@disorderlyconstructed

I feel like when I drink and even a little after I just feel so different. It’s like my brain chemistry has changed. I’m not fidgeting, I’m not worrying about everything, I’m not being “slow”, I’m just myself. It’s like a glimpse to if I wasn’t fucked up

I hate it so much "social skills can be learned" then why haven't I learned them. I have gone to school I have had friends and gone places I haven't lived under a rock for twenty years so why haven't I learned social skills. That's not even the problem the problem is I shouldn't have to pay an exorbitant amount of money to get a degree at being a human being, in order to be treated like a human being

AVPD is like every sentence I say makes a [LOUD INCORRECT BUZZER] sound ring inside my head

Reblog/interact if your blog is a safe space for all people struggling with their Cluster A, B, and C personality disorder regardless of whether they are high or low-functioning in their disorder.

I'm so tired of my heart hurting, fucking hell I hate hate hate hate being alive. I'm so tired of not knowing how to heal and fix myself and I wish I would stop caring that no one desires me in the way I wish someone would. It's not going to happen, not now, not ever. It's not a real thing for me.