FUCK THE CIS-TEM

I still consider all of my flaws that would make you leave

I’m caught up in your words

Every letter matters to me

You hold me at 5am and tell me you love me when I have to go

I’ve never experienced this feeling

Waited so long to give myself to anyone

I’ve never been so comfortable

You remind me that there is good in the world

Don’t leave me at 5 am

Don’t leave me

I don’t think I could function without you

You make me so fucking happy

I never knew how to be happy

I miss you when your not around

My clothes smell like you

Words became a mess

Fist fights to the death

Bloody noses and broken teeth

427

427

427

You make me smile

I expect jealousy from my friends

I have to remain calm and remember I deserve what I get and do for myself.

I love them for the times we spend together.

Every imperfection exploited

No auto tune

You can’t hide now

I only want you at 4 am

4 am

4 am

4 am

4 am

4 am

Tell me I’m yours

I’m fucked up on anything I could get

Too much in my system; between emotion and substances

Fuck me up and call me yours

My safety is in your hands

Go date another wannabe fuck up

Fake Xanax to chill out

Overdosing to remember your value

Fuck you

Dumb bitch with a fake smile and a mood made up of makeup

A trap whore and a cellphone

Call me when you have a chance

Or forget me and send me to voicemail

No more.