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starter for: @rcwan when + where: late evening at the thane house, may 26th
To call the last month stressful would be a comical understatement — The Aztec’s had been dealt with, but the tension within the club remained. The latter is proving to not be quite as easily settled, between his brother’s potential retirement (A rumor Andy hadn’t gotten a straight answer for, but Rick’s actions, or lack thereof, began to feel like more of an answer each day.) and the waning trust between club members. Scott's death has certainly caused a shift for everyone seated at the table, and beyond. Knowing Rowan and the kids had been put in danger the night of his mother's birthday party made it easier to put a bullet in the Aztec's responsible -- But it didn't change the damage it had done behind closed doors, as well.
Maddie was practically a ghost, mostly when it came to Andy. Where she'd been distant before, now it had become even worse -- A fact that made his heart ache, but he tried to hold on to the hope that things would get better. Benny varied from day to day, mostly clinging to Rowan, though he seemed to trust Andy a bit more. He wasn't old enough to pick up on the context clues like Maddie, but still felt the same fear, experienced the same trauma. Guilt plagues Andy over it, knowing none of them could have anticipated the Aztecs showing up -- But it still has him staring at his ceiling fan each night, attempting to push down the steady rotation of anxieties. Andy can only assume tonight won't be much different in that regard, but at the very least? He was able to get Benny to fall asleep. It was a gamble on whether or not his son slept through the night or ended up crawling into bed with his parents.
Andy closes the door to his son's room quietly, not wanting to chance anything as he tip-toed down the hall to his and Rowan's room. "He's down for the count," A sigh passes his lips as he enters the room, still keeping his voice on the quieter side. "I had to read half'a one of those Hardy Boys books, voice n' all -- Seemed it did the trick." He further explains, crossing the room so that he could climb into bed. A hand rubs over his face, his own lack of sleep seems to catch up with him faster each day. The stress of the club, trying to keep his family afloat -- The rose tinted glasses he had worn for the last five months were long gone now, reminding him just how quickly things can turn. "Not sure how long he'll stay asleep, but it's somethin'."
SEBASTIAN STAN HAND CINEMATIC UNIVERSE
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Wyatt had been on the scene when the prospect was declared dead and the rest of the Club disseminated. The death would not fall back on the Club, it would inevitably end up on the Aztec's front door. However, Wyatt knew better than to think that there wouldn't be Hell to pay for the slain prospect-- it was just a matter of time. He could still hear the mother wailing beside the coffin of her son, Wyatt doing his best to avoid any and all eye contact before shuffling away from the crowd. He didn't belong there, he belonged at the Sheriff's office solving the case. But then again, did he really belong there either?
He'd helped Andy out while in prison, ensuring visitors were free to meet and passing along messages when they couldn't. However, there's still an awkwardness of Andy not showing up in an orange jumpsuit and hands cuffed, meanwhile, Wyatt is out of his uniform, finding himself in jeans and a black t-shirt instead. It's a new era for them, starting off with a bang. "You look better out of the orange, man. And now you're a fashion icon in your cut. It's a new you," he snickers. "I hear you have something for me?" he asks. Wyatt's not one to push but if Andy's willing to give information so he can bring home a win to the Sheriff's department and the Club by putting away an Aztec idiot, that's damn sure what he's going to do.
The jury was still out for Andy when it came to this Wyatt kid. The man had created a relationship with the club while he was away, and even helped pull a few strings for Andy while he was locked up — But he hadn’t established much of a relationship with the man himself, and his generally skeptical nature kept him from allowing trust to settle between them just yet. Though, he held a certain gratitude for the man’s efforts while he was in the state pen — Playing middle man isn’t a simple thing when it comes to the club. All of their interactions had been done through a professional lense, a clear power imbalance between them for the last few years given what side of the bench Andy was sat on.
But now, they stood as two “civilians”, no longer having to communicate in coded language and eye contact. Eyes narrow as Wyatt speaks, already annoyed by their conversation as soon as it began. “Yeah, black is more my color.” The sarcasm is evident in his tone, eyes rolling as he takes another inhale of his cigarette. Given that they’re standing at the clubhouse, he doesn’t bother skirting around his answer. “I need you to kill anythin’ comin’ up about Scott.” Andy answers, giving Wyatt a serious look. “It’s club business, we’ll handle it.” Eye for an eye, of course. But the kid didn’t need to know the details. “We’ll keep it quiet, as long as you keep SJP off our asses.”
where: rowan & andy's home
who: @dcathbecame
Rhett sat in the familiar kitchen watching his uncle move back and forth. "Do you need any help?" He asked while he twiddled a pen in his hand. There was a lot of lingering anxiety after what happened at Rhea's party. Talking about it seemed weird without any real question to ask or anything to add to the conversation. The speculations were just causing more harm than good. Instead he was more focused on listening closer to the conversations going on around him and gathering information. Rhett was convinced someone among their ranks tipped these assholes off. Maybe even paid them to take out one of his uncles, well, step-father or uncle. "I think Maddie is going to ace her SATs." He said to talk about something a little more light hearted, maybe get out of his own head for a second. "Ivy league bound, for certain."
Andy tried not to take his work home with him — Whether it be the club or the autoshop. Today was the latter, having enlisted Rhett to help him finish up a few things. He was good with the cars, but paperwork always took far longer than Andy cared to admit. The extra set of hands was appreciated, and now — They were taking a well deserved break. “M’fine, kid.” He waved away his nephew’s question, before pulling left overs from the fridge. The mention of his daughter puts a smile on his face, even if the girl in question was barely speaking to him. Andy knew she wasn’t ready to let him in yet, so he was happy to receive an update from Rhett. “She is her mother’s daughter, you know.” He points out, happy their conversation was lighthearted, even if it may not last. “The girl is fuckin’ brilliant.” Even if their relationship was strained, it didn’t change how proud he was of her. “She uh — saying anything to you? ‘Bout the party?” Andy can’t help but ask as he prepares lunch. “She storms off everytime I try.”

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"I was trying not to resort to physical violence," she hisses — though that's never been an issue for Reina before, so how can she really blame him for assuming the worst of her now? But even if her brother's intentions were good and he actually has just made her life easier, she'll never pass by an opportunity to make life harder on him. In theory this is how they've always been — Andrew gets on her nerves and she dishes some kind of twisted punishment back to him with biting words — but it feels different now, and it's felt different in the months he's been home from prison. Now she bears a bitterness toward him, for leaving his children and his wife alone to clean up his mess. It isn't Andy's fault and Reina knows that, of course — but she'd been the one to help Rowan with their toddler son and to guide Maddie through her teenage years with Iris while he was gone, she'd seen first hand how hard it'd been on her sister. And while she doesn't want to blame Andrew for it all, Reina almost can't help herself.
So she can't help the bitterness that comes through her tone when she talks to him these days — can't hold back the frosty exterior she presents when she's around him. Reina's never exactly been a warm person to begin with, but Andy's certainly been feeling her bite more than anyone else lately. "If you'd like to explain to your mother why a brawl broke out at her birthday party, be my fucking guest," she continues, and she's got half a mind to add that he doesn't really have room for error here in terms of getting involved in a fight, but for once Reina keeps her comment to herself. "Otherwise, I've got anything having to do with a situation like that handled."
Time and time again, Reina proves herself to be one of the few constants in Andy’s life. It didn’t matter if he’d been gone six years, six days, or six minutes — She’d be there with a disapproving look and snide remark, even if it was in the face of receiving help. While he welcomes it, knowing she'd never tip-toe around him -- Andy doesn't miss the way her icy stare lasts longer, her remarks cut deeper. He has a feeling that they'll get to a point where she'll out right say it, but Andy already knows what's happening. He's known Reina for decades now, it's hard to miss it -- Part of him bitterly wonders if Maddie first heard the words your father abandoned you from her aunt. He can only hope Reina would have the decency to leave his daughter out of it. Regardless, he's not going to ask. Having the guilt he feels about his prison sentence personified by his sister is bad enough.
"Didn't seem like just beratin' and emasculatin' him was going to do the job." Andy points out with a shrug, both knowing it's the truth. Reina is someone held in high regard being that she's the President's Old Lady, and the Vice President patch on Andy's cut pulls a certain respect, but after one too many drinks -- Anyone feels bold enough to go toe to toe with them. The drunk man sitting on the curb outside of the parking lot was an example of that. "Gettin' rid of that idiot is helping keep the peace." Eyes roll as he speaks, wishing he had a beer in his hands. Even a cigarette would do. The party had gone off without a hitch -- Thanks to Reina and Rowan, with Andy and the rest of the boys finishing whatever tasks the two women dealt. "So you can go ahead and take the stick outta your ass, and just enjoy the party."
NATHAN SCOTT & HALEY JAMES SCOTT — 1.04, “Crash Into You”
After the dust has cleared and the dirt opened to swallow up its latest victim, Seth knows the tension is going to continue like this until someone's back breaks with its weight. The funeral hadn't been the time or the place but considering the ripple inside of the Primordial Clubhouse, Seth feels it's better to address it now than when it festers. He's the one that threw the first punch on the Primordial's side. Now, whether the Aztecs had been the first to throw the actual first punch, Seth wasn't looking to figure that out. Everything had gone from bad to worse so fast, half the time he wasn't sure who he was even lunging at.
The prospect's death was a light fee for what could've happened. They looked weak allowing another Club in their town, in their clubhouse and the Aztecs hadn't even lost one of their own. It was downright pathetic. Cronus must be rolling over in his fucking grave somewhere around this graveyard knowing the Aztecs hadn't paid the price. "Get your fuckin' panties out of your ass," he tells Andy, pulling out his own cigarette from the pack and lighting up beside him. Seth and Andy had known each other for over half of their lives, their tiffs were always a given but like it or not, their eventual pattern of moving on would follow too. "'S fucked up that it's been this long and nothing's being done and you fuckin' know it."
Andy already knows what’s going through Seth’s mind — Retaliation, payback, everything in between. He agreed with the sentiment, but the man in front of him more often thought with his fists instead of his head. Andy wanted just the same, and knew they would get it — But they had to go about this in a way that wouldn’t blow back on them. The idea of some kind of retaliation coming back to bite them in the ass twisted knots in his stomach, not wanting another turf war at their front door. If the choice was left in Seth’s hands, Andy’s not sure that wouldn’t happen. First, they needed to bury the Prospect. Planning retaliation would come after that.
“Fuck off,” His annoyance is clear, eyes rolling as he takes another inhale of his cigarette. It wasn’t uncommon for Andy and Seth to buttheads on club matters, though they always eventually found some kind of middle ground. He appreciated the man’s devotion to the club, but his short fuse was something Andy had a feeling would catch up to them eventually. Pushing smoke from his lips, he spares a glance back at Scott’s mother, still inconsolable after they buried her son. “Of course I fuckin’ know it,” he points out, shaking his head. “This ain’t the time or fuckin’ place, man. Prospect’s body’s not even cold.” Andy points out, shaking head. “We decide this shit as a club, not just you showin’ up with an AR 15.”
Leave it to his uncle to be the party pooper. He wasn't sure why he just couldn't be happy. "It was a joke, Andy. Relax." He emphasized the last word, hoping that Andy understood his playful nature at the moment. "I did not drink enough for me even so that can't be true. You know you're a man of few words? Why you gotta be so angsty all the time?" Here he was, trying to make conversation and Andy was being a little bit of an ass. "I'm happy you're here. Grandma's happy you're here."
He waves AJ’s words away, eyes rolling. Clearly nothing about his nephew had changed in the last few years — He was still a mini-Jason, even more so now that he had a cut and a gun. “Guess I don’t got much to say.” He shrugs, taking a deep inhale of his cigarette. Andy couldn’t help the annoyed look he shot AJ as the man spoke. “I’m not bein’ angsty. It’s called not talkin’ outta my ass, kid. You outta try it some time." He points out, giving his nephew an unimpressed look. “S’good to be here. It’s been too long.”
"What do you call it then? Thick and oily?" He teased, though the other man really did have nice hair. No male patterned baldness was happening for Andy. "Maybe if you didn't have such a big head, I wouldn't have referred to you as that. It's not my fault that you do." At least the only thing wrong with Andy was that his head was too big. "That was one time." It was actually more than one time. "We're lucky my mom potty trained me, man."
Andy was young when he became a dad, much younger than Wes. "You did get a head start. But still, you're a good one, man." He didn't abandon his kids. Andy was a good dad. "Hey, he'll get there. Benny loves you, dude." He wasn't good at reassuring, though he did try. "Benny's just gotta get used to it is all. It's hard for change when it comes to kids." He knew he knew that, but it might've been nice to hear it from someone else. It had been a few months, sure, but it was still a life change for Benny. "Benny's got some of your best traits, you know that?"
“Nah man, that’s just you —“ Andy laughs, reaching over to ruffle Wes’s hair. “It’s coverin’ up your lumpy fuckin’ head. Sparin’ all the kids here a few nightmares.” Moments like this remind him of being a kid, him and Wes terrorizing one another purely for shits and giggles. He’d enjoyed whenever the other man came to visit Andy while he was in prison, given the way he could always bring a certain comedic relief with him — Even if it was unintentional sometimes. “Careful talkin’ about my big head while Ma is around, she’ll have your ass for talkin’ shit on her baby boy,” Andy warns with a chuckle, though they both know there’s no heat behind it.
He’s comforted by Wes’s insistence, though it doesn’t ease his anxiety as he watches their sons play together. Andy can see Benny is trying to get used to having his dad back around, after having only known him from behind a glass. For a majority of Benny’s life, he’d been the man they went to visit once a week. “Here’s hopin’.” Andy answers simply, hoping Wes is right. At the mention of change being difficult for kids, he can’t help the scoff that passes his lips. “Jury’s still out on Maddie.” It pained him to see the way his daughter had slipped through his fingers, having quite literally sat back and watched their relationship fall apart over the years. A small smile finds him as Wes continues, eyes rolling as he speaks. “You start sayin’ my kid got my big head and I’m gonna kick your ass.” Andy teases, trying not to be overwhelmed by the sentiment.

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Rhea's health issues aren't funny, but Rowan is grateful that her memory loss has taken a lighter turn today than before. There had been a time when she'd hurled a vase of flowers at her and Reina's heads when they'd stopped by her room at the nursing home to visit her, simply because she had no idea who they were and it sent her into fight or flight mode. There confusion so often leads to frustration, turning her mother in law into a different version of herself that Rowan hadn't even known existed until she got sick. At least today she's happy. She's smiling ear to ear and making conversation with everyone, clearly enjoying herself. Rowan will take that over just about anything else, even if she is confused about who AJ is.
"I'm sure she's gonna forget about it after a little while. There are so many people she knows from back in the day, AJ's gonna be the last thing on her mind." She nods to her mother in law now, sipping on a beer and sitting in a lawn chair exchanging stories with a founding club member Rowan's only met a handful of times. "I think it's gonna be your mom pickin' the fight, babe." She corrects him with a raise of her brow. No one in their right mind would try to take on a seventy-seven year old woman, especially Rhea Thane and especially at her own birthday party with her family around. She softens at Andy's next words, leaning a little further into his side. "Feels weird?" She asks, unsure if that was the word he was looking for, but it seemed fitting to her. "Or maybe surreal." They had been waiting so long for this, it was strange for it to finally be happening — but not in a bad way, of course. "Everyone's glad to have you here," she reassures him, giving a gentle squeeze. "Me especially, obviously."
It's hard not to follow his Ma around the clubhouse, trying to make sure someone doesn't say the wrong thing or that she doesn't hurt herself. There's a comfort knowing the rest of his family feels the same concern tonight, but he can't stop himself from constantly watching Rhea, waiting for something to happen. He'd missed so much already -- Now that he's not behind bars, he's not going to miss anything else. His gaze moves to Rhea as his wife speaks, taking a deep breath and once again letting Rowan keep him from getting too in his own head. The sight puts a smile on his face, seeing his mother excitedly talking to a founding club member -- Everyone in the MC and beyond loved Rhea, but founding club members understood her importance on a deeper level, since they'd been there from day one.
"You're right," he answers simply, two words he's said to Rowan more times than he can count. It's not just for flattery -- More often than not, she hits the nail on the head. "M'pretty sure Paul's gonna have her goin' on about the Glory Days for the rest of the night," Andy can't help the small laugh that comes with it, most stories involving mentions of him as a toddler. The conversation shifts as Rowan leans in closer, he instinctively pulls her just that bit closer. He wrinkles his nose, before answering. "A bit of both?" He was enjoying every second of being home, even the harder parts -- Purely because now he was around to even experience them at all. But there's still a strangeness to it, the ways that life carried on without him there, and how he's still trying to catch up to it.
"Feels like it's been a whole lifetime since we've been at a club party together," he points out, "Come to think of it -- M'pretty sure this is the first time we've both been sober at one, too." A small chuckle passes his lips at the thought, as odd as it sounds. Andy tries to ignore the voice in the back of his head, reminding him that he was always the drunker of the two. "We're gettin' old." He laughs lightly at his own words, leaning over to kiss the side of her head again. "Not bein' with you was one of the worst parts, ya know." They'd been together for nearly thirty years, spending six of them separated by a glass wall was excruciating. He turns so that he's better facing her, pushing a hand through her hair before it gently rests on the back of her head. He kisses her slowly, savoring the moment purely because he can now. Returning home made him far more openly sentimental -- Especially when it came to Rowan. "I owe you everythin' for keepin' our family afloat." His voice is lower, so that only she can hear him. "I don't know what I did to deserve someone like you, baby. None'a this would'a been possible without you." Andy points out, 'this' spanning far beyond his Ma's birthday party. "I love you."
starter for: @roberto-rivera when + where: primordial clubhouse, may 8th
And just like that, the other shoe had dropped. It had taken five months, but reality made it's triumphant return. How his Ma's birthday ended only serves as a reminder to Andy that there would never be any simplicity in his life. Something as simple as a potluck quickly turned into disaster, with a Prospect six feet under and his Parole Officer on his ass. He was thankfully able to get out of any real trouble with the latter, given that the Sheriff's department was on club payroll. Any and all 'witnesses' outside of the club could attest that he hadn't been part of the fight, that he'd left earlier that evening. It didn't change the fact that he'd received a long lecture about keeping his record clean, that one wrong move and he'd be back in the state pen. The latter was a cruel reality he constantly worried about -- But thankfully, his PO was all talk, without having anything on paper.
It went without saying that he was wound tight. The tension in his shoulders was noticeable, any ease he'd felt the week prior was long gone. Andy wished it was alleviated at the sight of Robbie, but he had a feeling there probably wouldn't be much of an update for him. The gun drought wouldn't be solved overnight, but Andy hoped there'd be something. It wasn't Robbie's fault their inventory was low, but it was a problem the man was in charge of fixing. "Rivera," He greets the man, taking a deep inhale of his cigarette as he crossed the clubhouse. "Tell me ya got some good news, man." Andy arches a brow, patting Robbie's shoulder as he takes a seat next to him.
starter for: @ryderthcne when + where: april 30th, in the aftermath of the brawl at the clubhouse
Andy knew it was too good to be true. Ever the pessimist, he'd tried to ignore the voice in the back of his head reminding him that soon enough, everything around him would fall apart again. He'd tried to drown out the voice -- One that sounds suspiciously like his father, of course -- for the last five months, letting himself enjoy the comforts of returning home to his life, to his family, to the club. For five months, he'd been able to do just that. His anxieties and concerns were things he could talk himself out of, reminding himself that time would be the best way to heal any invisible injuries left from his prison sentence.
He knew better than to give into that hope, but he did -- And once the Aztecs pulled into the parking lot of the clubhouse, the illusion he'd tricked himself into seeing as reality cracked. Andy knew about the gun drought, that they were bound to deal with pissed off client waiting on AR-15s. But Aztec's showing up at the clubhouse, showing up in Primordial territory, without any forewarning was meant to send a clear message. It unearthed a certain tension within him, one Andy hadn't felt in a decade, only worsened once a tense conversation turns into a fight.
Everything seems to happen in a flash, it's second nature for him to fight his way through a problem -- Typically it's planned, meant to be executed once every finite detail is known. That isn't the case here, but it doesn't stop him from headbutting the first Aztec that approaches him. Having this go down when almost every member of his family is in the building is hardly how he wanted to end the night -- It's the reason he'd pulled his gun from his waistband and shot it straight into the air, managing to put a halt to this brawl escalating any further.
Of course, that proved to be a pipe dream once he saw the sight of the bloody Prospect, falling to the ground before Andy registered what had happened. The fight had happened at breakneck speed, but everything after felt like slow motion. It's disorienting, but his attention doesn't go to the Prospect on the ground -- His attention quickly moves to his son, the first person he can get to in the aftermath of it all. "Ryder," his voice comes out in more of a panic than he'd like for it to -- If Scott had been stabbed, who's to say someone else wouldn't end up with the same fate? "Ryder --" He's shouting, feet moving him across the clubhouse parking lot.
It doesn't matter how old Ryder is, there will always be a certain part of Andy who sees him as the wide eyed little boy he held on his hip. "Hey, hey --" He grabs at Ryder's shoulders, getting a good look at him as he tries to examine any potential injuries. He squeezes his shoulders, then biceps, looking for tears in his clothing and signs of a stab wound. "Are you hurt? Are you okay?" He doesn't bother waiting for an answer, before he's grabbing Ryder's face, turning his head left and right gently to make sure his own anxieties hadn't become reality. Ryder can take care of himself, Andy knows that -- He raised the younger man that way, and he'd seen it before. Regardless of how well Ryder could hold his own, the paternal instinct to protect him will always outweigh everything else. "Talk to me, kid."
starter for: @scth-cartcr when + where: may 7, scott's funeral
Loss isn't anything new to Andy, but nothing makes it hurt any less. He hadn't known Scott well -- Most of the Prospect's time in the club was while Andy was behind bars, but in the few months he'd been home, he'd come to consider the other man a friend. It was clear Scott had made a name for himself within the club, having been so close to being patched in before his untimely death. Andy's heard the rumors, seen the shift within the club in the last week alone -- He doesn't have answers, unable to confirm or deny if the Prospect's death had been due to being used as a shield. The thought makes his stomach churn. The club is no stranger to violence, nor is it to Andy, but it's always been a known rule: You don't turn on each other.
Scott's funeral had been just what Andy expected -- Horrible, needlessly tragic. The sight of the man's mother crying over her son's casket was difficult to watch, even from the back of the crowd. The moment the service is over, Andy excuses himself, stepping away to smoke a cigarette and clear his mind before leaving. Leaning against a tree, his back turned to the sight of Scott's casket and his mourning family. As he takes a deep inhale of his cigarette, Andy spots someone approaching out of the corner of his eye. His first instinct is to tell them to fuck off, but he knows better than to start a fight right now. He turns to find Seth approaching, which does nothing for the stress he feels. Given that the older man was the one to throw the first punch, he was on Andy's shit list. "We're not doin' this here, Seth." He states plainly, both knowing what he means. Taking another deep inhale of his cigarette, he tries to ignore the desire head to the nearest bar after this.
closed: @dcathbecame. location: the clubhouse, ma's 77th birthday party.
Rick decided early in the evening that he wasn't going to drink. He wanted his head level, he wanted to be able to absorb everything without the cost alcohol brings. But it's this decision that makes Rick understand why people become "social drinkers". He silently fears that he may fall flat without a beer in his hand and the courage liquor brings. Still, he persists, pouring himself a soda at the bar. He adds a few ice cubes before swirling them around in the glass, allowing the beverage to cool. From the corner of his eyes, Rick sees his younger brother approaching, which causes weight to lift from his shoulders. A weight he didn't know he was carrying. These days, Rick needed Andy. After losing their father, Jason, and now their mother in slow increments, things felt heavy. Heavier than usual, at least. Having him back after a stint in prison was one of the only things keeping Rick afloat.
"You think she's havin' any fun?" The older man asks his brother, motioning to Ma before circling around the bar to take a seat on one of the old stools. "I can't really tell anymore. She's here but not entirely, you know?" Rick turns his attention away from the party, moving to face forward. He knows he should be at his mother's side today but at times it pained him. And one of the only people who understood that feeling the same as him was Andy.
Staying sober during a party at the clubhouse was strange and new -- He hadn't drank for nearly six years now, but all of that had been while he was behind bars. Being at the clubhouse, surrounded by friends and family drinking all through his Ma's celebration was a different beast entirely. One that had him taking more smoke breaks than he cared to admit, for the sake of getting away from the commotion and temptation. He'd been returning from one when he caught sight of his brother, who was clearly still sober. The clear tension in his shoulders was a give away, long before Andy saw the can of soda Rick was pouring. He gives his brother a nod as a greeting, mirroring his actions as he wordlessly pours himself a soda as well. Andy couldn't help but silently be grateful Rick hadn't poured any whiskey into his coke.
He takes the stool next to him, leaning an elbow on the bar top as he sips his drink and looks around the clubhouse, to the woman in question. It was difficult to see their Ma like this -- The decline in her health, the way she didn't recognize them most days. It left an ache in his chest he couldn't name. (Or didn't want to, for fear that sooner or later it'll swallow him whole.) "I think she is," he answers honestly, giving Rick a half smile. It fades as his brother continues, and the two acknowledge the harsh reality in front of them.
"M'just glad all of got together for her." Andy chooses not to mention that they may not have many more opportunities to throw Rhea a birthday party like this in the future. But seeing how many people had shown up and shown their love for his Ma made it a bit easier. A beat passes, and a sigh follows. Andy takes another sip of his drink, wishing it was a beer. A conversation about their Ma's health would be easier drunk. "It's hard seein' her like this." His voice is quieter, eyes never leaving their mother. "It's killin' me, not bein' able to do anything about it."

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"And he's as sharp as a fuckin' knife." Much different than he was growing up. Diego was already a fucking genius, knowing two languages and shit. "At least I don't got that oily hair of yours." He teased, pointing to Andy's locks. "It's always gonna be my go to. Your head is abnormally huge. I bet your helmet's gotta be custom ordered." At least his best friend could rock it.
"Sometimes me either. Well bein' around you and yours all these years has sorta helped too." Him being a dad wasn't a new concept for him seeing that Diego had been around for four years but Andy had been the slammer for all of those years. "I know what a good dad is cause of you." Though he was still having trouble being a good one, the best one that Diego deserved. "It's jus' hard sometimes tryin' to do it all." Balancing club life and family was fucking hard. "She can't live with me and she can't live without me. Am I right?"
"I can tell," Andy notes, putting a hold on his teasing for a moment. All jokes aside, he was proud of his best friend -- Parenthood had it's ups and downs, but Andy knew how much Wes loved his son, the lengths he'd go to for the four year old. Diego was a good kid, clearly inheriting his father's best qualities. "My hair isn't oily, asshole." Eyes roll, smacking the other man's hand away. "Oh, I fuckin' know how much you love sayin' I got a big head. One of the CO's told me 'bout you askin' for 'Big Head Andy' at the state pen." The joke was annoying, but it never failed to pull a smile from him. "Least I'm not shittin' myself, Skidmark." He remarks, laughing lightly at the mention of Wes' childhood nickname.
Forcing himself to ignore the guilt that comes with the thought of how much he missed, Andy bumps shoulders with Wes. "I kinda got a headstart on fatherhood and all'a that shit." He states the obvious, finding it hard most days to believe that Ryder is full grown adult now. Another joke about being a veteran when it comes to be a parent, but it dies on his tongue as Wes continues. He hadn't expected the sentiment, admittedly caught off guard by it. Clapping a hand on Wes's shoulder, he gives him a nod and serious look. "You just keep doin' everything you can, ya know?" Andy advises, before letting out a sigh as his hand drops back to his lap. "S'what I keep tellin' myself, I guess." A beat passes, leaving him wishing he hadn't left his cigarettes inside the clubhouse. "Kinda hard to raise a kid from behind bullet proof glass." He finds himself admitting as he looks over at their sons playing. "Benny looks at me like I'm complete fuckin' stranger." Andy surprises himself with his own words, though if there's anyone he trusts with the confession it's Wes. Shaking his head, he tries to move on with the conversation, trying to move past the tightness in his chest as anxiety settles in. "That's one way of lookin' at it. We're lucky she puts up with any'a us."
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"Uncle Andy, you gonna have some shots with me?" He had no clue if his uncle was drinking at the moment, or what, but he figured he should offer. He had a lot of other things to be concerned with than what his uncle was drinking or not drinking like avoiding Rhea's advances. However, being drunk meant that he became a lot more friendly and he wanted Andy to celebrate. This was his mother's party after all. "Or has Aunt Ro got you all whipped tonight that you gotta watch Benny?"
Family is something Andy will always hold in high regard, but his nephew certainly loves to put that to the test. He can't help that the bias started because of Jason, but the apple didn't fall far from the tree. Andy had mostly been around while his nephew was a teen and after he was newly patched in, but something tells him AJ isn't much different six years later. His nephew didn't visit the state pen much, so most things Andy heard was second hand. "Watch your fuckin' mouth when you're talkin' about my wife, kid." Andy warns, not caring how drunk AJ was or wasn't. "I don't want any'a your cheap tequila," he waves away the offer, lighting up a cigarette. Even though he was sober, he didn't still crave a distraction. Nicotine helped. "You look like ya drank enough for both of us."