Hidden Gems

Continued from “Like a Boomerang”

Months pass and Christmas holidays approach and I was excited for a break. Everyone would be out of school and back in town- a lot of catching up to do. Autumn texted me a few days before Christmas to plan to go eat and hang out. A local night club decided to throw a party for college students home for the holidays, which was cool, especially for our little town. A lot of the kids that were gonna be home planned to go. Monica was going out of town, visiting family for the holidays. I planned to go anyway, my older brother and his friends would be there.. The little place was jumping! With people from my graduating class to college graduates, people were everywhere.. We found our way to the pool tables, where my brother and his friends were shooting pool and drinking- the more laid back area of the club. A group of guys walk in- a group of football players from different classes. In the midst, I see Shane. I’m excited to see him, being that we hadn’t see each other since graduation. I smile and throw my hand up to get his attention and speak.. He literally looks at me and looks away-like he didn’t see me. A few minutes later, they all come over to speak to my brother and his friends. He came over too and spoke to each of us and his demeanor was... off.. He spoke to me as if I was a stranger, like he didn’t wanna speak.. I was taken aback like “Damn, did he really just do that?” As the night went on, I felt like someone was watching me-even through all the rowdiness of the party.. I look up to catch him looking away.. I think to myself- “What is up with this guy? This is the same guy that left me a message just two months ago” I didn’t know what I felt about him,-a crush I didn’t want or need to acknowledge at the time.. He had a special hold on me that I couldn’t seem to shake. The next night, Autumn asked me to come with her to a bonfire at one of her friend’s house. I had nothing planned, so I agreed. We get there and it’s a small crowd of people there- mostly basketball players and cheerleaders, definitely not my scene.. Autumn runs into her ex and they go off together. I just chill in front of the fire, texting Monica and cruising Facebook. Never missing an invite, Shane walks up with a group of guys. Judging by our last interaction, we were strangers, so I pay him no attention. I sat around the fire and enjoyed the quiet time. It began to get late and people were leaving slowly. Being that I’d ridden with Autumn, I couldn’t go anywhere.. Autumn and Chris, her ex, finally come back. She says she was gonna take me home, then go back to Chris’s house. Chris, who is ready to get Autumn to his house, asks around for someone to take me home instead.. Being that he and Shane were friends, he asks him.. Shane hesitatingly agrees.. I say,”No.. I’ll call my brother.” Shane speaks up- “No, i can give you a ride. I don’t mind. Its on the way home.” I hug Autumn and whisper in her ear, “You better be lucky I love you!” She laughs and says, “Have a good night!”- kissing me on the cheek. We tell everybody bye and head towards his car. The first few minutes were awkwardly quiet. He finally broke the ice-

S- “So, What’s been up? How’s school been?”

Me-“Uhm, it’s been good. It’s different.. How about you? How’s Tia?”

S- “It’s been good, I guess.. I’m really not feeling the school thing. And me and Tia broke up, so it’s kinda weird”

Me-“ Oh... Sorry to hear that.. What about football? You were tryna go pro, right?”

S-“ Yeah.. but I don’t love it like I used to. I’m thinking about going into the army”

Me-“ Oh ok.. That’s what’s up.. I could see that..”

We cut off our conversation when “Can’t Be Friends” by Trey Songz comes on the radio.. We sang along and there’s a unexplainable “tension” in the air.. When the song goes off, we sit in silence.. I finally break the ice...

Me- “So, you remember leaving me a voicemail a while back? What was that about?”

S-“ Really? You sure? When? I must’ve been drunk. I don’t remember.”

Me- “I figured.. You were saying some off the wall stuff.. like you missed me..”

S- “Yeah... that’s crazy..”

Me- *cutting him off* “Its ok.. I kinda missed some of my old classmates too. Starting college, with new people, was a culture shock.”

S- *chuckles* “Yeah, it was.. I figured you would blend right in. Figured you’d forget about me..”

Me-“ Boy, stop it... of all our classmates, you’d be the last I forget.” I almost immediately regretted it..

S- *puzzled* “Huh.. Really? What you mean?”

Me- “ I mean.. We’ve been friends for a long time.. I honestly have had a light crush on you since we were younger. I don’t know.. I can’t explain it. When I got that voicemail, i was kinda excited.. So.. you would definitely forget me before I forget you..”

*In my head-Omg, what was I saying?? What did I just do? Did I have a stroke? *

After a few seconds of silence, he finally spoke...

S- “Oh... Really??”

I thought, “Is that all you have to say?” I felt so stupid..

Me-“I’m sorry. I can’t explain it, but..”

S-“ No, it’s ok.. I’m not offended or anything.. I’m kinda surprised”

It was perfect timing, we were pulling up to my house. I was so relieved to get out of his car.. I was SO embarrassed.. I got out and thanked him for the ride.. He said no problem and I went into the house.. I fell onto my bed and turned on the radio, thinking why did I just do that?? I sat in my thoughts and finally my mind settled.. I felt, “Oh well, I got it off my chest.. It’ll be ok, we’ll probably never see each other again anyway.” I go into the kitchen for a snack and drink. When I get back, I have a message from Shane..

S-“ What you doin?”

Me-“Nothin... sup?”

S-“ We need to talk...”

Me-“ Ok... “

S-“Come outside”

I nervously walk out and he was sitting in his car, in my front yard.

S-“ Uhm, I’m sorry about earlier.. I just didn’t know what to say.. I missed you too man. I can’t explain it.. Ever since that time in eighth grade, I felt like things were different- like we were more than friends.. I just didn’t know how to handle it”

Hearing him say this made me so happy...and confused.. We both had girlfriends and he was this “macho straight” dude.. His behavior throughout the years was now making sense though.

Me-“ Well.. me either.. Things definitely changed after our first time.. It awakened something in me.. You kinda got a lil weird on me. It’s crazy but I don’t regret any of it”

S-*giving me the eye* “Oh.. I’m sure you don’t.. you’re a lil freak, for real...”

Me- *laughing* Boy shut up... If I can recall, you tricked me into giving you head... So....”

S-*gasped in shock* “What?! No.... Well.. I like getting my dick sucked.. And I saw how you would look at me.. So, I went for it..”

I figured he was getting horny bc he began to rub his dick thru his pants..

Me- “Well, like I said.. It is what it is. I can’t say I didn’t kinda want to anyway.. So.. call it even”

S-*grinning* “Well, you still feel like that?? Would you still want to??”

That sneaky/cute smile just could make you melt... it could almost make you do anything.

My heart beating fast, I reply. “ I don’t know.. Me and Monica...”

S- “She ain’t gotta know.. It’s just me and you..”

As he said that, he slipped his pants down, letting his dick print show... It was just what I needed.. The guilt I felt quickly dissipated..

Me-“Well, not here.. I know a better place”

We drove down the block, towards this dark alley. It was late and I knew no one would be walking through. We back in and turn off the lights.. He wasted no time, pulling his pants and boxers down.. I lean over to the drivers side, head down into his lap.. I immediately get a whiff of his pubes, putting me into a trance.. They smelled like Irish Springs soap, like he had just taken a shower.. I get snapped back into reality by his voice..

S-“What’s wrong?”

Me-“ Oh, nothing.. You just smell good..”

S-“ Oh.. ha ha.. I’m clean.. I took a shower before the party”

He lets his seat back as I lick the head.. As I’m sucking him, everything just felt... “right”.. He is talking noise as I’m giving him head.. I’m sucking like I’ve never before, not gagging or anything..

S-“Damn, you sucking that dick. Who else you been fucking with?”

Me-“ Nobody. I just like giving head and eating pussy..”

S-“ Oh really?”

He began to put his hands behind my head, thrusting his hips into the face.

After being in the car for so long, we get out and stand behind the car. He lets his pants drop to the ground and I resume sucking..

S-“Stand up, I wanna see what that booty feel like..” I stand to my feet and he slides his hands into my pants and grabs my ass.

S-“ Dang that booty fat! You gonna let me hit it?”

Me-“ Nah.. maybe next time..”

S-“Ah.. you lame..”

I get back to sucking and playing with his balls.. That must’ve been the sweet spot bc before I knew it..

S-“ I’m finna bust.. Ahh..Shit...”

He shot five or six times in my mouth and onto the ground..

Me-“Damn... You trying to kill me.. When the last time you cum?”

He laughed and replied,” a while, I told you me and Tia broke up.” We get back in the car after getting our stuff together and drive off.. On the way back to my house, we talked about future plans and how we were gonna see where our “relationship” could go.. I felt... good.. I felt like a weight had been lifted.. Everything was in the open.. I get back home, where I had left my phone, to see a message from Monica.... It hit me like a ton of bricks.. What had I just done? I felt guilty for cheating but it felt so good.. I was at a crossroads.. Here we go again....

Continued from Senior Prom..

Though prom was over, I couldn’t get my mind off me and Shane’s last conversation. Something wasn’t sitting right. I had never seen him like that before- could he have just been drunk?? I hoped to find out before we graduated. As a class, we decided to throw a big graduation party together. The morning of graduation, we planned to meet after rehearsal/walk-through to discuss final details of the party. I figured it would be a good time to talk to him and catch up on the last few weeks. Of course, he didn’t come, so I put it on the back burner. Later that night, after graduation and family time, we get ready to party!! I decide to leave the Shane thing alone. I saw him at the party, along with the rest of our classmates. We spoke and mingled most of the night and had a good time- drinking, games, a fight. It was somewhat... normal.. It was probably one of the best nights I’d ever had. Knowing it might have been the last time seeing one another made it special.

After graduating from high school, I had mixed feelings.. I was excited to be done with high school but the future seemed uncertain. Everyone pretty much went their separate ways. I knew I would miss all the friends I’d made. It wasn’t all bad- some of us planned to go to the nearby community college, so we still would see one another. Over the summer, we hung out here and there. Shane and Tia both got scholarships, so they were pretty much gone early in the summer.. Autumn got a basketball scholarship also, so she left too. Monica and me had each other though.. As summer came to a close, Monica and I made our schedules together so we could hang out around our different classes.

To be honest, as nervous as it was to be around all those new people, it was exciting. The first day of classes was crazy! It’s like I’d never seen so many people in my life. It was like freshman year all over again, but more “free”. Everybody seemed nervous but enjoyed the little sense of adulthood that came with college. It definitely wasn’t high school. Me and Monica met up on our free period to eat and hang out at the student center. After school, I’d go to work and catch up with Monica after. That pretty much became the norm as the weeks began to pass. Seeing all those new faces everyday was becoming less unnerving and I began to make friends around campus. Even though me and Monica were dating, I found myself looking at some of the boys around campus. This one in particular caught my eye, Eric. He was a football player and we had a psychology class together. He was always late and would need notes for class. One day, after class, he stopped me to ask where I was from and if I knew a guy named Shane. I immediately froze, because he hadn’t been on my mind for a while. We talked for a minute and he just wanted me to help him pass the class. As I’m walking to my next class, I think about Shane and what he could be up to. I met up with Monica and we leave campus and hang out the rest of the night. A few days later, I notice I missed a phone call and get a voicemail.... from Shane. He called about 1am with a lot of background noise, but it went like this:

“Jay....... Hey, what’s up?.... What u been up to? It’s been a minute.... I was just calling to see what you been up to.. I miss you man.... Holla at me sometime.. Bye..”

He must’ve been drunk because he slurred his words a bit, but I was happy to hear from him. I tried texting and calling back the next day but got no answer or reply. I was happy to hear from him but, on the other hand, I was doing good. It was like the universe knew me and Monica were going good and wanted to stir it up. I came to the realization that I had suppressed a light crush on him. I thought I had dealt with it. He never responded to my texts or calls. I chop it up to him being drunk and in his feelings.. I thought-“He probably won’t even remember doing it.” Whichever, I didn’t know if I wanted to be on that roller coaster again...