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jackson was the sort to sleep around, noemi of all people knew it. but surprisingly enough, she was one girl he was yet to sleep with, simply because she did mean more to him than that. as his best friend, only friend, he’d never dream of taking advantage of her. to find that her fiancee called the wedding off made him beyond pissed, but instead of retaliating and going to beat his ass, jackson had agreed to come on this honeymoon so she could still make the most of it. “are you kidding? we make a super-hot couple. people can’t help but congratulate us, knowing our kids are going to be hella cute.” he teased, nudging her playfully. “sharing is fine, just dont duvet hog, alright? or i’ll chuck you in the pool.” the male bopped her nose, listening to her list off everything they had to do. “swim now huh? is that what you want? or do you want an extra hour or so to get ready for dinner? i’m fine with either.”

“hm… our kids are definitely going to be smoking hot. can't disagree with that.” she teased, playfully sticking her tongue out at him before laughing and nudging him back. noemi was broken, it felt really bad to be broken up with like that. however, she wanted to make the best out of this trip. and sure, it was probably going to be hard and everything would remind her of her ex, but… she wants to have fun. wants to prove him that she's better than this. and being here with her best friend only made it ten times better. jackson was a great guy, noemi knew that. “look, honey, i might seem like a tiny weak little girl, but i promise you i'm not. so if anyone's going into that pool — it's you.” she teased, crossing her arms over her chest. “ah, no, let's go swimming. i'm not your typical girl who takes hours to get ready.” she laughed, getting up from the bed. “c'mon! let's go.”

    "Oh, yeah?“ A chuckle escaped his lips as he trailed behind her. Hearing her small feet padding against the floor, he smiled cheekily as he crouched to meet the little bundle of joy. "Mandy!” He exclaimed as she wrapped her small arms around him. Pulling the little girl into his embrace, he lifted her into the air as he stood back up. “How are you, cutie? I missed you.”

     Alaska leaned against the wall, watching the two interact with a huge smile on her face. She couldn't help but to giggle, seeing her daughter so happy like that. She was a good kid, Alaska was proud. The tiny girl started rambling about her day and what she's been doing all day to him and Alaska shook her head and chuckled. “Oh she's not letting you go now, prepare yourself — she'll be talking whole night.”

      Olivia took a moment to herself and pondered over his words. He was right; it was unlike her to live in the past like this. Her features softened as she raised her gaze to meet his. “You’re right– I should just move on, right?” She asked, although the answer was clear. Nodding to herself, she decided she was going to do just that. “I guess I’m coming home, huh?”

     He just stands there and nods, but wants to let her decide on her own. He doesn't want to rush her into anything, he wants her to know that he is going to be there for her no matter what. It was odd though, because Caleb wasn't like this at all. “That'd be nice.” He gave her a small smile which was followed by a sigh.

Melinda could only imagine what this felt like for Luna right now. Yet, she couldn’t speak from first hand experience because Melinda didn’t have any kids and she was single as could be. If she knew and could give Luna some advice, the female would’ve done it by now but instead all she could offer to the other was as much help as possible and even a good yelling at her supposed boyfriend for not showing up. That was one conscious thought of Melinda’s that kept on pestering and returning in her mind, knowing if she was in this situation that the other would’ve been eaten up alive. This was a special moment that you could only live through on seeing and wondering all of those nine months on when your new bundle of joy would enter into the world. She couldn’t just believe it at all. Feeling a little disappointed on Luna’s boyfriend not being here right beside her. There were always those ‘what if’s’ in situations, but how long can that easily go? The brunette should remain and stay happy because right here was a brand new addition in the family. A baby, the cutest possible maybe in the entire world that Melinda could ever imagine. She just wanted to stare and smile down at her till her cheeks had started to hurt. Yet, she felt protective over both Luna and her baby right now. She wanted the best for both of the girls and being best friends with Luna, she would always stick with her word on wanting to help her out. Carefully holding the little one in her arms, Melinda had completely stood still in her place while admiring the little girl and smiling at her. “It’s the least that I could do. I’d imagine it would’ve been the same for me if I was here today. But, in the end - you’re welcome.” She had looked up from the baby and over at her friend with a smile. No matter what Luna would go through, Melinda would stay right beside the female because deep down, Luna was the long lost sister that Melinda onced longed for. Instead, she was an only child and didn’t know exactly how it felt to have a younger sibling to care and protect for. So, now she felt like she could do it with Luna to however many degrees possible. “My god, she does. You better be careful with that, mommy dearest. These eyes are going to make boys fall hard with these captivating eyes.” Melinda laughed lightly. “She is.” Melinda had agreed with Luna, nodding her head while looking at the little girl once again. 

Luna was so greatful for Melinda. She was such a good friend and Luna couldn't imagine not having her by her side. It was good to know that there actually was someone who didn't judge her for anything and someone who was going to be there by her side no matter what. Luna didn't have many friends, but she didn't mind, because the best one was right there in the room with her. Melinda was actually the only person who showed up today and that proved a lot. She understood that her parents had to work hard, they always had and Luna couldn't blame them. Her brother was a different story, he was in his own little world, but Luna didn't want to rush him into anything. If he didn't want to come… then that was okay with her. Yet it did break her heard a little, but she still hoped he'd come later. Her boyfriend, on the other hand, was killing her inside. He was supposed to be here. But she decided not to think about it anymore. She should be resting, after all. And it was a bit impossible to do so, because her back was killing her and she still had a little stomachache, which was understandable. Luna was exhausted, who knew giving brith would be this difficult? She didn't regret a single thing though, she loved her daughter more than anything in this world. Luna watched Melinda holding her daughter and she couldn't help but to smile a bit to herself. “You know, you actually look so adorable right now. Both of you. I can imgine you being a mother, you'll be such a good mom one day.” Luna's smile only widened. “And our kids are going to be best friends, I'm telling you. No matter how old they're going to be. If not, we'll force them.” Luna joked, laughing a little. “Mel, thank you so much for everything again. I know I keep thanking you all the time, but it's impossible not to. You mean so much to me. You're like a family, you know? I don't know what I would do without you.” The short haired girl admitted, her smile growing as she leaned back and closed her eyes just for a brief moment before openinf them again and sighing lightly. “But I'm going to be completely honest with you. Pregnancy isn't a fun thing. And giving birth is so painful, I can't even explain to you how hard it was. But… in the end? It's worth it.” Luna mumbled as her hand ran through her hair. “One day, our roles will be reversed. I'll be the one holding your baby and you'll be telling me the exact same thing — that it sucked, yet it was so worth it in the end.” She chuckled.

             “Yeah, we have so much to talk about. There’s a lot of things I’m sure that we’ve wanted to tell each other in person, that’s just some things you can’t say through text or over a webcam, huh?” Kaleb gleamed, giving Abe a final short hug before pulling away. A blush tinted the boys cheeks as he was complimented about his appearance, shaking his head in denial. “Stop it, you’re such a charmer.” He teased, reaching out and giving the males bicep a squeeze. “You’re telling me my appearance is nice, when you’re the one looking like a tank? I’m jealous, you look amazing. Plus, I love the hair. It looks better in person, I’ll make sure to touch it once we’re at the hotel.” Grabbing his suitcase and pulling it along behind him he clung to Abe’s side; standing barely a foot from him as they walked. His smile never seemed to falter as he followed the other, it only growing once the male had helped him with his suitcase. Climbing into the backseat he sat next to the other, looking over at Abe and poking out his tongue at the male. “Thanks for helping me with my bag, I’d be lost without your strength. You really are a gentleman, Abe.” The boy practically cooed, letting out a sweet chuckle as practically gazed at the male. “It’s been years and it’s so scary, but so amazing. We’ve grown up so much; mostly you. I’m still a puppy, but you’ve turned into a man. I’m actually in shock, you’re like a giant next to me.” He joked, poking the males ribs. “It really does feel like yesterday, even though you technically did Skype me on cam until I fell asleep. Plus, those few pictures you sent me on Snapchat before my flight. Nothing is beating being in person with you and back where we met, that’s what’s making me the happiest. I’m so soppy, I think I’m going to cry at how amazing all of this is. I’m just so happy, really.”

             Abel nodded, smiling at the shorter boy and nodding in agreement. “That's true. It's hard to talk about things and life in general over the phone or even a webcam. It's nice, you know. Like it does help when you're in a long distance relationship or have family members and friends over the seas, but it's not the same when you see them right in front of you.” He said with a nod. Abe couldn't help but to laugh and even blush a little as the other male spoke, shaking his head in denial as well now. “Oh, I'm the charmer? I wouldn't be so sure about that. But thank you, means a lot coming from you. — I actually used to have shorter hair, like… really short actually and I looked so bad. Feel free to touch it anytime you want, but make sure you don't mess it up too much — long hair equals hard work, let me tell you.” He laughed, stretching a little due to his back hurting a bit from the uncomfortable seat, planes were never his favorite thing. “You don't have to thank me, Kaleb.” He smiled, raising an eyebrow at him as his expression softened shortly and his lips curled into a smile. Abe sighed happily, it felt so good seeing his friend after such a long time. They've both changed so much, but he felt like it wasn't awkward between them at all. He thought it would be weird at first maybe, but it wasn't. And that made him happy. “You've changed a lot too though. You're way more cute now. And taller, obviously.” He chuckled. “Ah, you should've seen me a few years ago. I looked horrible. I do feel better now, it's insane how looks can affect your self-esteem, isn't it?“ He smiled weakly, remembing his school years. “Please don't cry, I didn't bring tissues.” He chuckled. “But yeah, I'm happy, too. It's amazing. And I can't wait to have fun with you on the beach. This is going to be awesome.”

            ‘ was that you being honest about your meanness? ’ he asked with a raised brow, a smile lingering on his lips. he was still getting used to being her fiance but moments like these made it easier — when the two of them could talk without the watchful eyes of other. ‘ the most incredible, prettiest, probably not nicest but still overall loveliest girl i’ve ever met. ’ he cleared his throat dramatically. nixon pulled a thoughtful face before saying, ‘ just going to point out you basically had no choice but to cuddle me since we agreed to this. ’

            ‘ hey !! i'm not mean. ’ the brunette made an insulted face, but she failed shortly afterwards and burst into laughter. ‘ okay, maybe just a little. ’ she added, laughing. ‘ probably not the nicest ?? wow, you're not being a good fiancé right now, just so you know. i can still call off the nonexistent wedding. ’ the female joked, leaning back and sighing a bit as her eyes focused on the tv once again. ‘ but it's not like i didn't want to. you're good at cuddling, i must admit. ’ she gazed at him, wiggling her eyebrows playfully.

           “I’m not a meanie, that’s you! You’re the one bullying me and calling my hair ugly, even though my hair gives me good self esteem. You’re always trying to upset me and put me down, while stepping on me and trying to make yourself seem better.” The blond whined, his eyebrows furrowing as he shot a glare towards Kylan. The smaller of the two knew exactly what he was doing; completely trying to use his own sadness against the male so he could win their debate. “You can get spicy, but I’m not. I don’t like spicy foods, they make my stomach feel funny and I don’t want to cry while I try and enjoy some food.” The male admitted, glancing towards the other. “I’m going to pretend to be you tonight and I’m getting noodles, I don’t want your icky spices.” Isaac teased, a grin forming on his lips as he playfully nudged the taller male with his shoulder. “I am being nice, so I’m getting cuddles. Plus, if the movie is too scary you have to spoon me. That’s the deal; no ‘buts’. A grin formed on his lips as Kylan spoke; nodding his head. “Yeah, maybe. It’s not like you’re in horrible shape, so I wouldn’t mind having to deal with you being shirtless.”

          Kylan stares at him with his lips parted and arms crossed, while his eyebrows are slightly raising as Isaac speaks. “Wow, I'm impressed. You could be an actor, you know? Like a really famous one. You're good at lying.” He sticks his tongue out playfully, nudging his arm. “Spicy food is the best. I don't understand how someone could not like it.” He laughs, shaking his head. “Noodles are good too though, so you won't make a bad choice. I might steal some from you, just warning you in advance.” Kylan wiggled his eyebrows playfully and laughed as they continued walking. “You're being nice? Really? — I haven't noticed. I don't know yet. I'll see. I'm the rule maker here, by the way. Plus, wouldn't your boyfriend be a little mad, hm?” He teased, raising an eyebrow at Isaac. “I'm in a good shape, just so you know. Like… a really good shape. Just cause I don't work out doesn't mean I don't have a killer body.” Kylan's only joking, he wasn't in the best shape, but he wasn't as bad either. “I'm really hungry, we should walk faster.” He laughed.

josslyn couldn’t have been more happy. working in new york as a famous party planner was the dream and she was finally living it. she was even planning parties for celebrities, which made her feel really good about herself that rich people would trust her enough to organize their fancy nights out. speaking of which, she had to wake up really early that morning because she had to plan the after party for an awards ceremony. it had to be fun and original but thankfully, josslyn was never running out of crazy ideas to satisfy her clients. holding her coffee cup in one hand and texting someone with the other, she wasn’t looking where she was going and bumped into a man. ‘’SHIT.’’ she said, looking at her designer top that was clearly ruined. just her luck. things like this would always happen at the worst possible time. she was going to yell at the stranger in front of her but then she actually looked at him and it was like she was suddenly speechless. she wasn’t expecting him to be so… dreamy. ‘’oh — no, no. it’s my fault. i wasn’t looking i’m stupid sometimes… well, i’m not stupid but i do stupid things and huh… yeah. you don’t have to do that, i swear… i’m good.’’ she giggled a little bit, embarassed with the words vomit that was coming out of her mouth.

derrick was enjoying the day so far, he's been able to take some amazing pictures and he couldn't wait to sit down in a park and go through them, pick his favorites. traveling and seeing different places was something he was so passionate about. he didn't even need a lot of money, he was okay with what he had. some people would judge him for not having a stable job or settling down, starting a family… he wasn't as young as he used to be, he knew that, but he thought that following your dreams was the most important thing a person could do. and he did, he did follow his dreams and he felt happy, he felt good. he didn't care about others and their opinions, he was his own person. once the female spoke, he couldn't help but to chuckle as he noticed her rambling a bit. he thought it was adorable. “well… true, i don't have to. but i want to. however, you'll have to pick the coffee shop, because this is my first day here and i haven't come across any good ones yet, so yeah.” he smiled politely. “unless you're in a hurry, of course. i don't want to bother you.” he added with a nod, still smiling at her.

Let me show you how proud I am to be yours Leave this dress a mess on the floor and still look good for you