Fallen

“how many lovers and people have you molded yourself for that haven’t been deserving of the masterpiece that you are becoming? the best person to appreciate the muse that you are, is you.”

“I think I only loved you out of loneliness. I was so lonely that when you entered my life and showed the smallest signs of interest, I convinced myself that you were everything that I ever wanted. But that wasn’t true.. you were never a blessing and you never loved me, I just kept convincing myself you did. and I think I did it because I needed to have some one love me. I needed to feel the presence of another person. I needed someone to want to be here with me. God, being alone use to scare the fuck out of me, sometimes it still does.. but now I’m more scared of love, or fake love, or whatever the fuck we had, if it was even anything at all. the truth is, you were never the person I saw. You were never actually good enough for me and I realize that now. I mean, I looked at you as if you could move mountains, I really thought you were like the entire universe wrapped up into a person. But you were never like that. I made up things in my head, the way you looked at me was never real, the way you talked about me was never genuine. It was as if I didn’t even exist to you… Thats not love. You leave me out for days then come back when I’m finally over it just to remind me that your still here. And I told myself that was okay. I told myself we loved each other. I just kept making excuses for you when you never asked me to, when you never even cared to apologize. And i see it all now. I see how stupid I was to think that any of that meant that you cared. But I just wanted to love you. I wanted you to love me. I wanted to feel something. i wanted to have someone, because any one is better than no one. and in the end, I can’t even blame you. you never pretended to love me, I only convinced myself you did. everything was in my head. It was all out of loneliness. I broke my own heart loving you. I saw who you were from the beginning, I just wanted to love someone so badly and you were here. It wasn’t always pleasant, but you were here.”

“Maybe sometimes, we are the ones breaking our own hearts. We walk into a situation, get attached to someone all by choice. And then we let them break our hearts, because we’re the ones who gave them the opportunity to.”

“You will never be truly happy if you continuously hold onto the things that make you sad.”

“If you have been brutally broken, but still have the courage to be gentle to others then you deserve a love deeper than the ocean itself.”

“You’re going around spreading rumours because you’re too proud to ask for forgiveness and too selfish to share me with anyone else.”

““Can I see you again” is such a sweet thing to say.”

Sometimes people think they know you. They know a few facts about you, and they piece you together in a way that makes sense to them. And if you don't know yourself very well, you might even believe that they are right. But the truth is, that isn't you. That isn't you at all.

“I think I only loved you out of loneliness. I was so lonely that when you entered my life and showed the smallest signs of interest, I convinced myself that you were everything that I ever wanted. But that wasn’t true.. you were never a blessing and you never loved me, I just kept convincing myself you did. and I think I did it because I needed to have some one love me. I needed to feel the presence of another person. I needed someone to want to be here with me. God, being alone use to scare the fuck out of me, sometimes it still does.. but now I’m more scared of love, or fake love, or whatever the fuck we had, if it was even anything at all. the truth is, you were never the person I saw. You were never actually good enough for me and I realize that now. I mean, I looked at you as if you could move mountains, I really thought you were like the entire universe wrapped up into a person. But you were never like that. I made up things in my head, the way you looked at me was never real, the way you talked about me was never genuine. It was as if I didn’t even exist to you… Thats not love. You leave me out for days then come back when I’m finally over it just to remind me that your still here. And I told myself that was okay. I told myself we loved each other. I just kept making excuses for you when you never asked me to, when you never even cared to apologize. And i see it all now. I see how stupid I was to think that any of that meant that you cared. But I just wanted to love you. I wanted you to love me. I wanted to feel something. i wanted to have someone, because any one is better than no one. and in the end, I can’t even blame you. you never pretended to love me, I only convinced myself you did. everything was in my head. It was all out of loneliness. I broke my own heart loving you. I saw who you were from the beginning, I just wanted to love someone so badly and you were here. It wasn’t always pleasant, but you were here.”

To be kind is more important than to be right. Many times, what people need is not a brilliant mind that speaks but a special heart that listens.

Seeing your face at the end of a hard day,