Feelings

i'm going to die from the weight of my own thoughts actually

I wish I could love myself…

every time i get close to someone i feel like a stray dog trying to live in a house. like i don’t know where to put my body or how loud i’m allowed to be.

i go from "i didn't deserve the things that happened to me" to "there is no suffering that I do not deserve" in like 3 seconds

They asked me who ruined my life, and I placed my finger gently on my heart.

„I’m used to it“ the saddest thing you can hear someone say

thinking too much again.

i wanna be in love so bad but then i remember how i could be getting cheated on again and suddenly i don’t wanna be in love anymore

This

i wish i could just not exist for a while

nothings worse than staying up all night because all your thoughts are taking over and you physically can't fall asleep

i always feel i have to hide parts of myself

Because when you’ve lived with sadness for so long, it starts to feel like a poison that pushes people away. Like you have to hide the worst parts of yourself or be left again. And when abandonment has cut you deeply before, every act of vulnerability feels like walking into traffic.