time loop with two people in it but one person refuses to acknowledge the loop and pretends to be looping with everyone else. meanwhile the other person is freaking out

btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here

We have so little time

omg if i was an oracle i would be LYYYYYINGGGG

I think one of the gentlest things in the world is when a friend just gets your weird little brain. like you say half a sentence and they finish it. you reference something incredibly niche from seven years ago and they’re already nodding. they understand your strange vocabulary for emotions that don’t have real words yet. it’s being seen and known and still loved. maybe especially because you’re known. god. what a gift.

*turns my attention inwards* mmmmm. no *turns my attention back outwards* oh god

so, we're all doomed cursed blood drunk and dead inside with violent toughts

i feels like there’s something missing in me that the rest of the world has and it’s not fair

fuck i just remembered i’m fundamentally unlovable

having unwashed hair will have you believing shit like i can’t be saved

hey sorry for being so snappish earlier i was in a bad mood. and im still in a bad mood so can you fuck off

*takes a bite of my cigarette*...... heh. the character...... *walks into a small puddle but it swallows me up like the ocean* *i am found dead years later in maine*

getting to that part in the day where I imagine how soothing it would be to rock back and forth in a dark room

once you realize you don’t actually need to sleep, you can really (stops talking abruptly and stares straight ahead for 4 minutes)

im going to fix my entire life