My vent blog i guess

im gonna mine the shit out of this god damn stupid tumblrcioin

am i selfish for looking after myself first? am i supposed to stay with you forever? am i supposed to find a better reason to break up with you? Do i need to break up with ariya and tala if im breaking up maya too? What do you even mean when you say ill hurt tala and ariya "like this"? Like i havent been in a long committed relationship before and will just dump them because theres no ""spark""? Tell me in the clearest fucking language what i need to do

hello @ god why did you give me super horrible performance anxiety even while jacking off

i love my girlfriend but more often than not i cant participate in the amount of political discourse she shares with me. im sorry i just cant. Its not that i don't agree with her, its just that pointing out already well known flaws in the systemic shithole of our life we can barely do anything about just feels futile to an extent. I try to keep myself informed about current events and policies and vote accordingly, but discussing it just wastes energy for me i don't have. 

Good reason to hate me: the fact that I'm an over flirtatious piece of shit even though I shouldn't be because I have a boyfriend AND a girlfriend

its getting hard for me to feel affection towards tala and i literally have no fucking idea why i hate it

ever since tff and being surrounded and squsihed by like those group of 5 furries ive had a MAJOR fursuit and furry fetish ever since and im kinda sad something similar didnt happen at Anthrocon WHOOPS 

Hi! My name is Ryan and I Wana suck your fursonas dick *goes on to try and keep talking like this for the entire length of the friendship*

My sex life is in this weird limbo of sorts that’s confined by the boundaries of “i cant do this but its nearly impossible for me to do this either” and seeing how my friends can achieve either side im really stuck in this boring and depressing middle of the road so to speak

I can't be dom to save my life! Fuck!