he’s so pretty i wanna cry

a gentile reminder that you didn’t deserve your abuse even if you were conditioned to “behave” to the point that you did what was being asked of you without being forced.

the crushing guilt of being unproductive vs the exhaustion of being burned out. fight.

“i’m in kind of a weird mental place right now” i say, as if there are times when i am not in a weird mental place

to whoever who needs to hear this- you're not sensitive and you aren't overreacting. If something hurts you, it hurts you and it's okay to hurt

You've taken away everything I could have been

shoutout to the survivors who are not forgiving, who do not believe that what happened to them was ‘for a reason’, who know they did not deserve it, who are angry at what happened to them, and who do not show the typical ‘good victim’ trope. You all get so much shit from people about how you should act from your trauma because only ‘good victims’ are deserving of empathy and support. You deserve so much more than that.

a gentile reminder that you didn’t deserve your abuse even if you were conditioned to “behave” to the point that you did what was being asked of you without being forced.

one of the key points of trauma recovery is learning to let go the idea of getting back to “who i was before”. your trauma has shaped you and that’s okay. recovery is learning how to live with what happened rather than getting rid of it, even if that feels impossible at the moment