Her Stripes Continue

i learned that i’m fine. crying is cool & it helps to let go however, those stress relief showers are way more amazing. i’m breathing, somewhat healthy, learning to appreciate what i have. done with ppl who don’t accept me for me. i refuse to change for anyone. i am me and me deserves everything that life has to offer.

Your guard is up...which makes it so difficult for you to be in a successful relationship. Almost everything you do is wrong. You’re selfish because for so many years all you had to do is worry about yourself. Keeping your head held high & emotions in check so that no one could ever hurt you again. 

You aren’t physically here....feels like you actually are. Happy Mother’s Day up there. I know you’re looking down smiling at us. I love you with all my heart MamaBear. I’ll try to get through this day as best as I can. 

Sometimes I get this tingy feeling in my stomach. Ugh I really despise him. Sometimes I just really need to go off. However there’s you...You make all of these thoughts go away when I’m around you. I can’t.  I can not say that I love you because I am afraid to say that I love anyone. Everyone I love has betrayed me, passed away, lied to me, or lost me. Wish you didn’t have to go away. I want you here forever and always...but we know forever doesn’t last.