Just the casual mentioning of the raft reminds the spiky haired boy just how long itâs already been since he, Riku and Kairi had made plans to build a raft to take them to to other worlds. Or rather, itâs at least felt like a long time since then. In some ways, he misses when life was that simple, not having a care in the world. But then again, he wouldnât change a thing for the worlds. All the journeys heâs been on thus far, all the people heâs connected with, make him who he is, and those are things heâll never give up.
âWell, it is kinda hard not to get lost when everything kind of looks the same, but you know what, Iâll take that as a compliment!â he responded a small but smug smile on his face as he places his hands on his hips for emphasis. âStill though, itâs a good thing you found me! Donât wanna give myself too much credit.â Inside he knows heâs done basically nothing, but he always tries his best to look good in front of his best friend.
Though Riku often struggled with his emotions, itâs still as clear as day to him how much Riku cares. He may not be the best at expressing it physically or in words, but nonetheless, Sora knows him better than anyone, and is willing to do anything to make him happy. âHeh, right. Now that weâre together, I think weâll be okay.â he says reassuringly, nodding slightly as he places a hand on his friendâs shoulder.
Itâs almost as though whenever they talk, Sora tends to forget that heâs in a harshly cold environment. It feels nice having a friend who can take the pressure off like that. âWellâŠokay. If youâre sure. But donât worry though, if you catch a cold, Iâll be here to take care of you, and thatâs a promise!â he exclaims, giving another nod of acknowledgment to Riku. âA few weeks, huh? Thatâs still longer than Iâve been here.â
As the two of them continue walking, almost out of nowhere, Sora finds himself struck with thoughts about his other friends. What if theyâre in trouble? He knows that they can handle themselves, but still. And what of Kairi? He hates the thought of her being left behind time and time again while he and Riku are away from home. âHey Riku, do you think that Kairi is okay? I know how strong she is, I just⊠it feels like weâve lost her again, even if thereâs nothing we could have done.â
A raftâ just how far would a raft have really gotten them? Would they have really succeeded at leaving the tiny island that he had once called home? These days, he is not certain it would have been as easy as them as children would believe ( Riku is certain of one thing, and that is how selfish his desire had beenâ what a risk he had put upon two others who had only been to willing to blindly follow his lead. How selfish, how foolish, that had been, and he was the one who was supposed to know better ). âEverything looks the same? I suppose you arenât completely wrong about that, but I think your observational skills might need some work.â Of course Sora would take that as a complimentâ finding positives in the negative, thatâs always how heâs been, for as long as he can remember. Itâs hard to scorn him over a trait that he envies, to an extent.
A pause, averting his gaze; an indifferent sort of  shrug of his shoulders. âI didnât do much. You wouldâve found your way, eventually. Give yourself some credit, just because everyone might act like youâre a bit hopeless, itâs not like you to go down without a fight.â Once, he might have puffed up his chest and bragged about how dependable he was, butâ heâs done enough of that today, heâs not done that much worth of praise ( and sometimes, Riku thinks he needs the reminder too, that he is not worth that praiseâ that Sora is plenty capable himself ). Heâd always be there to find him, he hopes, but Riku has faith that if he was not there, that he would be able to handle himself just fine.
Heâs not exactly reassuredâ placated, at best; Soraâs right, but heâs not one to accept things simply, these days. Even if he canât completely express it, it is a comfort to have him here ( and a comfort to have him try and comfort him, irregardless ). Will they really be okay here? Their future here feels a little bit like that raft of theirs, lost at sea, close to capsizing, fate uncertain. He canât be certain of much these days, he thinks, but he is right in thinking they are at least better off together ( aloneâ hah, he is the one that cannot do anything alone, as much as he might act otherwise ). âMm. Well, weâll manage. Donât have much choice, anyhow.â Surviveâ at this point, it is all he really knows. Live, just for the sake of seeing the next day, if nothing else.
He snorts at the exclamation he makes, raising a brow at him. âNot that I donât appreciate the sentiment, but maybe focus on taking care of yourself, first. Iâll hold you to that promise, though I donât think youâll need to.â If only because Sora wonât let him do much otherwiseâ Riku doesnât like having people worry over him, but that is probably unavoidable, now. Worst comes to worst, he just has to make sure he doesnât seem too outwardly ill. âSure, but I donât think it amounts to much. Youâll probably catch up before you know it.â
Thereâs a grimace at his wordsâ nothing they could have done? Does Sora really believe that, or is that just what heâs saying? ( No, actually, Riku has a hard time thinking thatâs what he really believes, butâ itâs hard to really gauge what Sora thinks with regards to Kairi these days ). He does not lash out though, any anger he feels is always redirected at himself; he is at fault, isnât he? What is the use of being a master if you could not even do something as small as save someoneâ a friend? It is hard to say anything because his throat feels tight with the anger he does not speak ( the grief that he hasnât quite figured out what to do with yet still weighs heavy in his chest ), and he is not really meant to speak words of comfortâ what Sora wants to hear and what he needs to hear are not exactly the same, nor entirely different. âItâs...hard to be sure. Though I doubt that she wouldnât be trying to get back on her own.â And thatâs the truth of it. Sheâs always been a fighter too, a blessing and a curse in itself ( one day he will learn that he cannot protect them all, no matter how much strength he gathers ). Riku gnaws on his lip for a moment, a slow shrug of his shoulders; voice a little softer as the bitter anger leaves his body. âI donât think youâd be here if she wasnât okay. It isnât like you to leave someone waiting.â This too, is a statement that he finds to be ( mostly ) true, especially for her sakeâ he doesnât think Sora would be here if she wasnât safe, in some sense of the word ( if they ever are truly safe is debatable within itself ); but this is the statement with which he does his best to deliver some sense of comfort, however little that may be.