that it didn’t really matter if we lived or died because of it. But now I dont think that what i am in the grand scheme of things matters at all. I think that I can be fulfilled just by being me and experiencing life just as me, independent of anything else. It doesnt even matter if I achieve anything great, it just matters that I learn and grow and evolve and keep trying and thats all that you need

Sorry im just feeling a lot of emotions tonight

I want to be here and do good things and learn and struggle and grow and change. I want to stumble and get back up again. I want to be around so that the people who love me can keep having me here to love. I want to see where I’m at in 5 years, in 10 years, in 25 years.

I can’t let myself forget. I have to remember where I have been in this life and how far I have come. I have to remember what it is like and what the reality is so that I can remember that I don’t ever want to live like that again. I don’t want to throw my life away. I want to be someone for a long time

Ive got to stay on the right path no matter what