noise rock, hardcore, and lesbianism

even people trying to commiserate with me complaining about the dumb responses assumed that it was just about sizing. and phrased it all like "you're so seen and valid". fucking christ.

"It's incredibly difficult and challenging using public bathrooms as a transgender woman and it should be obvious why if you have paid attention to anything ever"

"Girl I feel you, welcome to womanhood. sometimes the seats are gross or someone's left something on the floor, we all experience this, you're so valid for this"

(meanwhile I'm lucky if I'm not immediately stopped upon entering)

...and not much else other than some body paint. Phrases I'll be decorating my skin with will include

Trans Rights Now. Trans Rights Forever

America Delenda Est

From the River to the Sea

I 🤍 fat girls

Fuck ICE

The sexuality of a police officer is cop.

The gender of a police officer is cop.

When you become the enforcer and protector of capital, you are making the deal to be slightly favored by the system over others like you, in exchange for being its servant. Your solidarity is with the system that you serve, even if it hates you.

What happened to Jourdin Pauline is what every Black asexual person's been saying since day & a horrifying viral example of what we've been going through for years. Antiblackness & compulsory sexuality have always been linked. It's time to wake the fuck up, ace or not. The core of ace discourse was/is about reinforcing compulsory sexuality not education. 'Not understanding' asexuality, good or bad faith, is used to justify its erasure. It's a classic conservative idea that what doesn't instantly make sense has no right to exist.

The reactionary idea that human sexuality that isn't cisheterosexuality shouldn't exist is tied to anti-victim/survivor rhetoric. When an asexual person is sexually assaulted, the viewer focuses on their 'confusing' nature as the problem instead of the violation + violator.

The idea that Jourdain Pauline deserved to be assaulted for not being cisheterosexual is a chilling but common anti-queer rape culture talking point. Her SA is being justified because she's asexual.

Jourdin Pauline isn't the first Black asexual woman to be sexualised and sexually humiliated due to conservatism. The eroticisation of Yasmin Benoit and Matt Walsh's harassment of Latoya Raveneau come to mind. Most Black ace women know this sexualisation too well.

Most if not all women under patriarchy have faced some form of sexual violence. But because asexuality specifically is seen as going against human nature, it's believed that it needs to be corrected with forced sex/sexual acts. And this belief is commonly shared, even with 'progressives'

What else is left to say really? When you centre whiteness in queerness & support rape culture out of spite for queers you hate, you create the perfect condition for antiblack sexual violence like these to thrive. No one listened to us. The Black asexual is always collateral damage.

The Black asexual is always collateral damage, of white allosexual queers who erase us under the guise of 'progressive' acephobia, white asexuals who engage in puritanism for their own benefit & Black cishet people who believe their sexuality will give them approval from white society.

With the rebrand of fascism, more and more asexual people especially women are gonna come out with being (correctively) SA'd & only very few leftist leaning people will do anything about the rape culture in front of our fucking eyes. It's disgusting.

And I absolutely expect the white asexual/aspec community will ignore Jourdain Pauline's assault & sexualisation like they ignored Latoya Raveneau & Yasmin Benoit. Or give out shallow 'support POC' posts like usual. We're only sexual perpetrators to them, never victims.

I'm gonna encourage other Black aspec figures to help boost this story & support one of our own: @gentlegiantace93 @blkaroculture @asexual-goddessss

Tag for visibility: @avenpt

1. if our existence already makes people uncomfortable, why not embrace uncomfortability. make uncomfortable art.

2. noise allows you to channel emotion directly into sound. the trans experience is full of emotions that are hard to explain through words, so why not skip the words. our experience as trans people are worth hearing.

3. in a world that increasingly demands our silence, noise creates a way to be loud. loud about our love, our anger, our identity.

4. noise is messy and so are we. there is no one right way to be trans, and there is no one right way to make noise.

5. the art of noise comes from the way you shape it, which parallels the trans experience. you become the person that you choose to create.

You WILL be racist. You WILL do racist things. You have ALREADY done both. Learn and move on. There's no ideological purity you can hold on to, i promise. Proving you can take the criticism without making it a big deal and practice what you preach is better than any clean slate.