“So what if I’m crazy? The best people are!”

And since we’re here, let’s go all the way and translate the whole of Mortal Downer.

(TW: the lyrics to this song are about unal*ving on*self - proceed at your own risk)

The Devil in Me

In a day-to-day that keeps sinking, I keep myself alive but barely tethered, though no one’s eyes ever meet mine.

I’ll forever regret being born this way, I’ll forever regret, that from here on out, I will but sink,  further into depravity, drenched in the denial of my very being.

Who made me this way? Is this hell for my sake alone?

Welcome to my world.

With my mind unraveling I went, into a lair of lies wrapped in tenderness, - and I understood them better than anyone ever could, for that’s the kind of person I was.

Show me what it means to live.

Who made me this way? Is this hell for my sake alone?

On this rope I cast, I stake my tomorrow, and I step into the void, for that is my final wish (1), trusting that somewhere ahead, lies the world I once imagined.

Goodbye, now.

In a day-to-day that keeps sinking, I keep myself alive but barely tethered, though no one’s eyes ever meet mine.

I’ll forever regret being born this way, I’ll forever regret, that from here on out, I will but sink further into depravity, drenched in the denial of my very being.

Who made me this way? Is this hell for my sake alone?

On this rope I cast, I stake my tomorrow, and I step into the void, for that is my final wish, trusting that somewhere ahead, lies the world I once imagined. Goodbye, now.

I’ll hand it over in your stead, every pathetic scrap of life I dragged myself through.

What did you really love?

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pov:

y/n: “eeeek! i’m so excited to meet my favorite band of the all time, dir en grey!!!! i wonder what i’ll say to them when it’s my turn to go to the meet and greet table…”

y/n: stands nervously in the line and they peek around the corner and get a glimpse of the band, die looks at them and smiles

staff: “ok it’s you’re turn to meet the dir en grey”

y/n: walks up to the table and all of the members look at them “Ughhh, only if someone would tickle me for pride month… OOPS! i can’t believe i said that out loud…”

kyo: calls security on y/n to take them away

security: “you know that’s inappropriate to say… we are kicking you out now”

y/n: “iiiiiimmm so fricking ugly ughhh……”

die: his attention is caught by y/n’s heartbreaking words and he can’t let security do this. “stop! she’s coming with me….” he whisks y/n away from security and shushes them “don’t say such things about yourself beautiful…. don’t worry, i’ll tickle you for pride month just like you wanted”

y/n: “KYAHHH >\\< really die sama? your my idol!” y/n gets tickled in private and then they kiss *blushes*